Future Blog ver 2.563

[alexvasnormandy]

I am alive! (sort of)

I was going to make a big post about how I stopped coming on tumblr because of school and some realizations I’ve made about myself, the environment on tumblr, what my needs are, that sort of thing, but quite frankly I’m way too lazy for that. 

I was instead going to do a bullet-point list of what I was planning on saying but apparently I’m too lazy for that too. (I’ve been sick, sue me.)

Basically the gist is this: I went back to school this past semester (for those of you who missed my last “I promise I’m not dead” post), and I’ve been doing really, really well. It’s been super stressful but I’ve managed to maintain near-perfect grades in my courses, and I’ve been feeling a lot more like myself in the process. I forgot how much I actually liked school! Between that and my boyfriend and dealing with my financial situation and sorting out my anxiety and the like, I’ve taken a ton of positive steps, and I’ve been feeling a lot better about everything. 

That being said (paragraph break to save the eyes), one of the most positive things I’ve done for myself was to stop coming on tumblr. I didn’t realize what a toxic influence this place had been on me (and that’s no fault of the people I follow, I just sort of let myself passively absorb a lot of things that made it okay for me to give up on myself, which is on me), and the longer I’ve stayed away the better I feel about everything. Obviously that isn’t any one thing, but for my anxiety in particular I absorbed a lot of ideas that had a huge negative effect on how I was conducting myself. 

And so the gist of that gist is that, for the foreseeable future I won’t be coming back to tumblr. I still have the app on my phone and I do respond to the messaging system (it pops up like text messages which is apparently the only way you can reliably get me to respond, I still suck with letters and email and the like; working on it but yeah) so don’t feel you can’t talk to me, but I likely won’t be posting anything aside from the occasional doodle (assuming I ever get time to art again, but you know). I also lurk around steam and Guild Wars 2 (though my steam account keeps trying to convince me I have no internet D:) so if you want to talk to me on either of those feel free to ask for my username (via messaging or whatever). 

That gist was less gist-y than I expected, but eh. In any case, I hope everyone’s been doing well, I miss you all. :)

Oh, and I won’t take it personally if any of you unfollow, assuming I still even have regular followers outside of porn bots, obviously if I’m not here I won’t really see who’s following me or not, so yeah. Go nuts.