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"Why did you have to make me wait?"

Your booming voice makes my blood boil, and I scream back as your equal: "Why did you have to leave me?"

2.8.15

I guess we both placed each other on pedestals. The only difference Was that I made your's out of stone And you placed me on glass.

#iloveyoumore #becauseiloveyoulikenooneelsecan

I’m very difficult to love.

#imnot ok #needysonofabitch

It's been quite sometime since I've felt "okay". Lately, I've just been "bearable".

I love you,

But I also despise you

Very,

Very much.

#idonthateyou #ijusthatesomethingsthatyoudo

It's nearly 3:00AM in the fucking morning on a school night, And instead of getting some rest for my already sleep-deprived body, My mind is drowning with thoughts of you.

The way you look, How you smile, The sound of your laughter ringing gently into my ears. The way you tell me words that you say are sincere, But I regard with so much doubt. The way you treat me like I'm the most important thing in your world, Yet you disappear so quickly. The way you frustrate me without meaning to, The way you make me want to laugh, Cry, Tear myself apart. Because you're you, And no one else could possibly Drown me in such insanity.

#latenight #ineedsleep #butithinkineedyoumore

Sometimes, I want to rip your eyes right out of their sockets So that they'll stop seeing How much more beautiful everyone else is around me. Other times, I just want to cuddle up and be alone with you, Maybe cry on your shoulder in the silence of the night; Because I can no longer contain this sin called "Envy".

#imsorryforbeingsocomplicated #envy #lowselfesteem #loveyourself

Feigning innocence, Distracting myself, Ignoring the fact that the world

is falling apart at my feet.

#innocencelost #avoidingreality #fakeituntilyoumakeit

Maybe it's just me, But I find it very hard to be poetic about sex.

#what am I even writing #not poetry

They told him that he could only have her once they ripped away her innocence Her beauty Her kindness And her morals Once she was broken and bruised Beyond repair Beyond utter recognition. He smiled, And willingly took her anyway.

#this is what true love is #find someone who will love you no matter what

You told me you believed in me, but you turned right around and threw my insecurities at my skin, like broken, splintered pencils.

#Broken pencils #ithoughtyoulovedme #youdontknowhowithurts #bulletwords

I just want my tight-muscled legs to relax from the cold, the creamy scent of hot chocolate wafting in the air, and for the pain to leave me alone for a little while.

#hotcocoa #chocolate #itscold

For you, my heart palpitates, my brain disintegrates, my emotions fluctuate, my morals die.

Find someone Who will silence your insanity completely Or enjoy it with you Like a bowl of ice cream.

- Joy.

#insanity

“so small”

He told us we were shrinking And I was terrified. I am already only five foot one. To shrink any more than this, in a world so big and vast and scary, It frightened me.

What was worst was that he was right. Despite my significance being as miniscule as the atoms of a dust mite, I was shrinking.

#joyfulthoughts #deepermeanings

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