Solitude in Paradise

I don't really know a lot about photography or life. But I do know that life is like photography - we develop from negatives.

[alabbean]

Martin Garrix & Troye Sivan - There For You (Official Video)

[yunamusic]

I fell in love with my bestfriend. But he didn’t chase me. He had his doubts about me. Means he is careful about who he lets into his life. He didn’t whisper sweet nothings to my ears. But he will always answer my phone calls.  He doesn’t parade our relationship on social media.  I am not his shiny new toy. I am his hidden gem. He doesn’t put me first. He has his parents, his beautiful nieces and nephew, his siblings, his health, his life. He wasn’t jealous if I talk to my peers or work with other guys, he lets me grow. He didn’t care that I had 2 million followers. He knows all the 10 real friends I have and their names.  He can’t remember the title of my songs, but he remembers his niece’s birthday. He didnt forgo his friends for me. His friends were there for him when he needed them before i came into his life. He would never immediately agree to my thoughts. He tells me if im wrong. And when im right, he acknowledges it.

All this time I thought love was all about how a man should profess his love, flowers at my door, letters saying he’s in love, enslaving his entire being to me, but here is this person, who just wants to be sure he is the best man that he can be for himself, his family, and the world. And at the end of the day, he tells me all about it. All these things that he does or does not do, for some reason, he wants to share all of them with me. 

And at the end of our every conversation, he lets me know that he loves me too.

I am his best friend. And for that, I am the luckiest girl in the world.

[alabbean]

And there you were.

The self-professed hopeless romantic.

The broken girl with unresolved issues.

Still,

[alabbean]

Hey you.

It might seem really soon.

But I just wanted to let you know that I’ve found acceptance.

It’s still hurting, but I know for sure that this is for the better - for both you and me.

Perhaps in a different time or place we would have made more sense.

In a perfect world we would be happy together.

But alas it wasn’t meant to be.

=)

[alabbean]

The time for apologies is over, so...

Thank you for everything.

[alabbean]

Guess this farewell is long overdue.

[alabbean]

(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z30yUUjT1zs)

[alabbean]

Nothing beats freedom, love, and youth.

[alabbean]

你的爱 绑架了我的未来飞向大海 我的爱 搁浅在沙滩静静等你回来

[alabbean]

这窗到底打开不打开 会是一片晴天或阴霾 还是闭上眼让全世界暗下来 末日到底是来或不来 我们到底是爱或不爱 那位置的将来到底是谁安排 生命像一座迷宫 未来悬在二选一的分岔口 眼前是绚丽的彩虹 还是残忍的黑洞

为什么越爱的人越受伤 为什么好人会有坏的下场 这一切跟我的想像永远都不一样 难道都已刻在我手上 无法被更换

末日到底是来或不来 我们到底是爱或不爱 那位置的将来到底是谁安排 生命像一座迷宫 未来悬在二选一的分岔口 眼前是绚丽的彩虹 还是残忍的黑洞

为什么越爱的人越受伤 为什么好人会有坏的下场 这一切跟我的想像永远都不一样 难道都已刻在我手上 我不要每次都流泪收场 我不要每次摔得遍体鳞伤 这一切到底是怎样 我顽强的抵抗 要怎么摧毁你巩的墙 我要不一样 唔～喔～

生命像一座迷宫 害怕一不小心就会采空 眼前是绚丽的彩虹 还是残忍的黑洞

为什么越爱的人越受伤 为什么好人会有坏的下场 这一切跟我的想像永远都不一样 难道都已刻在我手上 我不要每次都流泪收场 我不要每次摔得遍体鳞伤 这一切到底是怎样 我顽强的抵抗 要怎么摧毁你巩的墙 我要不一样

[alabbean]

Smoke Break

[alabbean]

[alabbean]

What goes up has to come down.

When you reach your lowest,

Things can only get better.

So fret not, smile.

[alabbean]

Kumkuma

[alabbean]

What doesn't kill you Makes you wish you were dead Got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper And I can't take One more moment of this silence The loneliness is haunting me And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up

It comes in waves, I close my eyes Hold my breath and let it bury me I'm not OK and it's not all right Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again

Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down? Save me from myself Don't let me drown Who will make me fight? Drag me out alive? Save me from myself Don't let me drown

What doesn't destroy you Leaves you broken instead Got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper And I can't take

One more moment of this silence The loneliness is haunting me And the weight of the worlds getting harder to hold up

It comes in waves, I close my eyes Hold my breath and let it bury me I'm not OK and it's not all right Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again

Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down? Save me from myself Don't let me drown Who will make me fight? Drag me out alive? Save me from myself Don't let me drown

'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own 'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own 'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own

(You know that I can't do this on my own)

Who will fix me now? Who will fix me now?

Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'm down? Save me from myself Don't let me drown

[alabbean]

I wanna break away from work and go on an endless trip of sorts - capturing my world the only way I know how to.

[alabbean]

A Very Grumpy Cat

[alabbean]

Everything is a-fleeting.

[alabbean]

Mystical Garden