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i wish someone would pet and love me unconditionally like a dog (remembers people follow me and see my posts) ive actually never cared about or wanted anything

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torchbearer running to clancy in city walls will never not be important to me because that was never part of the plan. he wasn’t supposed to look back. what was he expecting to do to help? if he had the capability to take down nico himself he would’ve done so.

torchbearer had no plan when it came to how he would help clancy, didn’t even know if he could. but he couldn’t leave him there. torchbearer ran up that tower with no plan simply because he couldn’t imagine not going to him when clancy was in danger. can you hear me

netherator

pocketing my delicious ooze

cilceon

Isn’t this what that one guy from twenty one pilots does

willbeundone

putting Downstairs on this album has Got to be one of the most insanity inducing things they've ever done. a 14 year old demo whose lyrics feel straight off tyler's solo album that josh has insisted he hold on to after multiple attempts to delete. because that music is the music that initially brought josh to tyler so of course of Course he likes it.

of course the guy who heard time to say goodbye and blew his whole life up to play in tylers band loves this fucking song. to the point of asking him to rework it and convincing him to put it out on an album that carries the weight of wrapping up a decade long storyline surrounding not being able to beat the demons in your own head alone. while the entire song is begging for forgiveness for becoming something you don't want to become and hiding that thing away.

a song where he is speaking directly to a higher being telling it to take everything that he is as long as he is seen on the album that ends with a hidden track saying that he has looked into the eyes of his demons and been found anyway. a five and a half minute guilt track wedged in between a single about broken promises and a joyous surrender to love.

How Fucking Long has josh had the drums for this song in his head. what did it sound like before they reworked it for breach. when will i find peace. fuck.

its my birthday

#tøp #tyler joseph #josh dun #clique art #happy birthday to me

lutervania

Crosspostjnf But that shadowlord guy is pretty cool....

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UGHHHHHH, GGGSHSS BLGH ☹️😭 UHHHH 😞😞😞😞😞

#GODDDDDDD #NEED HIM #date everything

i think they’d be great friends

#date everything #our flag means death #captain jacques pierrot #edward teach #its not tøp but please dont leave

#i WILL be getting tickets #i WILL be getting a ride to wantagh #i WILL be seeing tøp breach tour in wantagh #i will go to the wantagh show #im going to the wantagh show #tickets will not be scalped #i will get tickets to the breach show in wantagh #im going to wantagh whether they like it or not

ohio twink and his stupid fucking boyfriend that i turned to stone

#twenty one pilots #tøp #clique art #clancybearer #breach tøp #theres an allegory in this somewhere that im too lazy to explain rn #real ones understand

need a shirt that says “i survived the clancy tour london n2 clancybearer divorce (barely, had to claw my way out the caverns with chills in my bones)”

#twenty one pilots #tøp #tøp clique

so… who’s winning ned in the divorce

#twenty one pilots #clancybearer #my vote’s on tb #tøp

everyone stop talking about the doubt demo im still ill over new clancybearer…

this was originally supposed to be a non lore related piece for my au (which you should totally check out on my page) but then the letter dropped and i knew exactly what i had to do

#the composition kinda embarassing #but i hope to make that up with exceptional lighting #twenty one pilots #tøp #clikkie #tyler joseph #clancy tøp #josh dun #tøp art #tøp au #clancybearer

just imagine the sheer amount of survivor’s guilt and religious trauma induced ptsd that clancy probably wouldve felt when he found out that KEONS of all people was the one to essentially be the only catalyst that allowed him his freedom, and that he DIED for it as a result.

someone that is essentially your god

part of the same group that enslaved you and turned you into their weapon

who was probably complicit in that for presumably ages

and you find out that they’re the only reason you were even able to escape at all.

they DIED for YOU.

isnt that soul-crushing? having to deal with his conflicting devotion to the bishops (which personally i dont think ever fully went away), recovering from imprisonment, having to navigate (haha) part of an island he knows nothing about completely by himself and then hearing this news on top of it? and yet he still has to do his part in completely betraying these same people that he probably hasnt even fully made up his mind on.. i doubt that with all the pressure of the rebellion he could possibly get a single moment to himself to even THINK about any of these feelings at all.

he probably still feels like he owes them. all of them. prays before bed every night crying and begging for forgiveness. what if he feels like a traitor to both sides? keons wasn’t just his region. TONS of people lost, again, what is basically their GOD because of CLANCY and probably view him as the DEMA antichrist or something like that because of it. people that he probably once knew too. and he probably thinks that about himself. he probably wishes keons wouldve never saved him, and instead left him to rot and die of starvation under imprisonment.

and on the more headcanon-y side of things… he probably never wanted to become this symbol of rebellion at all. he was made one, he didn’t ask for any of these huge things to happen to him. he just wanted to live a better life, and the world has essentially punished him for it.

god… im so ill…all the implications of dema lore are so incredibly heartbreaking.