SweetPea

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The pain of this day is real not just today but everyday. Today is just harder knowing we can't celebrate his day with him. I still miss him... I wish it had been me instead of him. Life is not fair.

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My heart... love him more than he knows. #love https://www.instagram.com/p/CLfchhXHGM0/?igshid=6jo7u9ktmjyk

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This man right here has made my life so much better. I love him so much. All I can say is.... thank you for making me laugh... thank you for making me see that not everyone is the same. Now and forever I will always love you!! #love #myheart https://www.instagram.com/p/CLfbea2HS8j/?igshid=1t54z9k9le3p7

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One of my favorites of Big Daddy. #kidsandflags #grandson💙 https://www.instagram.com/p/CLeetDvHdj1/?igshid=15zpp7a2bxw3e

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If my life was made into a series of photos this would be the worst, and saddest part of my life. I cant get over the loss. I can't move on. I am stuck on that week that I watched his little body break down. I am stuck hearing my son scream. I am stuck on trying to breathe life back into a fragile blue little body and wishing it was me instead. How do people move on?? I may smile.. I may look like I am going on but my head and heart are stuck back in 2014 with my grandson who couldn't be saved. Until I can hold you again,all I hold is photos, clothes, and memories. I miss you Guppy. You are so loved even now. I cant explain to anyone how great a grandmother's love is. I love all of my grandkids... all 8 of you... #grandmaslove #childloss #lossofgrandchild #grief https://www.instagram.com/p/CLeeO4onB5o/?igshid=2o3vr8xtjdjz

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Me when I was Itty bitty. Always been a motorcycle girl. #motorcycle #daddysgirl😘 #youngself https://www.instagram.com/p/CLedKLLHUC1/?igshid=1bo5is8cpllsx

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I love all animals

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My flowers that come up every spring.

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Been days since I did my makeup... actually feeling good today https://www.instagram.com/p/CLcoUWjHW4w/?igshid=18etcuyt2oio6

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Without photography I would be lost

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Keep believing... in anything

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Smiling hides what is really on the inside.

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Some days it is hard to find happiness. I wish I could just tell everyone how I feel inside but I can not get it from my brain to my lips. So writing is my outlet. Today was a bad day. I hope tomorrow is better.

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Me in my dads hat #hat #dadshat https://www.instagram.com/p/CLLHfTVntTT/?igshid=g2rq1ob8w85o

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Some days being silly is all we can do to keep our sanity #silly #grandsonlove💙 #lovemygrandkids https://www.instagram.com/p/CLLHqELnbTF/?igshid=1if96kj5ekgh7

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I will not apologize anymore for being who I am. I am broken. I was created that way by those who said they love me so forgive me if I push people away. I am who I am take it or walk away. #broken #forgiveme https://www.instagram.com/p/CLLIzOxn-4S/?igshid=1tutfuo18a6wi

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Love the snow. #eastcoast #snow #snowlife