Is It Cool That I Said All That?

Leah. Urban dictionary defines my name as destined to meet Taylor Swift. Rep tour. Philadelphia. July 14th. Section F5, Row 16. seat 11. Please help me meet taylor!

[alltooleah]

I wish there was a way to say any of this without it sounding like a pity party or a cry for help. I am just at rock bottom, coronavirus excluded.

I have been struggling with anorexia and bulimia for 11 years. It has gotten to the point where I had to leave a full tuition scholarship masters program in English at a school I really loved because I needed to attend an inpatient eating disorder treatment facility. I was too sick there and dropping weight even more and they wanted to send me to a hospital which I couldn’t afford.

I came home to being kicked out of my grandparents’ home for being too sick to deal with. So I slept on my dads living room floor the whole summer while struggling with my health.

Then I decided to go back to school near my hometown and I pushed and fought my way to earn three As and one A- (lol seriously you can’t give your girl a full 4.0?!) This semester, however, my health worsened and I am now on my second medical withdrawal from a graduate program.

I now stay with my dad in his new apartment where we are both struggling to pay bills before coronavirus impacted the country so badly. Now, I have 100 dollars to my name and nowhere to turn. I usually substitute teach but with schools shut down I’m isolated having chest pains about my mental, physical, and financial state.

A swiftie you’ve met, Marvin, was kind enough to gift me two tickets to lover fest East. I live in upstate New York so I would just have to cover the cost of travel and food. Whether or not lover fest gets cancelled (I hope not), I probably won’t be able to attend. I am heartbroken but I know there are bigger things to worry about and I’m just grateful to have seen you during 1989 and rep.

Your words about your own struggles with your body shook me because I have two paper airplane tattoos on my left wrist as a reminder of my eating disorder.

Are we out of the woods yet? And I hope we will be soon.

I love you and I am wishing your family health and wellness and peace.

I am embarrassed for sharing this (I didn’t post it on twitter because I have more people that know me on there following me and my family would be really hurt/angry) but hope that the swiftie community, though we’re all struggling in our own ways, might still post and share this.

@taylornation​ @taylorswift

[the-swiftie-scientist]

may this cute lovely angel see your face in any social media and decides she wants to meet you in 2020

[fearlessly-me-e-e]

Last min of free time before suiting up this morning I took this picture to remind myself (and anyone else that needs it) that we are going to be ok. Yes it is scary. Yes it is hard. No we dont have all the answers. But we are all in this together. And together we can help one another through anything. Thank you swiftie fam for creating the best place for me to come at the end of a long shift to find friends, fun, laughter and support. And thank you so much@taylorswift for keeping me going and always being the music in my mind saying its gonna be alright. Stay safe guys, love you all 💗

[ts1989fanatic]

Just another Hero all say thank you @fearlessly-me-e-e

[ts1989fanatic]

No @fearlessly-me-e-e along with @nurseaddison @delicatay and every other medical professional on here you all deserve nothing but a HUGE THANK YOU for you service

[taylorswift]

YOU (and all medical professionals who see this) ARE SO LOVED AND APPRECIATED BY US ALL !!! 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 endlessly grateful for what you do and can’t thank you enough for your positivity and courage 🙏🏆🙏

[emilyswiftie1989]

All Too Well

Hey @taylorswift I’m Emily I’ve been a swiftie since fearless era my dream is to meet u nxt era I can’t wait for ts7 u have helped me through a lot thx for being there for me please make my dream come tru nxt era @taylornation n @taylorswift I luv u soo much my lucky number is 13 too

[emilyswiftie1989]

Please make my dream come true this era @taylorswift and @taylornation also i want @taylorswift to get her music back im gonna stand by u taylor no matter wat happens

[alltooleah]

@taylorswift @taylornation

[emilyswiftie1989]

Only The Young

Hey @taylorswift I’m Emily I wish I could go to lover fest but tickets r expensive I luved ur documentary it was soo inspiring n powerful I’m soo proud of u for standing up for urself n speakin your truth I luv u soo much my dream is to meet u one day please make my dream come true one day @taylornation @taylorswift I’m obsessed with lover it’s soo good my stand song on lover is cruel summer I was dress up as an angel or devil if I was going to lover fest but I’m still gonna dress up wen I ss u again

[alltooleah]

Get Emily to lover fest if there still is one!!!!

@taylorswift @taylornation

[emilyswiftie1989]

Look at Her Now

Hey @taylorswift I’m Emily I’m a huge swiftie I’ve been one since fearless era I’m soo happy ur standing up for urself n other artists to own their own music I really hope that happens for u too I wish I could go to lover fest this summer but I can’t afford tickets I hope I get to meet u one day I’m gonna support u no matter wat please make my dream come true one day @taylornation @taylorswift

[alltooleah]

@taylorswift !!!! She deserves a hug💕

[tylerposey]

The Life and Times of… Alexis Rose

[alltooleah]

I feel excluded from tumblr swiftie community round 6. This is why I leave this appppppp ahhh things seem so hierarchical!!!

[alltooleah]

Tutor me

I need tumblr tutoring y’all also “Our Song” just came on shuffle and i’m ready to yeehaw with whommmmeverz is willing to help ya girl out.

Also! Stop apologizing in DMs for asking for help! I will never find it annoying! I didn’t reply it’s because I haven’t had me login info for the longest time!!

[alltooleah]

I wish there was a way to say any of this without it sounding like a pity party or a cry for help. I am just at rock bottom, coronavirus excluded.

I have been struggling with anorexia and bulimia for 11 years. It has gotten to the point where I had to leave a full tuition scholarship masters program in English at a school I really loved because I needed to attend an inpatient eating disorder treatment facility. I was too sick there and dropping weight even more and they wanted to send me to a hospital which I couldn’t afford.

I came home to being kicked out of my grandparents’ home for being too sick to deal with. So I slept on my dads living room floor the whole summer while struggling with my health.

Then I decided to go back to school near my hometown and I pushed and fought my way to earn three As and one A- (lol seriously you can’t give your girl a full 4.0?!) This semester, however, my health worsened and I am now on my second medical withdrawal from a graduate program.

I now stay with my dad in his new apartment where we are both struggling to pay bills before coronavirus impacted the country so badly. Now, I have 100 dollars to my name and nowhere to turn. I usually substitute teach but with schools shut down I’m isolated having chest pains about my mental, physical, and financial state.

A swiftie you’ve met, Marvin, was kind enough to gift me two tickets to lover fest East. I live in upstate New York so I would just have to cover the cost of travel and food. Whether or not lover fest gets cancelled (I hope not), I probably won’t be able to attend. I am heartbroken but I know there are bigger things to worry about and I’m just grateful to have seen you during 1989 and rep.

Your words about your own struggles with your body shook me because I have two paper airplane tattoos on my left wrist as a reminder of my eating disorder.

Are we out of the woods yet? And I hope we will be soon.

I love you and I am wishing your family health and wellness and peace.

I am embarrassed for sharing this (I didn’t post it on twitter because I have more people that know me on there following me and my family would be really hurt/angry) but hope that the swiftie community, though we’re all struggling in our own ways, might still post and share this.

@taylornation​ @taylorswift

[swifftieforever13]

After all Taylor’s fame, she could’ve easily been a celebrity who turns their back on their fans, who begins to let fame get into their head, and someone who just easily doesn’t care about what we do, but Taylor has remained humble and giving towards us. With pre show M&G and after show M&G, which are for FREE (!!!) this girl continues to give us more and more, + she wants to thank everyone who has gotten her to where she is, and take the time for staying with her after all these years. In a fans perspective, you literally couldn’t ask for anything more, and she continues to care for us more than any other artist out there!!! idk about you but I would die for this woman!!!!!

[evswiftie]

Clean 💕

When I’m driving in a car alone and i know where im going and have taken the same route all the time so my mind has the chance to really pay attention to the song that’s playing and listening to clean ? to truely soak in the words and hear it by myself all alone in my own Some, WOW I cried pretty hard. Realizing how much of a HOPE that song is for me like after the trials and tribulations you will go through you WILL be clean and even tho you are so use to these horrible thoughts and feelings and we’re so use to it you’ll miss it you’re never Gonna risk it again like WOW that song is what kept me holding on when the guy I was with for three year in high school and a bit in college … I was so depressed knowing he cheated on me but …… one day … gone was any trace of him and the flood took the pictures away And the same with the trauma I suffered last year with being assaulted … one day it just HAPPENED the depression went away and gone was any trace of the horrible incident I never thought , last summer , after all the months of sobbing of feeling in worthy I never thought I Would feel okay again and over he last few months despite going through my moms cancer getting worse, my happiness has come to me and it just happened … the flood carried away all hose horrible memories and gona was any trace and I’ll never risk feeling this low feelings again Because I AM worthy I am not ONLY worth my body and deserve happiness and I am So much more than a victim I am CLEAN from my depression anyway clean meant so much to me three years ago and it STILL means so much to me now and I hope maybe she’ll sing it on tour ? @taylorswift

[evswiftie]

Thank you for singing clean at MetLife night 2 even tho I wasn’t there this warms my heart

[shays-corner]

Someone on twitter asked Taylor in rep room if she works out a lot and she said something like "80% of the time I call to cancel cause I have a pimple" I DIED when she told me. This is the Taylor we know.

AHDGWHSHSHSG LITERALLY ME

[elevatorbuttonsnmorningair]

Nice to know Taylor also looks for insignificant absurd reasons to get out of working out. 11/10 can relate

[swifftieforever13]

Places to go when you want to have a religious experience:

- church

- baptism

- religious temple

- cathedral

- Taylor Swift conecert, specifically when she sings “Don’t Blame Me”

[1989s]

taylor didn’t write “may your heart remain breakable, but never by the same hand, twice” for you to go back to that ex

[taylorswift]

Delicate is a song that was written about such a vulnerable time in my life and I can’t express to you how grateful I am that it’s gone #1. You guys astonish me with your support. Guess you could say I’m feeling PRETTY DELICATE about the whole thing I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[nevergettingoutofthewoods]

@taylorswift are there 11 hearts instead of 13 because you’re trying to tell us DWOHT is the next single? 🤔

[stumbleonhometomycat]

when taylor refers to us as her friends