Eliza | 19 | PNW

I love mountains, art and tea.

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[climbinggifs-blog]

Sasha DiGiulian climbing Lost Arrow Spire several thousand feet above Yosemite Valley.

SOURCE VIDEO: Sasha DiGiulian & Kevin Jorgeson on Lost Arrow Spire | adidas Outdoor [5:42] by adidas Outdoor [YouTube]

[simply-enjoy-the-adventuree]

[jhbrd-old]

Your soulmate is not someone who comes into your life peacefully. It is who comes to make you question things, who changes your reality, somebody that marks a before and after in your life. It is not the human being everyone has idealised, but an ordinary person, who manages to revolutionise your world in a second.

Unknown (via virgoassbitch)

[therestofyourstory]

Today I was chatting with a coworker who I knew had been in an abusive relationship in the past. She was laughing as she told me and another coworker about how her ex never let her leave the house. Like she was for real cracking jokes about his jealous rages and how she wasn’t allowed to so much as set foot outside their door if he wasn’t with her, and the way she was telling it was funny, so we laughed along. “That’s why I enjoy doing the little things now, like taking the bus and going to the bank,” she said, and we all giggled because who likes public transportation and doing errands, right?

Then she got serious for the first time since the conversation started, it lasted only for a few moments, but I will never forget the one sentence that she said without smiling: “I’m going to die before I let that happen to me again.”

There was also this one rape victim whom a relative of mine represented in court. The rapist’s lawyer tried to discredit her by pointing out that she’d laughed while giving her testimony. She was eighteen years old on the witness stand, telling a judge and a room full of people about what had been done to her. She giggled because she was embarrassed about having to describe the graphic sex acts, and she nearly lost her case because of that.

I have classmates who laughed while telling me about old men who stole kisses from them. Who made jokes out of stories about their boyfriends screening their messages and forcing them to do things they didn’t want to do. I have known girls who were molested and manipulated for years, who shake their heads and snicker at their own past selves, how could I have let him do that to me, I was so naive, hahaha. This one woman reenacted for me, complete with dramatic gestures and voice impersonations, how her ex-husband who was under a Temporary Restraining Order scaled the gate of her house with a gun, and how she’d locked herself in her bedroom and screamed at the police over the phone to come NOW. Both of us were in stitches at the end of her tale, clutching our stomachs in mirth.

Just because they laugh doesn’t mean it isn’t real.

[alpine-ardor]

I laugh when (if) I open up about my traumas. It helps me feel like they were less painful for me and to try and ease the awkward tension I know the person hearing what I’m saying will feel. I don’t need your pity, I’m fine! Pretty crazy stuff that was amiriteeeee

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I often laugh when talking about difficult things from my past. I assume that it strikes people as odd and that they notice, but never say anything and just play along. After realizing my tendencies I've noticed it a lot in the people around me. They will say things that just don't add up to the smirk on their face. I think that it's a coping mechanism to keep one from having to think seriously about something that was traumatizing.

[thelovejournals]

Loving someone does not make them deserve you.

R.H. Sin (via thelovejournals)

[jospivey-deactivated20190429]

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