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You are one with the Force. Rest in Peace, Carrie.

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Am sad

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My understanding of the human mind is vastly small. I have been feeling so many new and different emotions lately that I don’t understand. It feels to me that everyone wants a different piece of me, a different kind of Caitlynne for each person. The problem is, I can’t meet the needs of so many different people, I can’t be that many different Caitlynnes. I just want to be left alone, I wish there weren’t so many different versions of “wrong” and “right”. I just want to be my version of me, and be left alone to do it. Well not entirely alone, I want to keep the ones that matter most, my family, my love. I want everyone else to disappear, I want them to go away. My understanding of the human mind is vastly small, and I don’t think that it will ever change.

For a really long time I've been super depressed and anxious. I don't tell anyone really except my closest friends. It's embarrassing and difficult and hard and all these feelings. I feel everything all at once all the time and how I survived these teenage years is beyond me. I hide behind humor and witty jokes. I am so sad all the time that I want to make other people (you) happy. I can't bear to see other people sad because of how sad I am. My anxiety is actually crippling. It prevents me from doing so many things. I used to vomit whenever I went out in public because I just couldn't handle it. It had gotten better in recent years and I think it's because of going to shows a lot. The music is therapeutic for me. And also my art is my way of expressing how I feel. I know these pictures I post may not seem like I have depression or anxiety but it's actually the most honest way I have if communicating my feelings. This week has been especially tough for me but I'm getting by. Anyway, here are some pictures that I'm actually semi proud of. They make me feel less scared of the world. I hope someone out there can relate to this and maybe it'll be helpful to see that you are not alone in your struggles. There are other people just like you who suffer in the same way. All we have to do is reach out to people and talk. It's so much harder than it sounds but it's so worth it. To anyone who read this, I love you and you are not alone. Cheers

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