ANCIENT HEART

Emery

[anancientheart]

Me and my love broke up because I wanted to. I took the time I needed to be alone and he begged me the whole time to come back so when I was ready he had already moved to the mountains four hours away from me.

Then I pursued someone else bad choice and they ended up treating me terribly ending with threatening to kill my kitty cat.

I miss him I don't want a family without him I don't want children without him I regret so much I carry it every day. I want so badly to go where he's at and surrender my life to him. I know from the seven years we were together he's the love of my life.

go run to the mountains for your love. go make a grand gesture. be vulnerable. be alive. reach for it ❤️‍🔥

[anancientheart]

guys I just realized I’m avoidant and all my friends are like duh we thought you knew this

[anancientheart]

[anancientheart]

[anancientheart]

if you feel a pull towards something — something vast, something unknown, something that whispers, something that calls over and over — you have to go to it. if there is no known path to it, make one. in this time it seems that all paths are laid out, all options exist and you can get the exact directions to the place you want to go. but this isn’t true. your path, your destination, that whisper is for you. you are not trying to go where others are, are you? but instead to a life that is yours? follow the pull. live in invention.

[anancientheart]

do you agree it's better to visit nyc every once in a while than move there?

I think that’s a question for someone who lives there already. And I’m sure it depends on your expectations

[anancientheart]

How do you make friends once you’re in your 30s? I grew apart from some of my friends since we’re in different phases of our lives but realize I’m lonely

I lost a big group of friends last year and spent a lot of time over the summer sitting at patios near where I live drinking Negronis and writing in my journal, I made a lot of friends that way. I took an energy healing class and made friends there. I try to be open when I’m out in the world and have conversations with people. If there’s someone who is into what I’m into and we have mutual friends I’ll reach out and see if we can hang. Making friends in our 30s can feel hard but I think a lot of people are lonely for connection.

[anancientheart]

Could you tell me my fortune? I am looking for a sign from someone from the other side and would love a fortune to create a moment for us to connect :)

in the following week you’ll have a dream and the message will be in the dream

[anancientheart]

How was New York!? Any highlights?

seeing my best friend was the highlight. I loved the energy of the city, how everyone is there with a purpose. the amount of people reading books. the jazz. the chaos and pockets of total calm in the chaos. the food.

[anancientheart]

new substack

[perriaeyjeve]

[rosieandthemoon]

"La Femme-Escargot" circa 1900

[no1knowz]

[iihrrtme]

[anancientheart]

Would you date a man who’s following a bunch of naked/lingerie women online and likes their photos while they’re dating you, especially long term. Do you ever notice this to be a common pattern in men?

I would not be with someone who does that, no. I want an Instagram-less man. I also don’t date really and was in a relationship for 7 years so I’m currently relearning how men are lol

[webhoards]

[anancientheart]

I made the mistake of giving my whole self over to men again and again and I lost touch with writing and I will never do that again for the rest of my life