Æthelia @aethelia - Tumblr Blog

calling ur dad “my father” is just the socially acceptable way of saying “my dads a bastard and i hate him”

Same goes for ‘My mother’

If you meet someone and they call their parents ‘father’ and ‘mother’ they either were raised in an Amish community or have absolute bastard parents

#i...i call her mother when im scolding her LMAO #my sister calls her by her full name but nah i just say mother. what you doing.

Yes, it's same person. Hope your sleep goes better. I have problems with insomnia at times too.

Hi, wow, I haven’t been on here for a while. My sleep has been getting better lately, thankfully. Honestly being in a warmer climate right now is helping, not to mention the lack of any pressure + stress. I’m also taking GABA at night (since melatonin didn’t help at all) and I think that helps too. The downside is that I get a lot of dreams that kinda drain my brain (Well last night my dream went from vidcalling Shinee’s Minho when he was at some American talk show to kaistal being in a weird relationship that ended in mutilation and death??? Lol) but everything is better so far and I’m hoping that this continues!

hi just checking in. hope you're doing well <3

Hi anon! Is this the same person as last time??? You’re too sweet! Uh, things are slowly getting better right now even though there are still a lot of downs. Mostly the biggest problem is that with my medication I need a lot more sleep, but I also have issues with insomnia as well :/ But...not a lot of mental breakdowns these days, and I’d gladly lose more days of sleep to keep that going.

newtmos

“I know we have bigger goals in mind,” Minho continued. “We need to connect with the Right Arm, figure out what to do about WICKED – all that save-the-world-klunk. But first we’re going to find Newt. This isn’t open for discussion. The four of us – all of us – are flying to wherever we need to go, and we’re getting Newt out of there.”

aethelia

Honestly I’m still not over the fact that In the end Minho and Newt had the longest close relationship compared to others - they lived through and remembered it all - but their friendship was always...a lot more subtle and underrated? Wtf? :/

#minewt #get fucked emotions #tmr

museelo

aethelia

Look at that last gif where Minho stares at newt for seconds like wow are you guys really here? And yeah he glances at Thomas again but looks right back at newt because even if thominho are buddies minewt have literally spent years in the glade working and living together and asdfghjkl like I don’t even care about the ship anymore but WHY WASNT THE MINEWT FRIENDSHIP SHOWN MORE IN THESE MOVIES?????

#minewt #can relationships and plots and everything not have to be focused on the protagonist all the goddamn time??????#like thomas. great. but....im also interested in the other folks too #tmr #death cure

sobloodyinspired

tdc book, minho: we’re finding newt no matter what

tdc movie, newt: we’re finding minho no matter what

#the one thing they got right #was how much they meant to each other #that when one was lost #the other’s priority was always to find him #tmr #minewt

tmrangst

OKAY

Everyone’s like “oh no poor Thomas” “oh Thomas and that necklace” “oh Thomas must be so sad in the safe haven”

BUT WHAT ABOUT MINHO

Newt left Minho, too

Minho thought he could save Newt, too

And let’s think about this for a moment.

Minho never actually got to say goodbye

Newt didn’t give Minho anything

Minho literally gets saved by Newt only to discover that he’s infected and will probably die. He then runs around trying to get the cure for him only to arrive to see his best friend laying on the ground with a knife through his chest after being left in the arms of Thomas

And Newt and Minho go way back

If we’re following the movie then we have in the comic that Newt and Thomas were best buds. But that was before the maze.

In the maze we have Minho running around and then finding Newt laying on the ground half dead and dragging his body back to the glade.

We have Minho having to recover himself from that and trying to make sure Newt never gets to that depressed point ever again.

We have Minho trying to protect Newt at all costs

We have Minho getting so happy when he sees Newt smile again

Yeah, sure, Thomas comes and him and Newt have a connection, but Newt literally risks his life for Minho

Refusing to stay and wait with Gally for the serum, and instead running around with Thomas to find Minho because “Minho comes first”

Minho is the one to write Newt’s name on the rock.

And Thomas probably never even showed Minho that note. Minho was the one who found it and gave it back to him and Thomas knows that it is their last piece of Newt. Thomas knows how far Minho and Newt go back and he knows how much Minho is dying inside. ( And in the book he promises to never tell Minho what happened to Newt and in the movie he never shows him the letter that newt wrote to him)

Basically, Minho is suffering. And it’s overlooked

aethelia

Minho and Newt made their connection in the maze with their memories wiped out. Have had each other since their days of the glade. Went through all the shit together - and seriously, Minho probably beats himself up over this.

Maybe if I had been faster. Maybe if I had been better. Maybe if I had just pushed myself a little more...I could have made it.

#minewt #hi it is 2 in the morning and i didnt need this despresso #tmr #death cure #wow ive really missed minewt #i need a fandom with less toxicity rn #not that tmr is the best...but its definitely a lot better

“ahhhh why is baekhyun so cute..he's legit using kyungsoo forehead phonecase!!! baeksoo sailing!~ 🐧🐶 #baeksoo #백수 #BAEKHYUN #백현 #KYUNGSOO #DO #경수 #디오”

I’m not sure why no one has talked about baek using ksoo’s forehead as a phone case yet, but!!!

#why are they so adorable?#i just want someone to love me like baek loves soo #baeksoo #bbh #dks #exo #kpop

it makes me feel the most like shit when i try to think what my purpose in life is...and i can’t think of anything. if i died today, so what? if the earth blew up, so what?

so here i am, being fucking depressed and dysfunctional and bearing this pain everyday, for seemingly no reason. that...that’s the real tragedy.

#depression talk #no seriously what's the point #being bipolar sucks #being anxious sucks #being alive fucking sucks

hi. i dont know you well. i don't believe we have even ever spoken on here. just wanted to let you know i still care though and you are not alone. hope you are feeling better today and if not, hope it's a better day tomorrow and on.

Wow! Hi! I seriously rarely come on to the site anymore, but thanks for this message! It’s...really encouraging esp. since I’ve been feeling super overwhelmed and down these few days, so thank you for your warming message <3

zarathustra-would-be-proud

aethelia

But at the same time, who would I be without my mental disorders?

This hit me real hard during therapy. Being mental has been my normal for almost all my life - I’ve had so many identity crises over the years, it almost made me a little afraid to get better because i wasn’t sure who I’d become.

#personal #life really sucks

hstmw-deactivated20180619

“What depression feels like.”

aethelia

It gets to a point where I really want to die but I’m also so depressed I don’t have the energy to do anything about it.

#hello this was me for the past few days #literally in bed all the time #and it was so draining even though i was resting and sleeping #and so sad because i didnt know what i was doing still alive #personal

abthepoet

Because there isn’t always a reason.

aethelia

Things people have told me about why I’m sad:

1. Are you getting enough sun?

Considering that I grew up in a super tropical area with literally sun everyday all year long, yes.

2. Are you exercising?

I don’t think I’ve stopped doing sports/some form of exercising since I was in middle school.

3. Did something happen????

No. No! NO! Why is this so hard to understand? I went out with some friends and had a great time last night, and I woke up this morning feeling depressed and sad and unable to do anything. That’s it.

No I didn’t fight with anyone, no I didn’t get a bad grade, no I’m not anxious about any tests coming up, no nothing and happened.

I’m just sad.

And sometimes being sad doesn’t need a reason, okay? Stop trying to justify my emotions.

#personal #mental health #mental illness #seriously im just tired all the time and no i dont want to explain how i feel because i dont know why i feel like this

I don’t want to wake up tomorrow because even just thinking about tomorrow makes me anxious and more depressed.

#mental health #bipolar #sorry its been a lot of depressing posts #but when theres no motivation and no drive #its hard to go on #im honestly really tired #and being tired makes me tired