Run for cover

I just want to take it in. Even when your fire runs out Will you start it up again? We are fallen...

[alwaysaweapon]

Tell Everybody

The E N D is coming

Welcome to alwaysaweapon!! This is a roleplay blog for Sam Winchester from the show Supernatural. This is an independent rp blog. Multiverse, multifandom, and multiship friendly. 18+ only; some NSFW themes present including -- but not limitited to-- weapons, blood, gore, violence, and substance abuse.

I'm Mel, and I am 30+ years old. I have been roleplaying for 23 years, on tumblr for 14. I am available of discord at strryhntr. More information on me can be found on my mun page.

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You can also find me on: @occultamonstri, @oldfashionedxdrunk, @ri-na-ifreann, @misfitpuzzlepieces

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[alwaysaweapon]

Life hasn't been awesome. I have a funeral Thursday. Today's the anniversary of losing my dad. Plus other crappy things. In true Winchester style, I have yet to face any of my emotions.

I'm fine. It's fine. Everything is fine.

The one highlight right now is that we brought a new family member home yesterday. Sorry for the jumpscare of my face.

This is Serenity!! She is just over 8 weeks old, and is a Miniature Boxer AKA Boston Boxer (1/2 boxer, 1/2 Boston terrier). She's hubby's ESA to help with the tism, but she definitely has love for everyone. Say hi to Serenity! I'll be around next week. Find me on discord. 😘

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Hey. Yet again I am apologizing for my lack of activity on my blogs. Explanation and trigger warning (hospital, illness, death) under the cut.

I was doing well on my multi getting things moving. And then my body threw a tantrum. Directly followed by my favorite uncle being hospitalized multiple times. And then my aunt-- my mom's only sister who practically helped raise me-- went into the hospital.

My uncle was born mentally handicapped, so he's never been older than young teen in his mind. He and I have always been very close as I have always been the only one of his nieces and nephews that made an effort to stay in his life for more than holidays and funerals. Yes, I got a lot of special treatment growing up, and my kids picked up where I left off.

Today my uncle died. He was surrounded by family. Things went from worrisome to 'he has days at most' so fast. I'm stuck at my house because our car isn't in good shape. I'm stressing out over how I am even going to make it to his funeral.

My aunt is still in the hospital. There was concerns she might have cancer but the results luckily came back clear. She's being treated for infection and diabetes related issues.

On top of all that, I've still got to continue on as a mom, a wife, and more. I'm feeling pretty crushed by the pressure right now, but I don't have any options at the moment.

Anyway. Life is lifing, death is deathing. I'll be back around when I can. I need to figure out how to fix my car or something. I need a lot of things I wish I could just ask for help with.

Love and kisses 💋

[alwaysaweapon]

[alwaysaweapon]

Hey friend. When are you coming back? You are missed.

I was just about to make a post, then saw this. So I'll do my update this way instead. First off, I miss you all as well!! Life has been wild and busy on my end. Between the house, appointments, unpacking, general figuring out homeownership, getting the adjusted to new everything, and so many other things-- I have been beyond drained. Additionally, health things, and my own trauma issues have restricted me to being in bed a lot, too. All that to say-- I've reached a point where I can't just hope for a free minute or two to focus on tumblr. I'm making time. In order to ease back in slowly, and not burn myself out before I even get started back up, I'm going to take things hella slow. I'm starting with my Multi, then I'll bring Ry back up, followed by Sam and then lastly will be Bobby. This is going to be easiest on me, more than anything. Sam is my main blog, therefore the one I have the most to catch up on and revive. So I'm starting with my two most comfortable blogs to creep my way back into gear. I'll be around the Multi starting today. I'll likely give it a few weeks before brining Ry back up. So, hopefully this answers your questions! I'm back, just not on this blog specifically as of today. Love you guys!!!

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God Damn Muses

indie • multi muse rp • featuring way more muses than in this pic.

[alwaysaweapon]

Happy Chocolate Bunny Day!!!

I'm still alive, but it feels like barely. Hubby and I have been sick for over two weeks, now, with the Vid. The new strain is a bitch.

Every time I am at a point where I think I can start getting to my blogs, something new comes along. Honestly, not even bad stuff. Mostly good, just busying and time-consuming. The worst of it has been flares and now this. So I am trying to keep positive, because it is nothing close to last year's crapshow.

I'll be around as soon as I can. I'm not going to give a timeline anymore, because it's pointless lmao. Bear with me; I will be back here and on Discord. Things and life are just changing a lot and it's taking time to adjust. Especially because new changes seem to come every week.

I love you all!

[occultamonstri]

Happy birthday, Ry. ^_^

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We had back-to-back snowstorms that messed up our internet. So I didn't get anything done on here or discord that I had planned to this week.

Today I am on the road with my MIL and kiddos for doctors appointments for my oldest. But tomorrow is a 'work' day, aka I'll be on my laptop all day.

In the meantime, check out my recent posts and let me know about threads and starters. Love you all!!

Also, jump scare (my face) under the cut.

[alwaysaweapon]

If we had a thread (or multiple) prior to my hiatus and you would like to keep going, please like this post. If you want to drop any threads we have and start fresh, please reply or message me. Thank you!

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If we had a thread (or multiple) prior to my hiatus and you would like to keep going, please like this post. If you want to drop any threads we have and start fresh, please reply or message me. Thank you!

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If we had a thread (or multiple) prior to my hiatus and you would like to keep going, please like this post. If you want to drop any threads we have and start fresh, please reply or message me. Thank you!

[alwaysaweapon]

I am officially taking my blogs off hiatus.

However.

I think this is just going to be a trial, because I had such limited interaction last time I had things active and I don't want to put time and energy into things here if it's going to amount to basically nothing.

I'll be putting out a few posts today that are blog based. Essentially maintenance type stuff. I'll also be tossing out a couple ooc posts about things not related to my blogs.

Thanks for all your love and patience!!

[alwaysaweapon]

Hello, loves.

I will be around either tomorrow or Monday to update y'all on what I'll be doing with the blogs. But I wanted to pop on and share (with those interested) the first piece I've made in my new office. ^_^

I'll also be making a couple of ooc posts in the near future to provide those who've asked with places to find all the things I share about my business and the house, as I won't be sharing those things here as much in the future.

Anywho! Photo under the cut. Love and kisses!!