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A sinister man woman boy girl indeed. (18) she/her 💚🤍arospec🩶🖤 Author and artist!!! I LUH MY OCS🫶 I love scenemo bullshi!! Christian 😛😛🫶🫶✝️✝️

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BLLLYYYYAAAAAAATTTTT FALKNEREERRRR BLYYYAAA

Up next is Morty smoking his ghastly named blackberry ice stay tuned

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Beautiful fat transfem butch. For pride month. You are… Welcome… 🩷

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Beautiful fat transfem butch. For pride month. You are… Welcome… 🩷

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Beautiful fat transfem butch. For pride month. You are… Welcome… 🩷

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My favourite thing ever is an absolutely disgusting nasty ass bob. Watching St Trinian’s with oomf just reinforces this tenfold♥️

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Gggg i really want more friends more fictive friends specifically. cries about it. hoooowwwww

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hiiiii ehhe guess who’s birthday it is todayy :3

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Princess moodboard collage thing ♥️ for my birthday ♥️ yay ♥️

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The backrooms movie had a really good set up and then they made the villian… that.?????

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Another sideblog intro post,,

Hi,, It's "princess sheep" from @soggfytoast woowwwww. Not STRICTLY 18+ but I will reference mature stuff (tagged. but still)

This is a fictive blog (If you're curious the YDOT tag on the aforementioned blog is. there.) I'm my own author's favourite girl and everyone should be jealous.... heheh...

ANYWAY. I have a lot of names but mainly it's Lucia. (70 or Valetudo is cool too though. yay), She/Her, bodily 18, all that idk. Blabbing abt myself below the cut :))

Interests ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

Slay the princess!!!!

DDLC (just played it at the time of writing this)

Visual novels in general? Getting into it!!!!!!

Long ass media reviews/summaries

Been getting into movies...........

Talking about myself idk

Red (like the colour)

Angelic imagery, doll imagery, lamb imagery, yayayayayay

Teto...

Music that is tactile. In ways.

Kins?????? ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

Okay obviously myself if that still "counts".

Deitykin specifically from YDOT. Like that's an important vital part of it.

Valais sheep

Pigeon/Crow, vaguely bird coded all around

What I'll post ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

Random stray thoughts

Art (mostly others. Maybe sometimes mine idk.... hrhgrhehh)

Probably a lot about being a fictive

Maybe rambling writings. I made a poem 1(one) time. Will I ever do it again?.. maybe....

Pretty aesthetic images

Allusions to kinks. If you want a list check @soggfybiscuit as most also apply to me. I am nothing but a reflection of their desires. Joking. Mostly.

This list may be updated........

That is all. Farewell. Curtsies at you

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Being sappy hours

Nothing feels more cathartic as someone who’s been through shit is seeing characters who have survived abuse being written with dignity and beauty and respect and such… I really hope to magnify this in my own book with Pandora and such…

I really really like my friends book because of this…. You know who you are… thank you….

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TW FOR SPEAK OF ABUSE BTW!!!!!!!

SPEAKING. Of writing Pandora. THAT FUCKASS STEVEN UNIVERSE SONG NEVER LEAVES MY MIND WHEN THINKING OF HER!!!

thinking about the SU song “Drift Away” in relation to Pandora, especially in regards to toxic coerced loyalty and such between her and Petras. (ex Boyfriend) Alongside Spinel and Rose, I like to read the lyrics as if Pandora is watching herself drift away in the gripes of emotional abuse and such, as opposed to watching somebody else drift away like Spinel did.

“Happily wondering Night after night Is this how it works? Am I doing it right? Happy to listen Happy to stay Happily watching her drift away”

DO NOT CHAT TO ME. Anyway,

I also really love how, in my mind, this song touches on hindsight often being 20/20 after leaving abusive relationships— in particular the thought of “why the fuck didn’t I just LEAVE?” OUUH IT ALSO RELATES HEAVILY TO THE ERASURE OF VICTIMS IN MY MINDDD… I’ll give you oc lore related context

Before Niall eventually slimes his ass, Petras gets essentially doted on by the entire year group after Pandora “cruelly and abruptly dumps him with no warning, after all those years they spent together!” Whereas Panda stays significantly quieter with her experience. When she finally does open up to people, everyone’s already kinda biased by Petras’s loudness, leading her to often receive comments like:

“I hear you, but he was really hurt too you know!”

“Everyone’s emotional you know, couldn’t you have just talked to him?”

“Well why didn’t you just leave?”

This leaves Pandora to walk a weird line between being villainised and forgotten for a while, while she watches Petras become shrouded in support by his peers, which these lyrics really remind me of—

“Isn't that lovely? Isn't that cool? And isn't that cruel? And aren't I a fool to have Happily listened Happy to stay Happily watching her drift Drift Drift away”

AAAAAAAH OKAY. :,) THIS WAS A VERY HEAVY POST ESPECIALLY AFTER IVE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG!!!! Please don’t worry, miss Panda has a happy ending with Niall, I just think it’s important to tell her story. YAP OVER GEEZ.

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ALSO. “Why do I feel like I know you from somewhere?” Being the first thing Niall says to Pandora when they meet makes me super duper emotional. I genuinely love them so much wtf

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Hey guys its me again. Just found out my oc Daisy is really smart BECAUSE he shares a brain with a super smart dude. I think thsts very cool okay bye😈😈🙌🙌

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I’m fucking crine bro.😭 He’s a geophysicist now HAHAHA

[americalovania]

Being sappy hours

Nothing feels more cathartic as someone who’s been through shit is seeing characters who have survived abuse being written with dignity and beauty and respect and such… I really hope to magnify this in my own book with Pandora and such…

I really really like my friends book because of this…. You know who you are… thank you….

[americalovania]

TW FOR SPEAK OF ABUSE BTW!!!!!!!

SPEAKING. Of writing Pandora. THAT FUCKASS STEVEN UNIVERSE SONG NEVER LEAVES MY MIND WHEN THINKING OF HER!!!

thinking about the SU song “Drift Away” in relation to Pandora, especially in regards to toxic coerced loyalty and such between her and Petras. (ex Boyfriend) Alongside Spinel and Rose, I like to read the lyrics as if Pandora is watching herself drift away in the gripes of emotional abuse and such, as opposed to watching somebody else drift away like Spinel did.

“Happily wondering Night after night Is this how it works? Am I doing it right? Happy to listen Happy to stay Happily watching her drift away”

DO NOT CHAT TO ME. Anyway,

I also really love how, in my mind, this song touches on hindsight often being 20/20 after leaving abusive relationships— in particular the thought of “why the fuck didn’t I just LEAVE?” OUUH IT ALSO RELATES HEAVILY TO THE ERASURE OF VICTIMS IN MY MINDDD… I’ll give you oc lore related context

Before Niall eventually slimes his ass, Petras gets essentially doted on by the entire year group after Pandora “cruelly and abruptly dumps him with no warning, after all those years they spent together!” Whereas Panda stays significantly quieter with her experience. When she finally does open up to people, everyone’s already kinda biased by Petras’s loudness, leading her to often receive comments like:

“I hear you, but he was really hurt too you know!”

“Everyone’s emotional you know, couldn’t you have just talked to him?”

“Well why didn’t you just leave?”

This leaves Pandora to walk a weird line between being villainised and forgotten for a while, while she watches Petras become shrouded in support by his peers, which these lyrics really remind me of—

“Isn't that lovely? Isn't that cool? And isn't that cruel? And aren't I a fool to have Happily listened Happy to stay Happily watching her drift Drift Drift away”

AAAAAAAH OKAY. :,) THIS WAS A VERY HEAVY POST ESPECIALLY AFTER IVE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG!!!! Please don’t worry, miss Panda has a happy ending with Niall, I just think it’s important to tell her story. YAP OVER GEEZ.

[americalovania]

Being sappy hours

Nothing feels more cathartic as someone who’s been through shit is seeing characters who have survived abuse being written with dignity and beauty and respect and such… I really hope to magnify this in my own book with Pandora and such…

I really really like my friends book because of this…. You know who you are… thank you….

[soggfytoast]

Ranting about rgu in relation to my own writing below cut so ummm. Saying just in case bc im general tagging it AHHA

RGU is very cool to me bc i was thinking last night it’s influenced my writing/art in both an overt and subtle way which is awesome… my favourite show… I really love how anthy and utena are written and it’s helped me sort of figure out how to write lucia and althea bc they are quiet similar dynamic wise…

Utena’s arc during the series is very similar THEMATICALLY to “Althea’s” arc over the books, with the whole “Finding a girl trapped in a horrific cycle of abuse and realising the only way to save her is to let her do it herself” (That’s also why i think the choice to make utena (originally blonde), blue eyed and pale is an interesting choice, her in the early series has a lot of white knight stuff going on which I kinda also had going on at the same age of dumb and 14) BUT ANYWAY

It’s also why I LOVE Anthy in the movie (besides the artstyle change) because beyond the strong implication the series ends it, it outright SHOWS the girls’ only way to freedom is with Utena simply supporting and loving Anthy while she works to free herself and take control of her own life. I really want Nameless (last book in my series) to have to same feeling with finally watching this girl spiritually spit on the grave of their eternal cycle abusers… Like Anthy, the books follow Valetudo (lucia) simmering in her own suffering until a permanent source of support locks the fuck in and helps her realise lifes worth trying to fight for again…. idk…..

Nameless ends means so much to me….. yess beat that guy with a curtain rod 🩷🩷🩷🩷 Okay thats all thanks for listening

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FORGOT TO ADD

This is just my interpretation of adolescences of utena, if you disagree you are free too obviously ffs, but I like how Anthy isn’t made to be absolutely perfect and pure in order to defeat The Evil either, which is also something it has in common with Nameless. Like she’s kind of weird still and forward sexually in a way where TO ME it seems like she developed some kind of interest in cnc due to everything she’s been through and… the movie doesnt try to cure or fix that clear desire, she actually gets to act on it in the end. Because she deserves to finally be in control of her own life… Beautiful fucking movie 10/10

More OC inspired ramblings under cut AGAIN

I think it’s kind of similar to how Nameless will play out, with Valetudo whole persona in it being a combination of all the worst and best parts that have happened over the series. The first book is pretty straight forward with her arc, going from “Cut everyone off and ‘reset’ everytime it gets too hard” to “Life is worth living and struggling through difficult times can still be good”. And all those experiences melt into the weird, almost contradictory 70 (sorry she has ten million fucking names ffs), who is sort of experiencing and processing every detail of that detail all at once. And it makes her weird and kinky even about horrific shit that happened, LIKE ANTHY!!!! omg….. Girls….. Girls…..

[soggfytoast]

Ranting about rgu in relation to my own writing below cut so ummm. Saying just in case bc im general tagging it AHHA

RGU is very cool to me bc i was thinking last night it’s influenced my writing/art in both an overt and subtle way which is awesome… my favourite show… I really love how anthy and utena are written and it’s helped me sort of figure out how to write lucia and althea bc they are quiet similar dynamic wise…

Utena’s arc during the series is very similar THEMATICALLY to “Althea’s” arc over the books, with the whole “Finding a girl trapped in a horrific cycle of abuse and realising the only way to save her is to let her do it herself” (That’s also why i think the choice to make utena (originally blonde), blue eyed and pale is an interesting choice, her in the early series has a lot of white knight stuff going on which I kinda also had going on at the same age of dumb and 14) BUT ANYWAY

It’s also why I LOVE Anthy in the movie (besides the artstyle change) because beyond the strong implication the series ends it, it outright SHOWS the girls’ only way to freedom is with Utena simply supporting and loving Anthy while she works to free herself and take control of her own life. I really want Nameless (last book in my series) to have to same feeling with finally watching this girl spiritually spit on the grave of their eternal cycle abusers… Like Anthy, the books follow Valetudo (lucia) simmering in her own suffering until a permanent source of support locks the fuck in and helps her realise lifes worth trying to fight for again…. idk…..

Nameless ends means so much to me….. yess beat that guy with a curtain rod 🩷🩷🩷🩷 Okay thats all thanks for listening

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Hey guys its me again. Just found out my oc Daisy is really smart BECAUSE he shares a brain with a super smart dude. I think thsts very cool okay bye😈😈🙌🙌