vincente

atsushi’s sweetheart

[amanoyuuhi]

i’m so grateful to have someone who understands my love for him i love him

[amanoyuuhi]

would he be happy

[amanoyuuhi]

the doctors claim i know how to deattach myself from reality where i dissociate. i always assumed when i went to that place it was just day dreaming i guess. when i go away i go on autopilot. in my head it wherever i possibly go im always with fictional characters and im about to manipulate things to what i want. i always see myself sometimes there’s 3 of me. but its weird because sometimes when im in these places i can write with my left hand. or i have my own quirks. one of them cant cook and the others dont know how to play guitar at all. some of the characters are attached to certain duplicates of me which is funny. sometimes in reality my eyes are fully blacked out bc of my pupil. i wonder what that even does

[amanoyuuhi]

even breathing the same air as him is enough

[amanoyuuhi]

i wish people understood how much things like this mean to me. i literally went to relapse and i thought about how upset they’d be. i literally dropped my box cutter and fell to the floor sobbing. i like to pretend he’s real sometimes. in truth he’s never gone away when i left bsd because i’d still collect atsushi merch. i wish he was real so i could get an autograph or something

[sylvioki]

Fyolai worms..

[sylvioki]

I<33333fyolai broooooo

I just love them so much so so much so much so much sosososososo muchhhh...

[ilikegreedraw]

they are stupid and i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them

[amanoyuuhi]

i remember my friends drawing me with this specific atsushi card because i was upset i couldn’t paint. they drew us painting together but i was in my hospital gown. i miss my old friends so much. i wish i still had the drawing

[amanoyuuhi]

i did a lot of rambling in my last post but no one can understand how much this card and character impacted my life

i miss you baby

[amanoyuuhi]

when i was in the hospital for internal bleeding. i was bed bound for 3 weeks and i got my first ever limited ssr atsushi card. i remember reposting so much x readers and oneshots during this time. during this time i also started my atsushi collection. i do miss atsushimilk a lot, but this card has always been one of my absolute favorites even after i left atsushimilk. i remember grinding this event, laying in my hospital gown getting yelled at by the nurses because i didn’t sleep. i sat on my phone grinding crystals for atsushi and tanizaki ssr cards. this game genuinely meant so much to me and this card will forever be in my heart. i love you jinko.❤️

when i finally die i do hope im buried with the keychain i made of this card that’s on my car keys. i have this card as a pin on 3 of my backpacks and i always wanted to cosplay this card. painter jinko has always been loved by me and even was my pfp for months on end. atsushi you mean so much to me and i even told myself i wouldn’t kill myself until mayoi ended. unfortunately mayoi ended so i can’t get anymore content of you except from the manga, anime, and wan.

may atsushimilk, krow, and bsd mayoi rest in peace

[amanoyuuhi]

all the stray dogs knew it’d happen. i got the gakuen game but it’s not the same as mayoi

[amanoyuuhi]

i’m genuinely sobbing my eyes out over this

[amanoyuuhi]

my poor baby is gone

[amanoyuuhi]

mayoi.

[amanoyuuhi]

why can’t i stop crying

[amanoyuuhi]

i will i die tonight or will i wake up vomiting everywhere? let’s guess!

[amanoyuuhi]

forgot to update but i didn’t die 😒