realitybehinddrama

well for real I am not into writing stuff but here I am describing myself in the 3rd person so then there's no guilt in such a dressing down of myself..har-de-har... "she's generally likeable (so she thinks), depending on how the wind blows.. otherwise, she's quite the little grouch! she lives to eat, not the other way around... cooking ain't quite her thing, though!! ALLAH is her guardian..her saviour..her everything!!!! Music flows through her veins!! (although she can’t bloody play any instrument but still she can sing well!! aha??) often forgets she’s a girl & behaves like one of the guys..as a result, she’s sometimes a little brash & rough around the edges...hahahaha..(no doubt!!) A screwed up PARADOX..!!! she was born to be stubborn, to push herself. She was never taught to take life for granted, to live a little, to love with everything she had, to never give up, to belive in herself and most of all to fight for herself"

[amrinarasyada]

enough is enough amrina rasyada.. make him stay not go.. till when u wanna fight because of that thing? Ya Allah bantu aku..

[amrinarasyada]

I aint going to look or even liked any of ur "brinchang" or "ulu yam" picture because it's going to makes me pondering over those scary past nightmares and the worst part is that it's giving me imsomnia!! #heartbreakdisease

[amrinarasyada]

and I have succesfully cook dinner for him..all by myself!! #horrayyyyyy

[amrinarasyada]

my darling is having a nightmare of his own... #twisted #love

[amrinarasyada]

I got u..and we’re good.. but why do I still feel the pain? why am I still hurting? I do love u much but why am I hurting?

I just want to cry out loud for once.. just so the pain can be washed away.. gone together with the tears.. just once..

but when u r with me.. I cant seems to show u this pain.. suddenly I act like everything is fine.. I act like I am happy.. I act like I am a very strong girl… but I dont want this… I wanted u to know how hurt I am.. I wanted u to see what this pain did to me… I wanted u to heal it.. I wanted to cry for once infront of u… but I just cant…

I cant sleep.. nightmares all the time… the thought of u leaving me is scaring me… the tears…what should I do with it… every night it falls… everyday Im feeling insecure even u r infront of me… what should I do..?? they said time heals the pain..but WHEN???

please help me..help me heal this… hear my thought..see my pain..just help me stop this tears from falling.. I cant be like this anymore.. I just cant..

help me :(

[amrinarasyada]

this little kid pagi2 dah ke hulu ke hilir dengan towel and that glasses..haih! mcm2..

[amrinarasyada]

DON'T WANNA TRY NO MORE

i can't believe u had the nerve to say the things u said.. they hurt so bad that they ended our relationship... i can't believe it .. 2 years gone down the drain how i wish things would of happened so differently... i try'd to save it so many times but you still couldn't see... u kept insistin' and resistin' that u would not fall again... and now ur tryin' to tell me that ur sorry and ur tryin' to come back home... ur tellin' me u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor but baby... i don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more.. u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door... don't wanna try don't wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things that hurt so bad to where we both begin to cry.. don't wanna try don't wanna try i 'bout just had enough its been a rough road... baby just let it go... don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more... tell me whats the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love... u and i had many conversations on the telephone... talks about one day we having a place of our own... wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table... but all of that just seems so far away from me.. had to wake up face reality... it all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through... and now ur tryin' to tell me that ur sorry and ur tryin' to come back home u tellin' me that u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor but baby i....

[amrinarasyada]

The Roof the image that I've manage to snap while on training... i am still learning on the editing... #snapseed

[amrinarasyada]

yes..only Him... my saviour.. my everything...

[amrinarasyada]

antique #onlyinmelaka #vscocam #quaint

[amrinarasyada]

here in melaka... #byS4 #sunset

[amrinarasyada]

here I am...

[amrinarasyada]

[amrinarasyada]

only in Melaka

[amrinarasyada]

selfie anyone?

[amrinarasyada]

you

[amrinarasyada]

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