I'm still trying to heal

The healing process is long and unforgiving

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

Imagine you just popped right back in.

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

Hugs and a spa massage set up with my favorite snack and sex

Interesting it was today

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

In a dream you invited me to parties.

In a dream we hugged again and it felt like home

In this dream we wanted to kiss

In this dream, I knew where I stood.

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

I probably will never be okay with being the bad guy in anyones story so I can’t leave this

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

As I lay here unable to sleep. It has been almost two weeks after arriving back to my home state. It is 2 am and I start thinking about what has happened and how I could have been and done better. I think of the way hugs used to feel, I remember vividly. I stay high to get by but nothing will come close to being young and naive.

[fennecandco]

Trauma didn't make me nice, I consciously made me nice because I don't want anyone else to suffer like I did. Trauma didn't make me strong, I made me strong. Don't you dare ever tell me my trauma made me anything but scared, broken, and confused. Don't give credit to the abusers for me being a good person. They didn't make me good, I made myself good.

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

So this friends w benefits is real as fuck.

He enjoys him

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

My favorite thing in the world? My boyfriend scoring some sex from someone in the same building as us.

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

My guilty pleasure? Getting men to admit they are bisexual.

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

If you weren’t with me you would be white trash.

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

When will I get over my ex? Never.

[thatlittleegyptologist]

What I feel a lot of people learned this week:

Money is fake

The Economy is fake and we can manipulate it at will. Just for some reason we keep treating it like a natural phenomenon and not a man made thing. 

Time is arbitrary

‘I can’t have x after 10pm’ yes you can because who the fuck is stopping you?

Literally all barriers to helping people are fake 

[lilitasticc]

and always have been

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

I thought I could do it.

[king-joaquin]

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

I have always known you were where I was supposed to be. I don’t know why you left me. Everything happens for a reason though maybe there were lessons to be learned but you are THE ONE, for me and no one can change that.

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

I am still lost lookong for you.

[allweeverneedistimetoheal]

I love you. Thank you for anniversarying with my psycho ass again. Sorry I blasted shit all over social media for the breif tim between like 3am and 5am, you deserved it. I’m glad it worked.