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Dear tab

Well lets say I'm glad no one reads this as I know that I've officially hit rock bottom I've managed to give up on you but I'm hurting now and more that I have before but I know today was the last time I'd see you I'd of hugged you and not let go I mean you might not be perfect to others but to me you are and I could never force someone to love me and your proof I ruined things and well I'll never have another chance and you have her and she's the one you want to marry and be with she wants you so much as well I am so jealous and I understand that even through every cuddle and hug we have had it'll still be me in bed crying tonight knowing that I've had to let you go and that I'm the one who has finally to let go of you and this idea I have held so dear to me because you don't love me and never did or will

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Time changes everything

So do you remember what it was like and how much you smiled and all the cuddles we had the fun we had and that we actually enjoyed the time together and what it was like to understand how close we were with no people over looking and judging us and reading in to anything and then that we could be happy but all the cuddles we had for each other and how comfortable we felt around each other and that we shared everything with one another... Sadly we lost all that and it's like starting again.. You'll never love me like you used to let alone be as close as we used to be an understand each other like we used to... I think ill be alone because that way ill never be let down or hurt

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What a fucking joke

Well that's it no more I'm not trying anymore should of been something we could of enjoyed and you bail for someone else I was right I'm so low on your mate scale it's not even funny !!!! - family - your girlfriend - other best mate -everyone else - a new person in your life - me Ever felt that maybe it's not fucking worth the time of day that you try and put effort for some people but when you realise a day before your supposed to come over and stop for a night at mine that oh yeah someone else is havin a party and that you NEED to be with them!!! And that you can't even fit me except for work maybe your girlfriend is right and this whole being mates in secret is pointless and that maybe you should of just let me go because I'm not going to be doing this anymore

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"I would die every day waiting or you... I have loved you for a thousand years and would wait for a thousand more" Really lets be practical be honest when someone is in love with someone else and they don't feel the same or they are led on or they are "the person they'll go to if they become single" back up plan they shouldn't wait around but they do because they get so close but know it'll never work and honestly I think that it's sad because people shouldn't do that

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Just fuck off

It seems that since a knock of confidence I feel like I just wanna scream and shout and tell you all to fuck off and leave me in my ball in the corner to have a cry and sob because if I want anything in life I work for it and I get shit like this !!!!

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Why is it I feel like I am curling up on the inside and wanting to remind myself of the fun so we don't argue but my hearts screaming for me to not do that as I have been hurt for the last time I can not be like this anymore I can't be going to bed like I want to scream and cry but can't and missing them so much it hurts I will not start the year this way

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When some people don't realise what the hell they are talking about and also the fact that someone doesn't understand what they think they know and also to have someone say that I just sit and moan shows they know nothing about my life and really I work three jobs and a college course and I will always be more qualified than them especially this one person who knows nothing about my life!!

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Not really sure how to feel about it Something in the way you move Makes me feel like I can't live without you It takes me all the way I want you to stay It's not much of a life you're living It's not just something you take

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Why do I fall for that person and struggle to move on this is ridiculous and honestly who hasn't been there

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Heartache

Don't you hate it when someone whose head and heart are what you look for and you just seem to follow them like a lost puppy... Until one day you realise that maybe that's all you are someone who will follow them and the person fully knows it aswell maybe one day love might happen I don't want love like real love I mean I am one of a kind and want movie romance like someone to come and find me and go out there way to make me know they love me by some big gesture and I mean it's not even like I think it Will happen I would like love like a love song that proves how they meet and fall in from across the hall and I know that wont isn't it a shame life isn't this way let alone that we watch all of them and listen to them all isn't enough that love and rejection from one person let alone put ourselves through this

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Heartache

Don't you hate it when someone whose head and heart are what you look for and you just seem to follow them like a lost puppy... Until one day you realise that maybe that's all you are someone who will follow them and the person fully knows it aswell maybe one day love might happen I don't want love like real love I mean I am one of a kind and want movie romance like someone to come and find me and go out there way to make me know they love me by some big gesture and I mean it's not even like I think it Will happen I would like love like a love song that proves how they meet and fall in from across the hall and I know that wont isn't it a shame life isn't this way let alone that we watch all of them and listen to them all isn't enough that love and rejection from one person let alone put ourselves through this

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Love my Molly

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My Molly

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Day in college

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