Calvin

Be mine forever, okay?

[allgoneallspent]

Meaningful conversations meaning nothing ought to never been conversed at all

[allgoneallspent]

And again he closed his eyes, and again he saw her.

Reunitions in the automated recesses of his consciousness, visions play out with carelessness, without guide nor narration.

Somewhere between imagination and dream.

Unbreakable glass framed her smiles and laughter, a movie of her memory from the time before her grave, with a sole audience member.

It started out that way.

[allgoneallspent]

His earnest dishonesty gave life to a dead girls confusion. A furrowed brow, rapid blinking, eyes darting— the laughter was nervous and the smile stressed.

Confusion.

That wasn’t how any of this happened.

Conflicts overwritten by warmth forcefully installed into a flashback.

[allgoneallspent]

And again he closed his eyes, and again he saw her.

Reunitions in the automated recesses of his consciousness, visions play out with carelessness, without guide nor narration.

Somewhere between imagination and dream.

Unbreakable glass framed her smiles and laughter, a movie of her memory from the time before her grave, with a sole audience member.

It started out that way.

[allgoneallspent]

Be my strength, when I have none

All gone

All spent

[allgoneallspent]

Dragonflies kiss fragile legs to the edge of petals.

Cool dewdrops meander down the faces of

Sweet green and brimming flora.

The ice melted so long ago,

Let me take your chin on the tip of my thumb.

Look at me.

Don’t you see?

Spring will come again, love.

And then we will be in the summer sun,

Holding hands and flipping coins.

[allgoneallspent]

Dandelion nights

Warm summers spent hiding behind the drywall

The thinking happens louder these days

As walls around us hinder us no more

Welted walls of our own design

Become bandaged walls and love inside

And you can paint them any shade of blue or purple

Bruised walls to cover us

from a broiling summer sun

I won’t mind

If you let me grow some dandelions yellow

If you let me grow

And grow a refuge of our own.

[allgoneallspent]

There are worse ways to live

Worse ways to die

[beachfagalott]

there is nothing for us

[allgoneallspent]

But who cares? You’re already everything.

[allgoneallspent]

Dandelion nights

Warm summers spent hiding behind the drywall

The thinking happens louder these days

As walls around us hinder us no more

Welted walls of our own design

Become bandaged walls and love inside

And you can paint them any shade of blue or purple

Bruised walls to cover us

from a broiling summer sun

I won’t mind

If you let me grow some dandelions yellow

If you let me grow

And grow a refuge of our own.

[allgoneallspent]

[Our dogs and I]

Discard shame

It serves only as distraction

From dogs that you can name

I swear to you, for as long

Long as I might live

I refuse to draw first blood

I’ll snap my teeth but

Unlike our dogs

Really, I’m harmless

You and I

Should decide what is the real threat

And what is fear

Between our dogs and I

Cut through noise and See.

Brace through dark and Hear.

Hold my hand when we put them down

And let our dead dogs lie.

[allgoneallspent]

No, are you even listening?

It all stays right where you left it

There’s the ground beneath my tired feet

And a yawning vastness over my head

It’s more empty than full

With stars like beams of light

Between the threads of a taut sheet

Or its more like an empty ocean

With the occasional freight ship chartered through

That’s my metaphor for planets

Either way, nothing happens

It’s all just stuff

Everything doesn’t amount to much

Time wasters and material investments

Luxuries of a life unlived

You’ll find my things still in that room

And nothing else comes after

[allgoneallspent]

Self destruction can, at times, look like self preservation

[allgoneallspent]

Keep having dreams of that place

Of where you hide your face

Of where?

Nowhere.

Not here.

Not there.

Walls moving in the corner of your eye

Air ducts and tear ducts

Plywood and

Dust covered furniture

Whatever, whenever, wherever

It’ll be okay probably

[allgoneallspent]

Forever could be short lived

In the shorter lives we lead

I could never change you

To better suit to me

But there’s things this love

This

Love

This love can’t tolerate

And kissing bruises

Well, it isn’t one of them

[allgoneallspent]

soon to be departed

money on the books

and a one-way ticket

wind whipped smoke stacks lead the way

rush behind me like afterimages

sitting against the engine i feel it

thunder against my back

heat sears my face

hot ash, left behind in my skin

i thought the view would be better

but now i cant see

[allgoneallspent]

Wisteria

climbing hungrily up alien wooden monoliths-

An opportunist,

reaching twisted fingers

toward the summer sun.

The pine braces itself

against these foreign tendrils.

Choking, it blankets the sky

with green needle clouds:

thirstily drinking in all light

hoping to starve out minor annoyances.

The most beautiful things revel

in well-hidden turmoil.

No two things are without conflict.

[allgoneallspent]

Your name leaves my lips like a prayer