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[ak21e-blog]

Suicide is, objectively, the best thing for me. I'm too ugly to ever be happy. I'm too ugly to make anyone else happy.

[ak21e-blog]

I failed her in so many significant ways. I was so petty and cruel. The worst part isn't being alone, it's hurting the patient, kind person I loved so much they had to stop loving me. I can't ever live this down.

[70sscifiart]

Alien trading cards, 1979

[70sscifiart]

A complete Dope Rider episode by Paul Kirchner

[ak21e-blog]

I feel really torn up inside. Like I've been gut shot with dry ice

[ak21e-blog]

I died years ago

The human part of me, the part of me that hoped, with purpose, for a future, died a long time ago. Now what was once a person is a ravenous thing, devoid of purpose or direction. An abyssal ouroboros.

[ak21e-blog]

Flesh and blood ghost

We experience the existential pain we get called depression because we are already killed by the action that inflicts the mortal, psychic wound, yet are forced, as a body without a soul, to try to live in an unnatural state. After having been robbed of our life, our conscious shells are left here, suffering, for lack of a soul. This split condition is unreconcileable for some. Others find their souls again, but the rest of us are stuck as walking corpses, torn up from grieving ourselves.

[ak21e-blog]

Responsibility

A suicidal person isn’t responsible for other people’s emotions, anymore so than anyone else is.

If a person decides to free themselves from life, and the people who still live, they are no more hurting anyone than a person who leaves their partner or employer.

It is more selfish to guilt someone into staying alive than it is for them to go, just as it is manipulative and even abusive to guilt someone into staying with you after they no longer love you.

Sincerely, A person better off dead who is beginning to resent his loved ones and sometimes hate them for keeping him alive long passed the time he is supposed to

[ak21e-blog]

Dating as a chronically depresses man

Conundrum: Liberalism's folkmyth of individualism stresses "self love" as a prerequisite of pair-bonding, and doesn't allow for the existence of chronic, severe depressive mental states that are not treatable by available folk medicine, despite that same folk medicines acceptance of chronic, lifelong depression. This "self love" is a collection of individualistic traits that reify liberalism through individuaistic consumption practices and agency-through-willpower. This creates a double self fulfilling prophecy rooted in victim blaming, where a person is shamed for their inability to live up to the prescribed folkmyth. If an individual is unable to transcend their depressive state, they are perceived as lacking in qualities like willfulness and the aforementioned self love, which in turn causes the sick to blame themselves and resent themselves. This is the first self fulfilling prophecy, on the individual level. This, then, leads to the sick being perceived as unfit for pair-bonding for perceived failure to live up to prescribed mores, this is the second self fulfilling prophecy, on a broader, social level. This rift happens generally between either neurotypical or less severely impaired individuals and the more severely impaired, and probably goes a long way in explaining why "like seeks like," why pair-bonding tends to happen within, but not between, these groups.

[averageblackteen-deactivated201]

Reblog if Black Lives Matter to you

Where are those woke white people at!?

[neesie09]

The amount of notes this doesn’t have bothers me…

[sheschill]

^

[kieranlovesunicorns]

“Woke white people” is an oxymoron.

[ak21e-blog]

I'm a monster

The feeling you get when you hurt someone who loved you, who wanted you in their lives forever, so bad they stop loving you, is indescribably bad. It's a level of guilt I've never known. I can never make it up to her, I can't ever really say I'm sorry. The cost was my heart. I feel so empty now, like there's nothing in me to love. I think, if I can just find someone else and move on, I can prove that I'm not a monster, that I can actually cherish someone kind enough to open themselves to me. But, to be honest, I don't have anything worthwhile to warrant that chance. I'm too broken. And all I can do is break things.

[suniidee-deactivated20150807]

#SamDubose rest on.. 😣

[ak21e-blog]

I really need to kill myself.

[ak21e-blog]

I failed her and I failed myself and it hurts so much so fucking much It's getting so much harder every minute of every day. I just want the pain to end

[huffpost]

A Cop Killed A White Teen And The #AllLivesMatter Crowd Said Nothing

On the evening of July 26, Zachary Hammond pulled into the parking lot of a Hardee’s in Seneca, South Carolina. Seated next to him was a young woman who had arranged to meet someone there to sell a bag of weed. It’s unclear what Hammond knew about the transaction, but neither the 19-year-old nor his passenger had any idea that the buyer was actually an undercover police officer. Moments later, another officer fatally shot Hammond.

[ak21e-blog]

I wish I could die. I hope I don't grow to resent all yall for keeping me here.

[verrvain]

Do u ever feel so ugly all u wanna do is go home

[ak21e-blog]

All the time