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With your face all made up, living on a screen. Low on self esteem so you run on gasoline. || Sophie (she/her) || Multi-verse and multi-ship.

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[elliotwriteswithyou]

Erika straddled Drew’s waist, rubbing her hands together quickly to warm them before tugging the other woman’s shirt up. “I know. It was my lesbian forearm strength that attracted you in the first place. That or my never ending supply of weed!” She laughed softly, beginning to knead the base of Drew’s spine slowly. If there was one thing the former ballet dancer was good at, it was giving a massage. Feet were her specialty of course. But backs were a close runner up. And if it got her a chance to touch her lovely girlfriends skin all the better! “I don’t want to turn into something you’d see on a CW show though. No weird throne chair behind a desk, no wall of windows. If you plan on turning me into a kingpin it had better be discrete.”

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Drew rolled her eyes playfully. “Definitely the lesbian forearm strength,” she murmured, letting out a soft groan as Erika began to massage her, “But the weed probably helped too.” Drew took another drag of the spliff, blowing out puffs of smoke. “No throne chair? Dammit, I’ve already ordered one,” she teased, glancing back at Erika with a smile, “But I guess I can pass on the wall of windows. I need a certain amount of privacy.”

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Roxanne was a cop and drug dealer, so it made her a little uncomfortable on both ends that Drew did what she did. “Five hundered huh? Well I suppose I can’t complain about the end results as long as I’m the only one who gets to touch.” the cop said with a husky chuckle and pulled her girlfriend in for a kiss “You know, maybe we should both think about going straight…what do you think?”

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Drew smiled as Roxanne pulled her in and she kissed her back, a little more sweetly than usual. “Going straight?” Drew said slowly, “I don’t know, Roxy. I don’t think I can.” Drew frowned a little and pulled away from Roxanne, sitting down at the kitchen table.

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Regina turned around, blew out a puff from her cigarette and then set it down into a nearby cup.  She shrugged and pressed her lips together.  “Helps?  You act like strutting before those flirty eye googlers is the best thing in the world.  I could make three times the amount…in fact most of the time..I do.”  Regina glanced down at the money and then reached out, taking it off of the counter.  “Reconsider…your career path, dear…You…are for my eyes…only…”  She wasn’t being cruel, but she was a little possessive.

[adefectivemess]

Drew ground her teeth together. “I’ve no qualifications and no one to give me references, Regina,” she snapped, “No shitty retail job is going to pay half as much as I make a night.” Drew turned away from Regina to fill the kettle with water before turning it on. “It’s not like I’m letting them touch me. A bit of a pole dance, maybe a lap dance and bam, five hundred dollars in my pocket,” she added, snatching a cup from the cupboard.

[adefectivemess]

me: [doesnt get attention for fifteen seconds]

me: [drapes self over the lounge] it is fine. i am Okay. i suppose it is simply my destiny to die alone. Abandoned. Without a soul in the world to care for me. [delicately wipes a glistening tear from my eye] i'm not bothered. i Understand why you all Hate Me and wish me dead. after all, maybe it is all for the best....... [i stare forlornly into the middle distance, allowing my limbs to go slack as i lie back and wait to wither away, ignored forever]

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“You might have said it a time or two.” Erika still hadn’t echoed the affectionate sentiment back to Drew. They lived together, had been dating for close to a year, but somehow she still felt like keeping a bit of distance was best. The fact that she hadn’t said the L word was another source of contention between the women. But that was something for another day. “This place isn’t that bad, Drew. It could be a basement apartment like some places in the city.” She packed the bowl carefully before handing it up to her girl. “Lay on your stomach and smoke. I’ll rub your back. Once I’ve got all the kinks out you’ll be so stoned you won’t mind sharing.” She grinned, giving Drew’s dark hair a gentle tug.

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Drew had taken it upon herself to ignore the fact that Erika never told her she loved her. But she couldn’t deny that it didn’t sting just a little. It often made Drew worry, a little too much in her opinion. Did Erika love her too? “I know but we can do better. Somewhere with a nice view,” Drew replied, taking the spliff from Erika. She pulled her lighter from her pocket and lit the spliff, taking a drag. “You’re the best,” she said, smiling at her before lying down on her stomach.

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She chuckled low in her throat, grinning at the soft kiss. “It could definitely be a back massage if that’s what you want. I already ordered some pizza. It should be here soon.” Erika reached up to brush the back of her hand along Drew’s cheek. They weren’t the most compatible couple but somehow they made it through. Erika knew she could get overly jealous and her yelling fits were the stuff of legend. But Drew had brought a joy to her life that no one else had before. She stole another kiss before popping open her smoke box. “This new crop is supposed to be amazing. Flea wouldn’t stop raving about it. Might be able to charge an extra $20.”

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Drew grinned. “I would love a back massage from my gorgeous girlfriend. And you ordered pizza? Did I mention that I love you?” she said teasingly, resting her chin on the top of Erika’s head. Drew, despite being opinionated and generally bratty, had her soft side but Erika was the only one who really ever saw it. She couldn’t afford to muck up her bitchy reputation. “The more money the better. Maybe we can finally move out of this shithole.”

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[elliotwriteswithyou]

“I thought we’d go to the store together in the morning.” She bit her tongue once she saw the way Drew’s shoulders knotted in anger. This was not the time to indulge in an argument. Erika set her scissors aside, reaching up to push her hands through the dark mass of her hair. “Do you want to smoke? It might help you figure out some of this tension you’ve got going on.” She waved vaguely at her girlfriends sprawling form. “Or I can think of another way to help you relax.” Erika tossed Drew a cheeky wink as she got up from the table. It took her a moment to gather her smoke box before sitting on the floor of the living room with her back to the couch.

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Drew hummed in approval as Erika suggested smoking. “I’m not tense. I’m hungry. There’s a difference,” she replied, lifting her head a little so she could get a good look at her. Her eyes lazily trailed over her girlfriend’s body, taking in all of her details. Drew rolled her eyes playfully when Erika winked and straightened up, raising an eyebrow. “Does that other way involve a back massage?” she teased, leaning over the edge of the couch so she could place a kiss on Erika’s cheek. 

[taco-bell-rey]

Ke$ha is a perfect example of how the media loves to make intelligent girls seem dumb and bitchy even though they are actually smart and caring. Ke$ha isn’t far from being a feminist icon but the media continues to label her as a dumb drunk party girl.

and Ke$ha is all for loving yourself and equality but she continues to receive harassment from mainstream media. Enough harassment to the point that she developed an eating disorder because of it. She is an example of how horrible and sexist the music industry is.

[808kangaroo]

Ke$ha stands in the category of “gifted genius”, she scored near perfect (1500) on her SAT’s and has an IQ of 140

[lassi]

[ourownside-deactivated20200909]

I don’t even feel emotions anymore I just feel “bucky barnes” with a range of filters

[iiswhoiis-deactivated20170714]

Celebrities speak out about Kesha, #FreeKesha

[mtv]

i still support you, kesha. 

[adefectivemess]

Twenty One Pilots starters

"I began to understand why God died."

"Your shaking shoulders prove that it's colder inside your head than the winter of dead."

"So I cracked open my box - someone must have picked the lock."

"Rain down and destroy me."

"I'm so very far from fine."

"You like to sleep alone. It's colder than you know."

"My trial was filed as a crazy suicidal head case."

"Friend, please, don't take your life away from me."

"A stranger's back is all I see; he's only a few feet in front of me."

"Get up, Johnny-boy."

"I think you would beat the moon in a pretty contest."

"Nothing kills a man faster than his own head."

"Look in the mirror and ask your soul if you're alright."

"If you decide to live by what you think's wrong and what's right - believe me you'll begin to wish you were sleeping

Your weeping will creep in your head and you'll cry."

"Hey, hey. Wouldn't it be great, great. If we could just lay down, wake up in slowtown."

"Have you ever done that? When you squint your eyes and your eyelashes make it look a little not right. And then when just enough light comes from just the right side -

And you find you're not who you're supposed to be?"

"We all are stranger creatures than what we all started out as kids."

"Go away, leave me alone."

"You will never know what's in my veins."

"Won't you stay alive? I'll take you on a ride. I will make you believe you are lovely."

"You're an angel fallen down, won't you tell us of the clouds?"

"Well I'm sorry Mr. Gullible, but lying's all I've learned."

"I wonder if I tell them what I did last night."

"What have I become?"

"It aint the speakers that bump hearts, it's the hearts that make the beat."

"I am not as fine as I seem."

"Lets say we up and left this town."

"Sometimes, quiet is violent."

"I'm never what I like - I'm double sided."

"'Cause there's a screen on my chest."

"I can't take them on my own."

"It's the same game today as it always is."

"I'm trying to sleep."

"I can feel your breath."

"Stay alive. Stay alive for me."

"Gangsters don't cry."

"We're stressed out."

"I've been thinking too much. Help me."

"I'm evil to the core."

"They're the tear in my heart. I'm alive."

"They say stay in your lane, boy."

"Wow. I probably should've stayed inside my house."

"Don't forget about me."

"I think I lost my halo."

"We don't believe what's on TV."

"You don't know what I've done; I'm wanted and on the run."

"Our hometown's in the dark."

"Heard you say 'not today.'"

"I'm a goner."

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[elliotwriteswithyou]

Erika glanced at the bills spilling out of the envelope before turning her attention back to clipping coupons. “I’m not fucking fighting with you about this again. You’re a big girl, Drew. I don’t own you. You can do whatever the hell you want, just like I don’t have to like it.” The brunette frowned a little, pausing to pop her neck. This was one topic they had both screamed and fought and yelled over. She was tired of the drama. “It helps. Yes. Now that I’ve said what you want to hear are you planning on taking the money to the bank or are we going to pay the electric bill in ones and fives?”

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Drew’s jaw tightened and she folded her arms. She ground her teeth but decided not to get into it with Erika, it had been in a long night and she wasn’t prepared for a screaming match. Drew snatched the money up off of the table and shoved the envelope into her bag. “I’ll do it in the morning,” she said snappily, pulling her jacket off and tossing it aside. Drew walked towards the fridge and yanked it open, letting out a sigh once she realized it was almost empty. “We need to go grocery shopping,” she said, pushing the door closed and dropping down onto the couch.

[annebolehyn]

Margot Robbie in Focus (2015)

[adefectivemess]

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Drew knew her girlfriend didn’t like her working at the strip club, the thought of all those middle-aged men looking at her like she was a piece of meat. Sometimes it even made Drew herself feel a little sick. But besides that, it was easy money and she couldn’t rely on her girlfriend’s drug dealing to pay all the bills. She threw the envelope full of dollar bills down on the table. “Five hundred bucks in one night. You may hate it but you can’t deny that it helps,” she said, leaning against the kitchen counter.

[adefectivemess]

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Drew knew her girlfriend didn’t like her working at the strip club, the thought of all those middle-aged men looking at her like she was a piece of meat. Sometimes it even made Drew herself feel a little sick. But besides that, it was easy money and she couldn’t rely on her girlfriend’s drug dealing to pay all the bills. She threw the envelope full of dollar bills down on the table. “Five hundred bucks in one night. You may hate it but you can’t deny that it helps,” she said, leaning against the kitchen counter.