Semi-Hiatus

Independent blog for Zack Fair of Final Fantasy. Plays all time lines of the F7 series and will role play with OCs and outside fandoms. Mainly post-DoC unless stated otherwise.

[ask-genesisrhapsodos]

✎ for the mun to draw a doodle of your muse

((Erro, I am GenGen and I have no idea how to draw Vincent. But here you go xD))

[adreamofahero]

“It’s not true. It’s a shitty excuse for them using you like a fucking weapon and it’s not right. You deserve to be treated with respect and awe for all the things you’ve accomplished. You should be given some damn leeway when you can’t do something. You’re not a hindrance if you can’t do something, because people are supposed to fight as a team. To cover each other’s weak spots.”

Zack threaded his fingers through Ichigos and let his other arm slid around his waist to pull him close. “They can need you to fight all they want. You can be a god on high. It doesn’t fucking matter, you still deserve to be cherished. You’re a very precious person, and some should be looking out for you just as uch as you look out for everyone else.”

[shikonnokin-blog]

“That’s kind of what I am. I… Look, Zack, even my name means ‘Number One Guardian.’ I can’t just forsake that. I think maybe my mother knew something and wanted for me to be a shield for those who had no way to protect themselves. So if they can’t protect themselves then who will other than me?” 

He greatly enjoyed being this close to Zack and nuzzled the man’s neck to try and calm him down. While it was nice to be protected, Ichigo felt it was fine. He was used to protecting people. “I’m alright, Zack. There’s nothing wrong with me, I’m right here, aren’t I? Besides, I’m protecting myself as much as I’m protecting them.”

[adreamofahero]

“Names mean jack shit man, you can choose you’re own life and destiny. And I’m saying don’t protect people- by all means please do! That’s one of the things I love about you. But I also want you to understand that these people aren’t treating you right, and you need to help yourself by either having very little contact with these people and not taking their words to heart, or confront them about the shitty things they say. A real friend would build you up if you felt bad.”

Zack nuzzled that orange hair he was so fond of and sighed. “You’re here, but you’re not alright. Your self worth is so tied to whether or not you can protect people that it’s unhealthy and will hurt you. It will give people openings to hurt you even worse. And don’t give me that, you get yourself beaten up all the time while you wait to figure out your opponent’s moves.”

[wolvesandrec]

[adreamofahero]

Zack huffed. “Telling you to just ‘get stronger because you’e too weak to help’ is the worst thank you I’ve ever heard. Leaving you alone when you need them the most is also the worst thank you that I’ve ever heard. If they can’t stand beside you at your worst, then they don’t deserve you at your best Ichi.”

He stroked a thumb over Ichigo’s cheek. “I’m not comparing losses, I’m saying we’ve had them and they both sucked. That’s exactly why people should be standing beside you no matter what- all warriors have been to that awful place. And to disreard you just because you can’t do everything at once like they want is a dishonor on everything you have done for them.”

[shikonnokin-blog]

“But it’s true. If I’m not strong enough to help then I’m a part of the problem and being a hindrance to the rest of them. So I have to keep myself in top shape so that they don’t have to hold the weight so much.” 

He put his hand on Zack’s, trying to soothe him a bit. “Zack, really, I’m fine. They need me to fight for them, it’s not something that’s too awful and it’ll be okay. As long as I’m able to fight, it’s fine. I don’t know why I’m as strong as I am, but as long as there’s someone threatening Soul Society and Earth, I’ll be there to take them out.”

[adreamofahero]

“It’s not true. It’s a shitty excuse for them using you like a fucking weapon and it’s not right. You deserve to be treated with respect and awe for all the things you’ve accomplished. You should be given some damn leeway when you can’t do something. You’re not a hindrance if you can’t do something, because people are supposed to fight as a team. To cover each other’s weak spots.”

Zack threaded his fingers through Ichigos and let his other arm slid around his waist to pull him close. “They can need you to fight all they want. You can be a god on high. It doesn’t fucking matter, you still deserve to be cherished. You’re a very precious person, and some should be looking out for you just as uch as you look out for everyone else.”

[adreamofahero]

“Then they’re the ones that need to get their shit together and get stronger. It’s not your job to babysit the people that can’t even bother to thank you!” He sets Ichigo back on his feet and takes the ginger’s face in his hands. 

“Look, I know you feel like you have to protect everyone, but you just can’t do that. You’re only human Ichigo, and humans just can’t do everything. I tried that once, and you’ve seen what I lost because of it. You’ve lived through even greater loss than that! Step back a little, take care of yourself for once. You deserve a little leeway.”

[shikonnokin-blog]

“But they are! They’re really trying, Zack, and they might not say those exact words but they thank me in different ways.” He blinked at the other taking hold of his cheeks and smiled, turning his head to kiss Zack’s palm. 

He should have seen this conversation coming between them. “Comparing our losses doesn’t make yours less than mine. I got mine back but you didn’t. Trust me, Zack, I’m okay. I get time to just sit around and relax, it’s just… things happen in a huge cluster.”

[adreamofahero]

Zack huffed. “Telling you to just ‘get stronger because you’e too weak to help’ is the worst thank you I’ve ever heard. Leaving you alone when you need them the most is also the worst thank you that I’ve ever heard. If they can’t stand beside you at your worst, then they don’t deserve you at your best Ichi.”

He stroked a thumb over Ichigo’s cheek. “I’m not comparing losses, I’m saying we’ve had them and they both sucked. That’s exactly why people should be standing beside you no matter what- all warriors have been to that awful place. And to disreard you just because you can’t do everything at once like they want is a dishonor on everything you have done for them.”

[adreamofahero]

“I don’t think people that call you weak after you saved their sorry asses several times over deserve to be called friend. And they’re all warriors! Which means they really ought to know better than to call you weak after fighting so many battles- right after one another with no rest! Also fuck being protected, they can fight for their own damn selves. They did fine without you before, they’ll be fine without you fighting their battles now.”

[shikonnokin-blog]

“Well yeah, they’re warriors but that doesn’t mean they don’t still need me. Enemies are stronger now and it’s not hard for them to get overwhelmed, so I do what I can to support and protect them. If I can’t do that, I’m not doing my job right.”

[adreamofahero]

“Then they’re the ones that need to get their shit together and get stronger. It’s not your job to babysit the people that can’t even bother to thank you!” He sets Ichigo back on his feet and takes the ginger’s face in his hands. 

“Look, I know you feel like you have to protect everyone, but you just can’t do that. You’re only human Ichigo, and humans just can’t do everything. I tried that once, and you’ve seen what I lost because of it. You’ve lived through even greater loss than that! Step back a little, take care of yourself for once. You deserve a little leeway.”

[shikonnokin-blog]

adreamofahero replied to your post:Picks up Ichigo and throws him over his shoulder….

“No it’s really not! I refuse to let you be treated like trash after all you’ve done for these fuckfaces!”

“Zack, they’re my friends, be nice! Besides, they’re not treating me like trash, they just need my protection.”

[adreamofahero]

“I don’t think people that call you weak after you saved their sorry asses several times over deserve to be called friend. And they’re all warriors! Which means they really ought to know better than to call you weak after fighting so many battles- right after one another with no rest! Also fuck being protected, they can fight for their own damn selves. They did fine without you before, they’ll be fine without you fighting their battles now.”

[sharingflannelswithsatan]

[son-of-eden]

Please reblog this if you’re someone who would be interested in roleplaying polyamorous relationships.

As someone who is poly, there is very little representation of my relationship structure in media/RP, and that’s sort of frustrating. I would like to find more people to rp this type of relationship with.

[peony-pearl]

X

[adreamofahero]

@sekaixnixshinimashita || Continued

Normally when Ichigo came home, Zack would greet him at the door with a big hug, plenty of kisses and chattering about his latest mission. Today howeer, he stayed in bed, not bothering to move even when ichigo flopped down next him and began doing zack’s favorite thing. He just didn’t have the energy. And, if Ichigo’s body tension was anything to go by, his boyfriend hadn’t had it much better.

“No. Angeal’s gone. Seph said he deserted.” His voice is flat. Quiet in a way that Zack never was. “Said he left ShinRa to follow Genesis.”

Maybe it wasn’t immediately obvious to anyone else in ShinRa, but Zack Fair had never felt so betrayed. Or that right now, he was wallowing in a pity party of it.

[cheriafreya]

[phantomyre]

He’s so beautiful and he doesn’t even know it. 

Square Enix better do him better justice and answer a few questions!

[tinyienzo]

That slow motion moment when you beat a boss in Kingdom Hearts

Reblog if you agree

[confiterramoved-deactivated2016]

@adreamofahero

“I’m sorry, Zack…” 

The brunet sighed, shaking his head quietly. “I still feel like my memories aren’t entirely lining up properly. Or rather, that they are still fuzzy.” He admitted quietly. “I still remember the things before Aqua, Ven and I went missing but after that is… a giant blur.” 

[adreamofahero]

“It’s okay Terra!” Zack gently draped an arm over his friend’s shoulders. “If you’re memories aren’t there, it’s probably for a good reason. They’ll come back eventually, and even if they don’t! That’s okay to! Whatever else, we’ll find Aqua and Ven and then we’ll get the rest of the story from them.”

[killlgod-blog]

new fun game: reblog this post with yours and your muse’s hogwarts houses in the tags

[twiliightprincess]

Share this pic and good fortune will come ur way

[adreamofahero]

@sekaixnixshinimashita  ISA LOOK, IT’S THEIR CHILD

[adreamofahero]

phantomdirge replied to your post:

[[-smooshes face in affection- It is appreciated~ Also I don’t suppose you have a skype?]]

[phantomyre]

((I do actually, though I don’t use it very often. I roleplay a little on it. *smiles and ruffles your hair* I’ll inbox you.

[adreamofahero]

[[Sweet! I ask because skype is the best way to reach me when I’m not on zack’s blog.]]