no surrender

I thought this would be easy.

I shall focus on that. And you should focus too. I promise you the same. Indeed. You are awesome too, that’s why you two were friends. Because you two were awesome people.

It’s all gonna be okay Rach. Probably not right now, but eventually. You’ll see.

I thought this would be easy.

Of course it’s not fair. This isn’t fair at all for us. It doesn’t sound corny at all. But it’s hard to move on. I can’t think on moving on, at least not now. I’m not ready. I have the fear I will forget him and I don’t want that. But you are right, we will have him in our hearts and minds.

Then just focus on all the awesome times you guys had together. But I promise you won’t forget him. It’s impossible to forget someone as awesome as Finn.

I thought this would be easy.

How will we get through this? He shouldn’t be gone. How, Noah, how? I can’t even have the courage to talk to Carol without bursting into tears. You are right, Finn wouldn’t want that, he’d want us to move on and be happy. He was a good guy. A good boyfriend and a good friend. I’m glad you are here though. I couldn’t been able to talk to Kurt or Santana neither.

We just will. We have to. And I know, it’s not fair that he’s gone. And I don’t know why, but he is, and we just have to deal with it and keep moving on. He was the best, and we’ll always have him here in our thoughts, as corny as that sounds.

I thought this would be easy.

I don’t want to figure it out. I want him next to me, Noah! He wasn’t supposed to die. He was supposed to be teaching after graduating and I’d get home with him after winning several Tonys. All my future plans with him are gone. I don’t know where to start, I’ve been moving by inercia this whole time. I do have it. You still have mine? I will be texting you soon, promise. And it goes to you too. You can text me if you need anything.

#c: rachel #i just really wanted to use this gif XD

And you don’t think I don’t want him here too? He’s been my best friend since I can remember. We were like the three musketeers, but missing one of them because we were so tight, we didn’t need someone else. You just have to... keep going. I know it’s hard. You know I do, but we can’t just stop livin’ ‘cause he did. You know Finn wouldn’t want that. But yeah, I got yours.

I thought this would be easy.

I’m glad I’m not the only one who still talks to him. I don’t even know how to continue with my life. Maybe…maybe we could check each others to see we are going the right path.

You’ll figure it out. But that sounds good. You have my number, right? You can always text me if you need anything.

#c: rachel #you good

I thought this would be easy.

It doesn’t feel. I feel it was yesterday we were going to Mr. Shuester’s wedding and now he’s gone.It might sound crazy but I still talk to him every day.

It ain’t crazy. I do the same thing. He’s still supposed to be here and tell me what an idiot I’m being. He kept me in check and now... I don’t know who’s supposed to do that.

I thought this would be easy.

But all I want is to stay in bed and still feel it’s just a bad dream.

You took the words out of my mouth, Berry. It just don’t feel real.