Memoir of Perpetual Perceptions

poetically charged unceasing, rambling thoughts

[amandamateja]

I am beyond blessed! My life here is soooo amazing! #livingmybestlife #ilovemylife #soblessed #islandlife #livingmydream #stcroixusvi (at St. Croix, USVI) https://www.instagram.com/p/CUwNOV8tAaa/?utm_medium=tumblr

[amandamateja]

Life is beautiful! #livingmybestlife #ilovemylife #stcroixusvi (at Tap Deck Bar & Billiards) https://www.instagram.com/p/CUv3Xi8tQic/?utm_medium=tumblr

[amandamateja]

I love these morning rainbows! #ilovestxcroix #islandlife #livingmybestlife #paradise #stcroixusvi #livingmybestlife (at The Fred) https://www.instagram.com/p/CUun8zhrR1i/?utm_medium=tumblr

[amandamateja]

I can't still can't believe I went on an impromptu trip to Puerto Rico over the weekend!!!! #livingmybestlife #ilovemylife #soblessed #islandlife #livingmydream #wanderlust (at Puerto Rico) https://www.instagram.com/p/CS7__Pbrr1f/?utm_medium=tumblr

[amandamateja]

#beachvibes #stcroixusvi #beachlife #islandlife #livingmydream #livingmybestlife #paradise (at St. Croix, USVI) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQ4b4HJhAyE/?utm_medium=tumblr

[amandamateja]

Sleep Deprived

Lying here awake,

you right by my side.

We have both come a long way

since only last July.

It was really so great to see you.

It has really been a long time.

I hope that you didn't notice

how I could hardly look into your eyes.

We had some great conversations.

I think you even apologized.

I am sorry, too,

for the way I was back then.

Apparently, as it seems,

it just really wasn't our time.

Lying here awake,

you right by my side.

We have both come a long way

since only last July.

You said that you've been fighting demons, and thus, you're sleep deprived.

I told you that I would stick around,

so maybe you'll find some peace,

if only for the night.

Now you are lying next to me,

snoring and out like a light.

One thing led to another,

even though I swore to myself

that I would not give in.

Your lips touched mine,

and all but that moment

was so easily forgotten just then.

Lying here awake,

you right by my side.

We have both come a long way

since only last July.

We held each other tightly

until you drifted off to sleep.

Now I am battling those demons

yet genuinely glad that I was able to help you get some rest and peace.

The sun will be up soon,

and we will go our separate ways.

But we will always have that moment and bittersweet memories;

may the sweetness never fade.

//Amanda Mateja

[amandamateja]

Perfect day for the beach!!! #sundayfunday #livingmybestlife #beachvibes (at Sandy Point nature Preserve) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLSRecaB8In/?igshid=8lv3p6tlo18g

[amandamateja]

#poetsofinstagram #poetryisnotdead #poemsofig #poetryislife #poetryandlove #poetryaddict #poetryannoymous #writerscreedig #livingmybestlife #paradise #stcroixusvi #beachlife #islandlife (at Frederiksted Waterfront) https://www.instagram.com/p/CKo7LIYBVaZ/?igshid=rqqo0u5wkgp0

[amandamateja]

So this is what 40 looks like! I love it and totally embrace it! #40thbirthday #40andfabulous #livingmybestlife #paradise #stcroixusvi #beachlife #islandlife #livingmydream (at Fredericksted,USVI) https://www.instagram.com/p/CKXCGcsBvHi/?igshid=12gkx64tv8mk5

[amandamateja]

Y'all, I can't make this up! I literally just took this picture after sautéing some okra. The skillet is still very hot. Too bad I can't bring myself to kill an animal. #livingmybestlife #paradise #thesimplelife (at Mount Victory Camp, Eco-Lodge) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGkn3FRBYQ5/?igshid=159au38dctyzt

[amandamateja]

#poetsofinstagram #poetryisnotdead #poemsofig #writerscreedig #writtenfeelings #livingmybestlife #lovingmyself #lovinglife #wanderlust #poetsanonymous #beachvibes #stcroixusvi #stxstrong #spilledthoughts https://www.instagram.com/p/CGNieWShQSf/?igshid=179g4teo4s61v

[amandamateja]

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and this place has so much of it! #beachvibes #stcroixusvi #wanderlust #livingmybestlife #paradise #stxstrong (at Rainbow Beach, St. Croix, Virgin Is.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGNSNvTBlk_/?igshid=1je64rb80xz4i

[amandamateja]

Now this is magical! #beachvibes #stcroixusvi #wanderlust #livingmybestlife #paradise #stxstrong (at The Fred) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGF0_YoBS-H/?igshid=1hln2bwscbp6k

[amandamateja]

I found Heaven today. #beachvibes #beachlife #beachday #livingmybestlife #lovingmyself #lovinglife #stcroixusvi (at Rainbow Beach, St. Croix, Virgin Is.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGDaYvwhy8y/?igshid=1htsjqiwuoi83

[amandamateja]

This place truly takes my breath away. #beachvibes #stcroixusvi #wanderlust #livingmybestlife #paradise (at Rainbow Beach, St. Croix, Virgin Is.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGCnIw4BJgC/?igshid=1rr7hqo6ozbpx

[amandamateja]

Never in a million years would I have ever thought that I could fall so in love with a place! And I've only been here less than 48 hours! #wanderlust #stcroixusvi https://www.instagram.com/p/CF72-JzhOqk/?igshid=1ewe2wpb8mrhr

[amandamateja]

at Rainbow Beach, St. Croix, Virgin Is. https://www.instagram.com/p/CF70iaoBLy-/?igshid=1tnqt4nkas63p