Non-judgmental???
Over the past few months i've been battling with making judgement of myself when correction or comments are made during class. I automatically start questioning and analysing as to whether they are about or relevant to me, and with this I immediately start adjusting what I am doing. I feel that these comments and rules developed as part of a score in some classes restrict my movement and therefore I remain in my brain constantly analysing and thinking about what I am suppose to and not suppose to be doing, while making sure I keep my shoulders down and make direct points of contact with the floor just in case these critiques are aimed towards me. My frustration is that I was under the impression that this process of moving was based around listening to my body, moving how I feel today, with what I want to explore and challenge and in the way that I choose. I do however understanding that this is about challenging my habitual moving and my ability to work with a set score, but in a large class it gets awfully confusing when you’re not sure whom the comments are relevant and irreverent to, along with fulfilling the elements of the score without becoming uncomfortable, uneasy and alien in my body. Constantly in thought and judgement so far from the authentic movement and internal listening that has been so heavy preached. To resolve this I find myself trying to block out some of the external input and focus on one or two elements that I feel comfortable challenging so that I remain present in and true to my own body, if this comes across as I am doing it wrong or not fully listening to instruction and not moving how I am asked then I apologises but I guess I’m not, I am listening to my body.
















