May 1, 2017
y'all, i love this song. i truly do. it's good and it's grown on me. and i love this band more than any other. but this song is tough to swallow... as someone who has taken someone's heaven away. it's just a lot of weight. there's guilt. i don't really know how to deal with it. i haven't for months quite honestly and i don't know if i ever will. i suppose we can't be tied down to other people's happiness -- we aren't responsible for anyone but ourselves. and you, individually, are not contracted to be anyone's singular source of happiness. but as much as we take care of ourselves, it's god awful to have it shoved down your throat that you took someone's heaven away.
i wish i could give it back.
