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LETTERS TO A BROKEN HEART

[aileen2690]

Heartbreak is not meant to be a permanent resident.

when the person you love walks away,do not build a forthless around your heart. Do not allow a foundation to form,brick by brick,layer by layer,squeezing out the warmth and leaving your insides cold. Do not build a wall in the name of protection,when all you're doing is isolating yourself.

When the person you love leaves,do not spend all your time and energy pushing everyone out,drawing in breezes and painful thoughts. Do not allow your mind to wander to places where it shouldn't go,convincing yourself that you will never feel as light and free as you once did. Do not shut the blinds,close the windows. Do not cast away the world that comes knocking at your door.

When heartbreak comes,do not give it a home.

Do not hand it a key to your safe place,built,by walls and fear. Do not open the door and make room for it, shoving everything else you care about aside so it can inhabit you fully. Do not let heartbreak put it's feet up on the couch,making itself comfortable.

Do not let your heartbreak overstay it's welcome. Do not let it reside within you any longer than it has to.

Heartbreak will come. It will come barreling into your life with force, throwing open every closed part of you,oozing itself into the little cracks you've tried to ignore for so long. It will be like salt to the wounds,making your body light up with pain. But it will also be dull and numbing,a deep ache that doesn't seem to fade,no matter what you try to distract yourself with.

Heartbreak will come. It will come sometimes when you least expect, and sometimes when you know it's headed your way but try to deny it, try to close your eyes,as if that will change the trajectory. It will come slowly, then all at once as you gasp for air. It will come and change the way you see the world, see your reflection in the mirror,see the next step and days of your life.

But heartbreak is not meant to be a permanent resident.

Heartbreak is meant to be felt, demands to be felt. Heartbreak makes you throw everything else aside and think about what went wrong,what could have changed,and whether or not you're to blame. Heartbreak shows you the parts of yourself you keep hidden,the ways you loved and lost, and maybe,somewhere underneath it all,how you are better off apart from the person,rather than together.

Heartbreak teaches lessons,give strenght, allows for a point in which to restart,to begin again. It stays. It teaches. It rebuilds. And then it leaves.

Sometimes slowly, sometimes piece by piece,but eventually the feeling of loss is replaced by acceptance. The feeling of pain is replaced by purpose. Hopelessness replaced by assurance. Confusion replaced by confidence. Fear replaced by faith.

So do not give heartbreak a home within your chest. Do not construct an impenetrable building for it to occupy. Do not allow it to lay claim to who you are or will become.

Do not let it get comfortable staying where it is not meant to stay.

You are the owner of your heart, the one who gets to decide how and when you will move on. This process won't be easy or painless,but it will be worthwhile.

Each day you will grow stronger and warmer, even when it feels like you're drowning in darkness. So hold on.Do not allow heatbreak to reside within you for too long; you must know you are bigger than it. You must know you can, and will overcome.

So feel it. Acknowledge it. Let it break you. Let it build you. Then let it go.

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[aileen2690]

Dear You,

It's been over a year since I drove off crying and you walked away. Back in highschool we could barely survive a week without each other, but here we are year later. I guess I have a lot to say since that year, but nothing worth mentioning, really. Not a day has gone by without something reminding me of you. I keep forgetting to forget, I suppose. I don't have any anger built up and the only sadness I feel is that hopeless feeling; we used to be so close and now we're complete strangers. I think that's sad, but I also understand that this is how it will be. I've come to term s with that. I don't toss and turn at night, awke with the memories of you anymore. I don't cry. I don't dread our old anniversary. As the days go by I think of you less. I wonder a lot if I'll ever finally forget you. I don't think I will. But I'm okay with that. It's the only way I'll will. But I'm okay with that. It's the only I'll prevent myself from making the same mistake twice. Please don't take that as me saying you were a mistake, you weren't a mistake and the time we spent together is time I'll always cherish. The mistake was holding on for too long. Sometimes, no matter how much you love someone, it just doesn't work. We spent so long trying to make it work that I think we began to resent each other, which led to the terrible things that happened. We just didn't know how to be apart.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

Your hands on my body generate the most elated feelings. You brush my hair from my face. You rub my back. You play with my hands. Always touching me and I can't get enough of it.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

It took me a long time to get to where I am today. Everyday was, and continues to be, a process. I didn't wake up one morning and suddenly feel better. In a lot of ways, I'm still broken. But I'm not fragile and I'm no weak. I can stand on my own. I'm not completely healed, and maybe I was yesterday. It's hard, moving on from heartbreak. I'm not really sure you ever completely move on either, I surely hope so, but I don't know yet. All I can do is continue to be strong and keep myself happy. I'll be even better tommorow.

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

You're knocking down all these walls so much quicker than I anticipated, but I felt so safe with you last night. We shared something so passionate and intimate, something I've never felt with anyone else before. it was scary, but refreshing. I'm falling for you.

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

I feel I spend so many of my nights thinking about you, I find myself perpetually free failing into love with you.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

Every time I see you, your smile gets brighter, your eyes more blue and I find myself more and more attracted to you. The little things, I swear it's always the little things. The way you rub my back when I'm in pain. The way you play with my hands they way I like. The way you are always readjusting yourself while we sleep so that you're as close as possible. I don't even have to say a thing, you just do it. I've come to the realization that you feel it way before you say it.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

I couldn't shake the feeling. The anxiety became so overwhelming and I just couldn't figure it out. But then it suddenly all began to make sense. As you slowly climb over the walls I so diligently built, the memories come rushing back in as a defense mechanism. My heart is terrified of being strung along and thrown against the floor. Picking up the tiny pieces is hard. The memories come flooding back to prevent me from letting you in. But my heart, it beats for you.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

i can't tell if I'm in love with you or just appreciative of you treating me the way a girl should be treated. I find it on the tip of my tongue a lot recently though. I always hold back because I know you aren't in a rush to fall in love. Maybe it's just happiness.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

The memories, they surround me. Slither in my peaceful dreams and catch me around corners. They're bittersweet, a heaven sent curse, really. Perhaps they constrain us to keep us from running too far from where we came from. They hold us back so we aren't reckless. Restrict our freedom to protect us from more. They keep the beautiful alive and fresh in our minds, but with the fantastic comes the wicked as well.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

I've spent countles nights laying awake praying that sleep would wash over my dreary eyes soon. Just when I thought the tears would finally stop rolling down my cheeks, they kept pouring out, trying to wash my soul of the memories and pain. Blow after blow my heart cowered in fear of never being whole again. I was sure I'd be haunted for the rest of my life. Out of no where, the sun rose slowly. It was so bright I couldn't keep my eyes open. Once I felt myself falling. Happiness has helped piece together my broken heart. All because of you.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

I'm haunted by this thought that this is all a dream. When I wake up, It'll be a year ago. Right after my heart shattered. I'll have to relive it all. I'm terrified that none of this is real. I'm terrified that I won't haven't met you yet. I'm terrified that I won't remember everything exactly the way it was so that I can make sure I'm led right back into your arms.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

Strings of words and letters and lines. Circle and circles and circles delicately intertwined forming webs and spirals and shades of the most spectacular colors you've ever seen. Drips of water falling through the molecules of oxygen so tightly wound together. Explosions of lights contrasting againts the dark sky. The sun beating down and warming your skin. Your favorite color and driving through all the green lights. The way these things warm your heart, that's you.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

I'd give everything I posses to be with you. The way our body touched. The warmth of your chest on mine. I felt your tough arms, and kissed your shoulder. You kissed me on my forehead and told me you loved me. I swear, that was probably the best feeling I've ever felt. It felt so great knowing someone could possibly love me that much. I don't regret a single thing and I hope I will never have to regret it in the future.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

Dear You,

There's a certainly in your step and a confidence in the breaths you step and a confidence in the breaths you lay silently next to me asleep. The way your hand always finds mine. You grip tightly and I remember to breathe again.

Love, Me

[aileen2690]

I don't know if I want to write here anymore. I've fallen for someone else, someone that makes me happy. This has been a wonderful outlet for the past year as I wrote through the hardest times of my break up. I wrote as cried, as I found happiness. For those of you who have been reading since the beginning, you've seen it all unfold. You've watched me build myself back up. For those of you that jumped in along the way, you've found something to identify with, I'm sure. I just don't know if this is for me anymore. I'm sure. I just don't know if this is for me anymore. I'm in love with my boyfriend and I'm happy. Really happy. If you want my personal, message me off-anon. I'm not sure what I'm doing with this blog anymore.

[aileen2690]

Heartbroken,

I started this blog a little over a year ago in order to deal with a devastating break up. I knew i needed to do some inward healing and self-discovery in order to fix the things that were broken. Regardless of if i ended back up with my ex or decided to move on, I learned along the way. This blog, in so many ways was a coping mechanism, and a necessary one that. I wrote here religiously, sharing with you all the thoughts and emotions of a broken-hearted girl. A year and three months have passed and i'm healed. Not completely, there are still scars from my past that present problems for my future, but i'm happy and whole. I'm a better person today than i was yesterday. Unfortunately, I don't think writing here is for me anymore. I'm in a relationship with someone new and this blog, although it has been amazing, is a reminder of the past. I won't be deleting it, I just won't be writing in it anymore. I don't think I'll ever come back to this, unless my heart gets broken again, which for obvious reasons, I pray it doesn't. I stopped writing on my personal blog, but I'm going to start back up again, So for those of you that would still like to follow me my personal is aileen2690 I want to thank you all for following me through this journey.

To those of you that just had your heart broken, remember to love yourself. Things get better, I promise they do. It's hard and it hurts like hell but you'll pull through.

Love Me,