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*knock on the door*

@alethkars-true-king

*He opens the door, and smiles.*

Hey, Gav.

*awkward shifting of his weight, not looking at Renarin* .....Thank you. For helping me find Den earlier.

Of course. You did find her, then?

Yes. She's safe now. *he rubs at his arm, still not looking at Renarin*

................................ I didn't mean to push you. Earlier.

I wasn’t hurt, which was good.

*looks horrified* I... I could have hurt you. I didn't– I don't want to hurt you. *takes a step back* I'm sorry. I just.... I'm not safe to be around, am I?

Gav, I’m not hurt. You just…you got angry. That doesn’t mean you’re not safe to be around.

But you could've been hurt! I could've hurt you. You... you don't understand. *takes another step back* I get so angry... it's like I'm not in control of myself.

Gav. I’m alright. I’m Radiant, I doubt you could’ve hurt me at all. And we can work on your anger. It will be okay

I could've! It doesn't matter if you're Radiant, it wouldn't change anything. I still would've hurt you.

But you didn’t hurt me, Gav. It is easy to get caught on the “might haves”, I know, but please. I’m okay.

But I would have! Don't you understand? It's going to happen. I'm going to get angry again and I'm going to hurt someone... just like Grandfather. *slumps against the wall, covering his face with his hands*

*spins thoughtfully* The Willshaper is right about many things, I think. There is much you think you have to do, but you do not, and you do not want to, either.

I do not know what it is you want. That feels like it might be one of your Truths, to be found once we've progressed. But I am worried... many Lightweaves walk a very narrow path between growth and catastrophe. I want you to be well, and to remain wonderful. Please listen to yourself, Gav, when we face what lies ahead. And listen to me when you cannot hear your own conscience!

-@story-cryptic

You're wrong, Den. I want to kill Taravangian and I want to save Alethkar. It's what I have to do.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... complicated. Lies and half-truths.

If you want to work towards saving Alethkar, then why are we not allying more with others who have the same goal?

#gavinor rp #all gav knows is main character syndrome and lie 😔

We don't need to. Our army is the strongest in the world. We don't need any help.

*knock on the door*

@alethkars-true-king

*He opens the door, and smiles.*

Hey, Gav.

*awkward shifting of his weight, not looking at Renarin* .....Thank you. For helping me find Den earlier.

Of course. You did find her, then?

Yes. She's safe now. *he rubs at his arm, still not looking at Renarin*

................................ I didn't mean to push you. Earlier.

I wasn’t hurt, which was good.

*looks horrified* I... I could have hurt you. I didn't– I don't want to hurt you. *takes a step back* I'm sorry. I just.... I'm not safe to be around, am I?

Gav, I’m not hurt. You just…you got angry. That doesn’t mean you’re not safe to be around.

But you could've been hurt! I could've hurt you. You... you don't understand. *takes another step back* I get so angry... it's like I'm not in control of myself.

Gav. I’m alright. I’m Radiant, I doubt you could’ve hurt me at all. And we can work on your anger. It will be okay

I could've! It doesn't matter if you're Radiant, it wouldn't change anything. I still would've hurt you.

#gavinor rp #asks #hey look dalinar finally got knocked off that list #subconsciously. he'll still claim if he wants to if called out on it

*spins thoughtfully* The Willshaper is right about many things, I think. There is much you think you have to do, but you do not, and you do not want to, either.

-@story-cryptic

You're wrong, Den. I want to kill Taravangian and I want to save Alethkar. It's what I have to do.

*knock on the door*

@alethkars-true-king

*He opens the door, and smiles.*

Hey, Gav.

*awkward shifting of his weight, not looking at Renarin* .....Thank you. For helping me find Den earlier.

Of course. You did find her, then?

Yes. She's safe now. *he rubs at his arm, still not looking at Renarin*

................................ I didn't mean to push you. Earlier.

I wasn’t hurt, which was good.

*looks horrified* I... I could have hurt you. I didn't– I don't want to hurt you. *takes a step back* I'm sorry. I just.... I'm not safe to be around, am I?

Gav, I’m not hurt. You just…you got angry. That doesn’t mean you’re not safe to be around.

#gavinor rp #renarin is always trying his best T-T #poor lil guy

But you could've been hurt! I could've hurt you. You... you don't understand. *takes another step back* I get so angry... it's like I'm not in control of myself.

*knock on the door*

@alethkars-true-king

*He opens the door, and smiles.*

Hey, Gav.

*awkward shifting of his weight, not looking at Renarin* .....Thank you. For helping me find Den earlier.

Of course. You did find her, then?

Yes. She's safe now. *he rubs at his arm, still not looking at Renarin*

................................ I didn't mean to push you. Earlier.

I wasn’t hurt, which was good.

#gavinor rp #terrified by the thought that he actually might have hurt renarin if things had gone a little differently :(

*looks horrified* I... I could have hurt you. I didn't– I don't want to hurt you. *takes a step back* I'm sorry. I just.... I'm not safe to be around, am I?

*knock on the door*

@alethkars-true-king

*He opens the door, and smiles.*

Hey, Gav.

*awkward shifting of his weight, not looking at Renarin* .....Thank you. For helping me find Den earlier.

Of course. You did find her, then?

#gavinor rp #gav that's not a proper apology smh

Yes. She's safe now. *he rubs at his arm, still not looking at Renarin*

................................ I didn't mean to push you. Earlier.

*She’s sitting on a table in his rooms, watching him*

@forever-a-lawwoman

*instinctively summons Oathbringer* Who are you? How did you get in here? Identify yourself.

Please put that away. I’m not sure how one of your Blades would affect me, and I’m not keen to find out.

My name is Lessie. I’m a friend of Evi’s.

...It's a Shardblade it would kill you. *dismisses Oathbringer* I remember you now. She wanted me to get you to help deal with Sadeas. I wasn't... expecting you to be in my chambers. You... surprised me.

I'm Gavinor. But you probably know that.

…maybe it would. Maybe it wouldn’t!

My apologies. Your tower is quite large and I wasn’t sure where to find you.

It’s a pleasure to meet you, Gavinor.

...You don't know much about Shardblades, do you? Where are you from? You don't look Alethi.

It's a pleasure to meet you as well, Lessie. Why were you looking for me? Did you need something?

I’m from Scadrial. A different planet.

You're kidding. *glances @story-cryptic * You're... not kidding. What?

*She grins.*

There’s other planets out there in the Cosmere. Some of us travel between them.

*tried to look nonchalant, fails miserably* Really? How did you get here? What's Scadrial like? Are there warriors there? Are they strong?

*forces himself to calm down* ...My apologies. I hope your experience during your visit has been acceptable. Just inform me if there's anything I can do to make your stay more comfortable. I would hate for you to think Alethi hospitality is lacking.

It’s alright. Scadrial doesn’t have any of these spren things. We don’t really have many warriors, but we’ve got constables and such.

None? No spren at all? That sounds... *clears his throat, changes the subject*

How do you protect your people if you have no warriors? You must get invaded a lot by other nations. Or do these... constables defend you?

Well, we’ve got Allomancers. They can eat and burn metals to do various things. But we negotiate to get out of most situations. Not as much outright war as here

Allomancers... I was sparring with an Allomancer earlier. They didn't mention they were from another planet, though.

If there's no wars to fight, what do these constables do then?

They handle crimes and such. Trying to make life better for people.

Oh. That's good. That's... noble.

You know... you never did say why you were looking for me.

*She smiles.*

I’ve just heard some things about you, and I wanted to put a face to the name!

*He frowns.* People have been talking about me, haven't they? What are they saying?

Just talking about what happened to you, and such.

*scoffs* Of course they are... Can't they just shut up about it already?

People always talk. Can’t really stop them. Sometimes you can redirect them but usually you just let them talk.

*eyes glittering with anger* I don't want them talking about me. I can make them stop. I'm the king.

*She raises an eyebrow, not moving* Hmm.

I can.

I’ve seen quite a few lords say that.

Well, they weren't me. I can do whatever I want. I can make them stop talking about me! They're not allowed to gossip about me!

*She tilts her head, crossing her legs.*

What? Why are you looking at me like that? Stop it.

I think you and I may be in similar situations.

...You grew up in the Spiritual Realm?

Not exactly. But I had my trust betrayed by a Shard as well. Had my choices taken away from me.

...You did?

*She nods.*

What happened?

Harmony asked me to leave the man I loved. I refused. He took over my mind and forced me to fake my death.

...I'm sorry. Shards are horrible. We should kill all of them.

Hm. That is an option. I did try the revenge path.

And? Did you kill Harmony?

No. Instead I hurt a lot of people I cared about.

....How bad are you with a sword?

I don’t use swords. I use guns or knives.

But when I started working against Harmony, the only way to take him down was to hurt a lot of innocents. Wax and Wayne couldn’t ignore that.

Did Harmony force them to protect him? ...What's a gun?

He didn’t force them. But Wax is the kind of guy who won’t turn a blind eye.

If they were protecting him, then they weren't innocent. Wax should've let you do it. Who names their kid Wax anyway?

Maybe. But should he have let me kill the people I needed to? I couldn’t attack Harmony directly, so I slaughtered many to hurt him.

And believe me, there are far more…unique names than “Waxillium”. He named his kid Max

If they weren't protecting Harmony then why did you need to kill them?

Okay...? It's normal to name children after family. My grandfather's name is Gavilar. But... Wax? He shortens it to Wax?

You can’t just kill a Shard. It’s incredibly complicated to. So I went after the leaders of his religion, and for the government that kept order. After all, if Harmony can’t affect the world, he couldn’t hurt anybody, so I thought

I can. I'll manage it, even if it is difficult.

*nods* That's a good idea. Killing his followers would weaken him. Collateral is unfortunate but sometimes a necessity.

And if those people are ones who you cared about, before?

You have to harden yourself. It has to be done.

Does it?

Yes.

Hm.

*his eyes soften a little* I know. It's... hard. But if we didn't stop them from hurting people, we'd be just as bad as them.

And if we hurt more people than they ever would, in our attempt to stop them?

I don't think that's possible. Do you know what Retribution has done to Roshar?

So are you looking for revenge for yourself, or to save Roshar?

I'm saving my people. Alethkar. *his hands tighten into fists*

*She nods.*

Word of advice. Don’t lose yourself along the way, Gavinor.

*he looks angry for another moment, and then it fades. He looks away and laughs dryly.* No chance of that...

*She sits there, watching him.*

....Don't.

I didn’t do anything.

Yes, you did. If you have something to say, just say it. I'm not fragile.

I don’t think you are.

*angry huff* Everyone else seems to think so...

Then maybe they’re just a bit blind.

Clearly.

*She stands from where she’s been sitting, stretching.*

*doesn't say anything, just eyes her cautiously*

*knock on the door*

@alethkars-true-king

*He opens the door, and smiles.*

Hey, Gav.

*awkward shifting of his weight, not looking at Renarin* .....Thank you. For helping me find Den earlier.

Den.... do you think I'm just as bad as Grandfather?

@alethkars-true-king

... I do not think that you are bad at all! You are... hurt, and humans often become angry when they've been hurt...

*her spinning slows* ... I do not think your grandfather is bad, either. Not anymore. He saved your life, so I could meet you, mmmmmmm...

I don't... want to be angry. I hurt Renarin. I... didn't mean to but sometimes I... I get mad and I can't... do anything to stop myself. I wasn't... like this before. What's wrong with me?

Humans... change. Human patterns can be inconsistent! It is not your fault. Reactions to injustice often include anger! Perhaps next time... mmmmm... you direct that anger elsewhere? Like a practice dummy?

...I'll try... but it's hard to think when I get like that. To remember that I don't want to hurt people.

... he wanted you to want to hurt people, I think. So it is strength that you do not. You have a good heart, little king. We will... keep working on it. And I believe... your family will forgive you. They know you are trying.

....................... *muffled sniffle* I should go talk to Renarin.

*She’s sitting on a table in his rooms, watching him*

@forever-a-lawwoman

*instinctively summons Oathbringer* Who are you? How did you get in here? Identify yourself.

Please put that away. I’m not sure how one of your Blades would affect me, and I’m not keen to find out.

My name is Lessie. I’m a friend of Evi’s.

I'm Gavinor. But you probably know that.

…maybe it would. Maybe it wouldn’t!

My apologies. Your tower is quite large and I wasn’t sure where to find you.

It’s a pleasure to meet you, Gavinor.

...You don't know much about Shardblades, do you? Where are you from? You don't look Alethi.

It's a pleasure to meet you as well, Lessie. Why were you looking for me? Did you need something?

I’m from Scadrial. A different planet.

You're kidding. *glances @story-cryptic * You're... not kidding. What?

*She grins.*

There’s other planets out there in the Cosmere. Some of us travel between them.

*tried to look nonchalant, fails miserably* Really? How did you get here? What's Scadrial like? Are there warriors there? Are they strong?

It’s alright. Scadrial doesn’t have any of these spren things. We don’t really have many warriors, but we’ve got constables and such.

None? No spren at all? That sounds... *clears his throat, changes the subject*

How do you protect your people if you have no warriors? You must get invaded a lot by other nations. Or do these... constables defend you?

Well, we’ve got Allomancers. They can eat and burn metals to do various things. But we negotiate to get out of most situations. Not as much outright war as here

Allomancers... I was sparring with an Allomancer earlier. They didn't mention they were from another planet, though.

If there's no wars to fight, what do these constables do then?

They handle crimes and such. Trying to make life better for people.

Oh. That's good. That's... noble.

You know... you never did say why you were looking for me.

*She smiles.*

I’ve just heard some things about you, and I wanted to put a face to the name!

*He frowns.* People have been talking about me, haven't they? What are they saying?

Just talking about what happened to you, and such.

*scoffs* Of course they are... Can't they just shut up about it already?

People always talk. Can’t really stop them. Sometimes you can redirect them but usually you just let them talk.

*eyes glittering with anger* I don't want them talking about me. I can make them stop. I'm the king.

*She raises an eyebrow, not moving* Hmm.

I can.

I’ve seen quite a few lords say that.

Well, they weren't me. I can do whatever I want. I can make them stop talking about me! They're not allowed to gossip about me!

*She tilts her head, crossing her legs.*

What? Why are you looking at me like that? Stop it.

I think you and I may be in similar situations.

...You grew up in the Spiritual Realm?

Not exactly. But I had my trust betrayed by a Shard as well. Had my choices taken away from me.

...You did?

*She nods.*

What happened?

Harmony asked me to leave the man I loved. I refused. He took over my mind and forced me to fake my death.

...I'm sorry. Shards are horrible. We should kill all of them.

Hm. That is an option. I did try the revenge path.

And? Did you kill Harmony?

No. Instead I hurt a lot of people I cared about.

....How bad are you with a sword?

I don’t use swords. I use guns or knives.

But when I started working against Harmony, the only way to take him down was to hurt a lot of innocents. Wax and Wayne couldn’t ignore that.

Did Harmony force them to protect him? ...What's a gun?

He didn’t force them. But Wax is the kind of guy who won’t turn a blind eye.

If they were protecting him, then they weren't innocent. Wax should've let you do it. Who names their kid Wax anyway?

Maybe. But should he have let me kill the people I needed to? I couldn’t attack Harmony directly, so I slaughtered many to hurt him.

And believe me, there are far more…unique names than “Waxillium”. He named his kid Max

If they weren't protecting Harmony then why did you need to kill them?

Okay...? It's normal to name children after family. My grandfather's name is Gavilar. But... Wax? He shortens it to Wax?

I can. I'll manage it, even if it is difficult.

*nods* That's a good idea. Killing his followers would weaken him. Collateral is unfortunate but sometimes a necessity.

And if those people are ones who you cared about, before?

You have to harden yourself. It has to be done.

Does it?

Yes.

Hm.

*his eyes soften a little* I know. It's... hard. But if we didn't stop them from hurting people, we'd be just as bad as them.

And if we hurt more people than they ever would, in our attempt to stop them?

I don't think that's possible. Do you know what Retribution has done to Roshar?

So are you looking for revenge for yourself, or to save Roshar?

I'm saving my people. Alethkar. *his hands tighten into fists*

*She nods.*

Word of advice. Don’t lose yourself along the way, Gavinor.

*he looks angry for another moment, and then it fades. He looks away and laughs dryly.* No chance of that...

*She sits there, watching him.*

....Don't.

I didn’t do anything.

Yes, you did. If you have something to say, just say it. I'm not fragile.

I don’t think you are.

*angry huff* Everyone else seems to think so...

Then maybe they’re just a bit blind.

Clearly.

Den.... do you think I'm just as bad as Grandfather?

@alethkars-true-king

... I do not think that you are bad at all! You are... hurt, and humans often become angry when they've been hurt...

*her spinning slows* ... I do not think your grandfather is bad, either. Not anymore. He saved your life, so I could meet you, mmmmmmm...

I don't... want to be angry. I hurt Renarin. I... didn't mean to but sometimes I... I get mad and I can't... do anything to stop myself. I wasn't... like this before. What's wrong with me?

#gavinor rp #shaking gav rn #you could have someone to talk about this to if you weren't so annoyingly kholin stubborn

...I'll try... but it's hard to think when I get like that. To remember that I don't want to hurt people.

Renarin suggested I check my rooms for Den, and he was right. That's where I found her. Have you checked yours for Fibb?

@alethkars-true-king

Just a second

*starts checking their own room*

Do you want a hand?

Thanks

*starts looking too. He's making considerably less of a mess than he did of his own room*

*Keeps searching*

Do you hear any humming?

Yeah…

*opens a drawer to find Fibb*

Is that him? Is he alright?

Yeah! Thank you

*they open the jar

Hmmmm… that was uncomfortable. Thank you -Fibb

Make sure you stay close to Kat from now on.

Renarin suggested I check my rooms for Den, and he was right. That's where I found her. Have you checked yours for Fibb?

@alethkars-true-king

Just a second

*starts checking their own room*

Do you want a hand?

Thanks

*starts looking too. He's making considerably less of a mess than he did of his own room*

*Keeps searching*

Do you hear any humming?

Yeah…

*opens a drawer to find Fibb*

Is that him? Is he alright?

Den.... do you think I'm just as bad as Grandfather?

@alethkars-true-king

... I do not think that you are bad at all! You are... hurt, and humans often become angry when they've been hurt...

*her spinning slows* ... I do not think your grandfather is bad, either. Not anymore. He saved your life, so I could meet you, mmmmmmm...