Ambivalence

♡ Nicole NIKKI Keaton ♡ pathological PEOPLE PLEASER, fading. MIDNIGHTS become my AFTERNOONS.

[ambivalenceshefelt]

Welcome to Aurora Bay, [NICOLE "NIKKI" KEATON] ! I couldn’t help but notice you look an awful lot like [OLIVIA HOLT] . You must be the [TWENTY-EIGHT] year old [TEACHER AT KIDS’ COTTAGE DAYCARE CENTER] . Word is you’re [SELFLESS] but can also be a bit [INSECURE] and your favorite song is [I LIVED BY ONEREPUBLIC] . I also heard you’ll be staying in [OCEAN CREST APARTMENTS] . I’m sure you’ll love it!

[ updated dec.2025 ] .tw: sleeping disorder

Basic Information

FULL NAME: Nicole Imogen Keaton NICKNAMES: Nikki, Nik AGE: Twenty-eight DATE OF BIRTH: November 16th, 1997 OCCUPATION: teacher at Kids' Cottage Daycare Center NEIGHBORHOOD: Ocean Crest apartments (+): selfless, positive, fun (-): insecure, overdramatic, temperamental

Born in Aurora Bay, Nikki has embraced her role as the baby of the family, turning it into a platform for her achievements or a cushion to fall back onto when needed.

Growing up with two older siblings helped her not only learn from their mistakes when dealing with their parents but it also made her more outspoken about her needs and dislikes. Although sometimes going for the jugular with each other, Nicole adores her siblings. She doesn’t tell them as often as she probably could -or should- but she will always have their back. Not only that, but she also wants them to be proud of her.

It started small; difficulty sleeping, stress peaking at night. It was nothing, it gave her more time to study, to work through things. People constantly asked for more hours in the day -Nikki had that. Then it only went downhill. The happier people were with her, the less she slept to make sure it continued.

Nikki’s people pleasing tendency peaked through high school. Socially a queen bee, up to her teeth in clubs and activities, member of various school committees, tutoring other students and always helping her mother with work or the house. At the time, Nikki shined as a charming overachiever. And it was exhausting.

During her years in college, her insomnia reached an almost dangerous extent; not sleeping for two or three days at a time before she crashed and burned. Things would have gone completely downhill if her dad hadn’t put a stop to it by forcing her to go to therapy. And it saved her life.

Nikki knows she’s not taking care of herself as much as she should. Her caffeine addiction does not help with her sleeping disorder, and she constantly looks for ways to tire herself into sleeping without burning out again. All this is also amplified by her feelings; being happy or sad or angry has an impact on how well she cares for herself. But she wants her family to be proud of her so she’s trying. At least she’s trying. @aurorabayaesthetic

[connorsclark]

Connor: Anything that puts one over the other? @ambivalenceshefelt

[ambivalenceshefelt]

Nikki: Your personality and preference. Nikki: Do you want to dress up..or down for it? @connorsclark

[forestxsmith]

closed: @ambivalenceshefelt where: fun house @ carnival

"There is no way my ass is going to be able to climb up that thing." Forest said to the girl standing next to him, looking up at the funhouse in front of them. "I'm all for a good time and I'm not usually one to say this, are you sure this a good idea?"

[ambivalenceshefelt]

Nikki looked up too. "Yeah...." she trailed off, suddenly not to sure either. She was a flyer back in her cheerleading years but this...this didn't make her feel confident. "The closer we get, the less sure I am about this." she blew out a breath, hating to admit it. || @forestxsmith

[thewrenxharlow]

"It's the assumption I heard from that lady on the fifth floor with all her little dogs." Wren told her with a shrug. "Honestly, the public pool is pretty good. Or just find someone who has a house with a pool? There's options at least." She'd never even really been in many pools until moving here, so it wasn't something she was too hard up on. "Either way, it should only be a few weeks I think. Right in time for July and August and that fuckass thousand degree sun heat to hit. Until then...there's always obviously the beach?"

[ambivalenceshefelt]

"So..my parents." Nikki huffed. "No, never."

"Yeah, public pool's more than decent, that's true." Nikki agreed. Honestly, the town had some pretty great public amenities no matter how often locals liked to complain. "If I could, I'd set up a tent and camp by the beach, really." Their names were called over. "Oh yeah! I ordered for us. Still" she jumped back to the previous point "I'm afraid we're gassing this up and it'll be something like 'be mindful of your water spending' or something that could have been an email." || @thewrenxharlow

[outofxbloom]

"There's a lot of movies about Aliens destroying the earth too. The dinosaurs are never really the villains in the Jurassic Park movies. It's the scientists who flew too close to the sun. I rather my demise be quick. Aliens seem like they'll drag it out and be weird."

[ambivalenceshefelt]

"I know." Nikki nodded "But cinematically, aliens let you live for a bit longer before they kill you cause they want something from you."

"Thought we were talking about creatures, not villains." she tilted her head to the left. "Because, yeah, humans are always the villains. No question." || @outofxbloom

[connorsclark]

text @ open

Connor: What's the best place in town to watch the fireworks, you think? @aurorabaystarter

[ambivalenceshefelt]

Nikki: You either go fancy or spontaneous. Nikki: So Skylark or the beach. @connorsclark

[sophsun1]

The Parent Trap (1998) dir. Nancy Meyers

[ambivalenceshefelt]

pecan: shuffle your playlist, what's the first song that comes up?

"Popular by The Weeknd"

[ambivalenceshefelt]

amber: what's saved as your phone's lockscreen?

[ambivalenceshefelt]

maroon: do you care for clothing brands?

"Honestly, not really. Not anymore." Nikki amended. "There was a time I used to care about that thing; you know, be the girl who'd go like 'uh! you love it?! i'm wearing this brand' and all that." she laughs. "I grew out of it. Mostly. Now I'll wear it if I like it. I only go all out at city events..ballgowns and all that."

[ambivalenceshefelt]

▸ Color Asks ▸ Childhood Memories ▸ Bare Bones

𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖𝄖

Nikki || Mia || Colton

[gavin-carrigan]

“ cooking is a science. If you bad at science I can see how cooking can go wrong “ Gavin hadn’t been frat at cooking for a longtime but he didn’t want to have to keep paying people to do it so he went to his mom for emergency lessons when Bennie got older. “ it would be a pretty good revenge though. I don’t think that scent is leaving for at least a few showers”

“ I should have stopped you before you got too close to your own hair. I figured you were just really trying to explain how bad that would be “ he noted as he made a face at the almost catastrophe “ I did. But what were the odds my nose was wrong? “ @ambivalenceshefelt

[ambivalenceshefelt]

"There was this girl I didn't like, if she hadn't moved out of town I absolutely would have..gone over and shown her some love." she chuckled. Good days.

She shook her hair enough for it to fly around, see if she caught whiff of something. Did she look stupid? Probably. "Yeah, no, no smell. We're good" Nikki chuckled. "No you were right. I kind of wish I was a Karen like my mom so I could..speak to a manager about..that." she huffed pointing at the smelly candle. She didn't even want to think what that thing would smell like if lit... || @gavin-carrigan

[thewrenxharlow]

Wren blinked in response to Nikki's ambushing of a question before raising a brow at her, "Well hi to you too, Nik." She grumbled even as she moved to stand to the side with her since Nikki had already ordered. "And yeah, I saw it. I think enough people bitched that they're gonna close and update the pool on the roof? Add more seating, put some more umbrella and shade and shit out. Hell, might even finally put in some barbecue's since that's something I've been saying we need for ages now."

[ambivalenceshefelt]

Nikki huffed humorously. Sometimes salutations were skippable to her when she was keyed in. "Oooo, you think?" she asked. "I will scream if it's for the door thingy again" Nikki said of the building's overhead door closer. They had talked about it three times already and someone still kept breaking it. "But..updating the pool now, right when we'll most need it?"

[outofxbloom]

Open starter: Blossom & @aurorabaystarter Location: anywhere

"My niece asked me this question a few days ago and I haven't met anyone who agrees with me. Would you rather meet a dinosaur or an alien? I rather meet a dinosaur. What's wrong with people? If something looking like ET comes at me, I'm drop-kicking it."

[ambivalenceshefelt]

"Of course nobody agrees" Nikki huffed. "We have like..six or eight movies on why we shouldn’t meet dinosaurs."

"Not that I’m fond of aliens..but, in theory, we have better chances of not becoming their cutesy girl dinner within like..five minutes, you know…"

[gavin-carrigan]

“ it might be that sort of situation where people don’t understand the flavors they put together and the it taste like garbage. Like certain things just don’t work out “ he mused for a moment but he really just wanted to take another step back from the candle. “ in this case it’s scents “

“ I’m sure it will. Especially if it has a scent that would overpower it. I don’t think the hand washing stations are too busy either “ @ambivalenceshefelt

[ambivalenceshefelt]

"Like me when I try to cook." Nikki huffed. Which is why she had let Aiden and Cricket be the culinary gifted ones of the friend group and she stuck to bringing alcohol and chocolate. "This should be considered a hate crime by the way..and I don't have people I hate around here to.." she lifted a hand in the air pretending to pet something "you know, run my fingers through their hair."

Nikki almost touched her own hair but paused. "Another day, another success." she chuckled. "You did try to warn me though. Next time, I'll listen." || @gavin-carrigan

[cricketcampbell]

for: @ambivalenceshefelt

where: nikki's place

"Um, is it just that I haven't been on Hinge in forever," and thank God for that, "or are there like way more men with pictures of fish than I remember? Like just look at this guy--it's like okay, we get it. Women want you, fish fear you, whatever."

Hearing her words back, Cricket paused in her swiping through Nikki's phone to glance over at her friend apologetically.

"Unless you're, like, into that. No judgement, obviously."

(At least, none that she'd pass out loud.)

[ambivalenceshefelt]

Nikki groaned hiding her face in a throw pillow. "Do we really need to do this!?" she asked and looked at the screen over Cricket's shoulder. "Ew, no. Pass. Please. I don't need a sweet-water Steve Irwin knock-off."

"Also..Hinge?! Am I that desperate?" Yet? || @cricketcampbell

[ambivalenceshefelt]

15. Who would your muse have been better off never meeting at all? What happened between them?

"I..." Nikki paused. "Wait. Wait. I've never thought about that." she looked around. "I..hell, I don't know." she admitted. "I'm pretty..content with everyone I've met so far and..I don't know, I don't think there's someone I'd have been better off not meeting."

"Oooooh, I think therapy's working here." Nikki chuckled. "Personal growth."