love and whatnot

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[wnq-writers]

Some nights she goes to sleep with excitement as explosive as the galaxies. Other nights she lays in bed hoping to fall asleep before she falls apart.

RayWritess  (via wnq-writers)

[i-wrotethisforme]

It’s tough but possible to accept that we’re just never going to mean anything to some people but what’s tragic is how we can mean nothing to the same people we once meant the world to.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

I love talking to you but we should stop. Because you’re always happy and it makes my heart hurt every time you smile at me because you have the best smile I’ve seen in a long time- possibly ever- and the world can’t afford to lose it. But you need to stop because all I can think about when you look at me like you love me is how much I really really don’t want to hurt you and how much I’ll hate myself when I do.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

I know you’re going to see me walk right past you at the bar one night and wonder why I didn’t stop to say hi. And you’re not going to know how much it hurt me to do that. And you’re going to stop yourself from following me. And I’m going to spend the rest of the night wondering why you didn’t. But I’m not going to text you and I’m not going to call you and I’m not going to look for you as I’m leaving. And you’re going to spend the rest of your night hoping I do. But if I happen to see you and you happen to catch my eye, I’m going to look at you in a very specific way. And you’re going to recognize it because it’s going to be the same way you looked at me the last night I saw you. But this time I’m going to be the one walking away and I’m not going to come back.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

I know you’re not sorry. And I know you’re not miserable like I wanted. But I also know that the way you looked at me that time I woke you up in the middle of the night to make you explain time travel was genuine love. And you’ll never feel that again. So maybe in the end, I’m the one that should be sorry.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

The real beauty of being human is knowing that whether something destroys or strengthens you is completely your choice.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

I’m a horrible person to fall in love with because I’ll introduce you to all these things I know you’ll love. And I’ll make you feel like a part of my family. And I’ll randomly send you candid pictures I took of you cuddling with my dog. And I’ll make sure you associate everything that makes you happy with me. And then one day, without much warning, but because I have to, I’ll leave.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

I think the worst feeling is being hurt by someone and not understanding why but then being in the same situation with the roles reversed, where you have to hurt someone for the same reason and finally understanding 1. Why they did it, and 2. That it really was necessary.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

I wish I didn’t want to see you again and it sucks because you’re nothing special and I know that. But I guess for some reason I want to believe that I didn’t waste my time with you and that maybe the door isn’t completely closed. And I still want you to see me in town one day from across the street and fall in love again. But I know that’s not real and I hate myself for wishing it could be.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

I think the worst feeling is being hurt by someone and not understanding why but then being in the same situation with the roles reversed, where you have to hurt someone for the same reason and finally understanding 1. Why they did it, and 2. That it really was necessary.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

I think I’m strong and I think I’m compassionate and I think I can make a difference in the world if I decide to but I hate you because you made me doubt that. Because out of all the things in this world to cry over, I cried over you. And after all the things that I’ve gotten through, I let you take me down. And out of all the better, more important things that I could have dedicated my time to, I spent hours thinking about you, talking myself out of calling you, wondering why you did what you did and what I did wrong. And you didn’t deserve that. Out of all the things that deserved my time, tears, effort, and passion, you were never one.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

I’m always so wrong about the people I thought I knew and then the people I wrote off from the beginning always tend to surprise me. That’s why I don’t trust myself. Because even when I think I’m sure about something, I’m usually wrong. And the higher my hopes are, the further they have to fall. So from now on no more favorites, no more assumptions, no more “he would nevers.” It’s whoever shows up and proves themself that matters.

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[i-wrotethisforme]

The hardest thing is to accept that someone you care about is treating you badly. Maybe not on purpose, and maybe not all the time, but you have a self worth and a value and if you pretend that you don’t know what it is, so will everyone else.

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[theliteraryjournals]

I allow the truth to be the truth, no matter how much I might want it to be something else.

Jonathan Maberry, Dust and Decay (via theliteraryjournals)

[theliteraryjournals]

Let me tell you a truth… No matter what choice you make, it doesn’t define you. Not forever. People can make bad choices and change their minds and hearts and do good things later; just as people can make good choices and then turn around and walk a bad path. No choice we make lasts our whole life. If there’s ever a choice you’ve made that you no longer agree with, you can make another choice

Jonathan Maberry, Dust and Decay (via theliteraryjournals)

[theliteraryjournals]

I allow the truth to be the truth, no matter how much I might want it to be something else.

Jonathan Maberry, Dust and Decay (via theliteraryjournals)

[theliteraryjournals]

Let me tell you a truth… No matter what choice you make, it doesn’t define you. Not forever. People can make bad choices and change their minds and hearts and do good things later; just as people can make good choices and then turn around and walk a bad path. No choice we make lasts our whole life. If there’s ever a choice you’ve made that you no longer agree with, you can make another choice

Jonathan Maberry, Dust and Decay (via theliteraryjournals)