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IT WOULD BE FINE, remus silently assured himself. thus far, most everyone who had found out about his condition had been understanding (most). and remus knew amelia to be a kind, logical, and understanding person; although they didn’t get off on the right foot years ago he now considered her a friend. surely she knew and understood. he just had to confirm it. it would be fine … or it wouldn’t and he would destroy their friendship before it truly even started. he tried to appear easy-going and casual — he just had to dutifully ignore the anxieties whispering in the back of his mind and prickling under his skin.
he opened his mouth to speak, and when no sound came out he snapped it closed. great, he must look like a gaping fish — but how exactly did he ask someone ‘hey, do you know that i’m a werewolf?’ without accidentally revealing himself on the off-chance that she didn’t? this was much easier when his other friends had found out and just told him they knew. why didn’t amelia do the same? he was almost certain she knew — that incident in the library last year was only missing a flashing neon sign that read ‘i know you’re a werewolf.’ hopefully if he prompted her, even vaguely, it’d be enough to just get it all out in the open. at an utter loss of a better way to phrase his question, he simply found himself nervously asking: “…do you know?”
Despite the placid smile that had been playing across her lips, Amelia’s mental state was anything but calm. Her mind raced with the possible ways that this conversation could go. …do you know? If he expected her to say it outright then he was sorely mistaken. She had no way of knowing whether or not Remus knew that she knew, and even worse, she wasn’t sure if what she knew was even correct. What if she was wrong and she what she thought she knew wasn’t what she thought she knew at all? Oh hello Remus, lovely weather we’re having. Just wanted to ask, you know, as friends do, are you a werewolf? No? Oh so I’ve just gone completely mad then and should be committed to St. Mungos? Right then! Lovely! I’ll do the paperwork myself!
Amelia mentally cursed herself. This wouldn’t have happened if it weren’t for that blasted day in the library! What was she supposed to do, not throw the book on werewolves across the aisle the moment Remus approached? And then what, not pass that off as a moment of clumsiness even though he had clearly watched her launch it across the library floor? Keeping her hand on the strap of her school bag (preparing to run away from this conversation), Amelia opened her mouth, her voice wobbly. She sincerely doubted how much longer she could keep this up. . . “Do I know about.. about what, exactly?”














