Your Forever is All that I Need

Regal 👑 Melophilia 🎶 Clinophilia⭐ '95 kid 👊

[angelliek]

Lagi mong tatandaan na mahal na mahal kita every single day of my life. ❤️ Ang dami kong doubts, sobra. Like, ako lang ba talaga, mahal kaya niya talaga ako or what. pero sobrang pinipigilan ko yung mga thoughts na yun. 😊 Sobrang thank you kasi you are always there to love me, support me and understand me. ❤️❤️ I may not be your ideal girlfriend nor your perfect girl but i assure you, pipiliin kita araw araw, kahit masasaktan ako, as long as gusto mong piliin kita, i will do so. Hindi perfect yung relationship natin but whenever nagsisimba tayo, i pray na tulungan tayo ni God na tumagal until forever. 😘❤️ I always thank God for having you. 😊 Because you can hold my pieces together, i become whole whenever i have you around. You aren't perfect but you are great. Maybe not my greatest but still wonderful. 🤗🤭 You are a gift to me. I love you, even the slightest bit of you. I am not sure if binabasa mo talaga yung ganito ko sayo but i hope you do. Hindi mabuti ang mundo, anytime pwedeng wasakin pagkatao mo. Pero sana wag mong kakalimutan na meron kang ako na patuloy kang pipiliin no matter what, na hindi ka tatalikuran despite of every failure and challenges, na magiging proud sa kung ano man ang magiging mga achievements mo, even the smallest one. Meron kang ako, kung nakalimutan nang mundong unawain at mahalin ka, merong ako na handang mahalin ka with all honesty and purity in my heart. Mahal kita. 😘 I dont ask anything but just your faithfullness and sincerity. 🤗 Lagi kitang minamahal at forever kitang aalagaan. 😘❤️ (oh pwede nang wedding vow diba? 🤫)

[angelliek]

08/07/16

“Hay kat! Bakit pfuh!?”

You had me at this earlier tonight. I laughed knowing you’re trying to annoy me again by being jeje. You’re still the same you, the one I somehow fell for back then. The same person who can make me laugh and smile effortlessly. I laughed at the thought that I might feel the old feeling again, and yeah, I felt the unusual tingling sensation you used to give me back then. Excitement, nervousness, panicky and whatever. Everything seems familiar yet unusual. I remember those times I used to write about you, uhmm us actually, and read it to you every night. Ugh! Memories huh. I stopped writing the moment we stopped talking because it felt like words became empty all of a sudden. You were the one who gave meaning to every word I wrote before. Cheesy as it may seem, but yeah. I don’t want to give meaning to whatever we talked about tonight but honestly, I felt closer to you. And I am glad you were more open now than before. I had tons of things to say to you but one thing is what I want you to know, I’ve missed you, always will I guess. We’ve been trying to make time to see each other, constantly planning but it seems like fate isn’t in favor of us. What if we aren’t really destined to meet? Just destined to know each other. Well atleast we can say that we constantly tried to go against what is destined but destiny is stronger than us. If this is what’s meant to happen, maybe you can atleast teach me how to let go of you, of us, of what we had, what we could be and what might have been, if we continue to go against fate and continue to try to do what the both of us wants. Uhmm wait, is it still what the both of us wants? Is it still the same old plan? Or is it just me this time? it has been long since i’ve written something here, please don’t make me write about how we ended up not pursuing what we want, in the near future. Until then, hoping we could finally meet and live the dream.

-Your forever babyfat/beb, KAT💕

[angelliek]

Mas masakit palang marinig mula sa kanya na hindi ka talaga niya minahal. Araw araw kang guguluhin ng alaala at mga pangarap, ng bawat haplos at yakap, at ng bawat ngiti at titig niya

[angelliek]

Akala ko?

Katulad ka rin ba nila? Ang sabi mo iba ka? Na hindi ka tutulad sa kanila? Akala ko lang ba?

May puwang kang iniwan Sa aking puso’t isipan Hindi ko inakala Na ito ang kahahantungan

Kilig at saya ang nadama Sa halos apat na buwan na meron tayong dalawa Ngunit hanggang doon lang pala Dahil biglang nagtapos ang ligaya.

Kung kailan ako handa Tsaka naman bumitaw ka Akala ko ika'y karapatdapat Pero akala ko lang pala.

Sa bigla mong pag-iwan Ako ngayon ay nasasaktan Para akong paslit na naliligaw At walang makakahanap kailanman

Nangyari na ito noon pa Ngunit isinawalang bahala Ngayon ako'y muling nagdurusa Sa sakit na di ko naman dapat madama

Dapat na ba akong magpapaalam? Magpaalam sa taong kinasanayan, Sa pakiramdam na akala'y di magwawakas, At sa damdaming minsang naging masaya

Nais ko nang iwanan Ang mga alaala ng apat na buwan Lahat ng naisip at nadama At limutin ang bawat mong kataga

Ito na ba dapat ang huli? Ang huling tulang patungkol sayo Nilalaman nito ang damdamin ko Dahil nais ko nang palayain ang kalooban ko.

Pangako titigil na ako Titigil na isipin ang mga pangarap na nabuo Titigil sa pag-iisip na maaari pa ang “tayo” Pangako titigil na ako.

Hindi ko na aalalahanin ang tinig mo At kung paano mo tawagin ang pangalan ko Dahil alam ko masasaktan lang ako At aasang sana'y mali ang akala ko

Pwede mo namang sabihin Kung gusto mo nang ihinto Tatanggapin ko iyon Kahit labag sa damdamin ko

Di yung basta ka na lang nawala Sa kadahilanang ewan ko At ako ang natira sa kwento Na sabay nating binuo

At dahil ako na lang ang nasa kwento Dapat nang tapusin ito Labag man sa kalooban ko Ngunit sadyang wakas na to.

Apat na buwan lang ang meron tayo Salamat dahil ika'y nakilala ko Ito lang ang masasabi ko Minahal kita kahit papaano.

[angelliek]

12/30/15 Whenever I am having an alcoholic drink you always call to remind me things like, "uminom ka ng maraming tubig after niyan.", "matulog ka na agad ha." "wag ka na uminom please?", "di maganda yan kaya last na yan ha.", "may maghahatid ba sayo? Magtaxi ka na lang pauwi.", "mahihirapan tayo magkababy, wag ka nang uminom!" (HAHAHAHA naisip mo talaga to.) and my most favorite of all, "iha-hug na lang kita para makapagpahinga ka ng maayos." sobrang sarap sa pakiramdam na nag-aalala ka and at some point I can feel na gusto mo akong alagaan and that's what I wanna do din whenever you had a drink with your friends. I can still remember when you even asked me to fake my anger and ask you to go home immediately and my heart smiled with your reason, you'd rather talk to me all night than have a drink with your friends. The last time I drink you got mad kasi nga kagagaling ko lang sa sakit week before that. It was october as far as I can remember and it was the last time na uminom ako. Natuto akong tumanggi kasi alam kong ikagagalit mo nanaman not until tonight. Yes, I did drink again kaso nga lang afterwards I felt empty. Empty kasi wala nang tao na magpapaalala saken, magagalit kasi uminom nanaman ako, magtatampo kasi hindi ako nakakapagreply at yung bigla na lang tatawag tapos mag gagalit-galitan then sasabihin umuwi na ko or pauwiin ko na friends ko at umakyat na sa kwarto at siya naman ang kausapin ko, yung magpapacute/mang aasar kasi alam niyang mas malambing ako or mas pikon pag nakakainom, yung kakanta kahit na wala sa tono mawala lang pagkainis ko. Ugh! How I miss those times. 😞 but I somehow feel na parang it's a good thing din na bigla na lang nawala lahat ng meron tayo coz it makes me wanna stop drinking at all, i don't wanna feel the emptiness inside again and again and again. I don't wanna miss you and miss the care you used to give me. Right at this moment I can already feel the tears wanting to come out of my eyes pero pinipigilan ko kase last time sabi ko yun na yung huling patak ng luha ko para sayo. At sana yun na nga yun.. Pero masaya pa rin ako na almost half of the year, you gave me feelings and experiences I never thought I am capable of handling. Thank you for those wonderful treasure that I will keep in the part of my memory and my heart. You will always be special to me.

[angelliek]

Birthday celeb (12/25/15) It has been several years since you started to be there for me on my birthday. We have been celebrating it together for almost 1/4 of my life and I am glad that even though so many things has changed you still managed to save the date for me. You're not there when 12 mn strikes like you used to and I felt the sincerity of your apology when we met in the afternoon. You even said, "babawi ako. Wala man ako ng pasko sa inyo, promise sa new year hanggang umaga pa tayo. Kaya wag ka na magtampo." my heart smiled with that. Maybe you really chose the latter part for us, maybe it really is better this way. Thank you for still letting me feel how important I am to you, for letting me lean on your shoulders last night, for being one of the best men in my life. You know that you will always be my favorite "what if". I thought my birthday will just pass without any happy moments but I'm glad it didn't. Indeed, it has been a wonderful birthday again. ❤😂🎉🎊🎂

[angelliek]

So ganito na lang? Paulit-ulit ko na lang pakikinggan voice message mo saken para naririnig ko lagi boses mo..hayy

[angelliek]

I somehow wish none of it ever happened.

[angelliek]

*coz I told sister that I wanna change my number*

Me: Lay, papalit na ko number..

Siya: bakit?

Me: alam mo naman na yung rason eh.

Siya: wag muna te. After christmas na lang malay mo naman batiin ka niya sa birthday mo. Alam niya ba kelan?

Me: Oo, paulit ulit nga siya saken e. uhm..pwede rin..eh di siopao nanaman ako?

Siya: yun nga lang. Pero malay mo naman bigla magparamdam..

[utaknamaypakpak]

Kapag pagod kana; kapag hindi mo na talaga kaya; kapag sobrang nasasaktan kana; kapag sa tingin mo wala ng pag asa: Huminga ka ng malalim tapos bitaw na sa kamay nya.

[nielxxxx-deactivated20160709]

Dear whoever is reading this

Don’t fall for someone who’s gonna make you feel worthless. Don’t fall for someone who’s gonna make you cry, a person who can actually play with your emotions and attitude. Don’t fall for that someone’s appearance instead fall for their words, heart and especially to their soul. Don’t fall for someone’s sweet words and naive personality, instead fall for their sincere efforts covered with their deepest feelings and love for you. Don’t fall for someone’s body because it’s a lust, instead look at them as if you know him/hem from the tip of their ankle to the top of their head. Fall for someone’s eyes that will always look at your flaws but will always stay with you because they know that you’ll do anything for them. Fall for someone’s hand that will hold yours no matter how hard the situation is, and probably the worst thing is knowing that “SOMEONE” exists but your eyes were too stiff and can’t see anything rather that your “SOMEONE WHO DOES‘NT LOVE YOU BACK.” Open your eyes and realize that there is someone waiting for you. Someone that is more than worth to keep.

[nielxxxx-deactivated20160709]

[angelliek]

Muhkang bumababaw ang luha ko ah.

[angelliek]

Dati pag gising niya ikaw agad ang naaalala niya. Ngayon matutulog na lang ulit siya di ka pa rin pinapansin.

[angelliek]

How I wish I have enough courage to ask why. Just why..

[the-lakwatshero]

That fucking feeling when you’re too attached to someone and that person suddenly leaves without a word

[angelliek]

Hayy. Kaya ayokong inaabot ng ganitong oras na gising eh. Ikaw at Ikaw lang naaalala ko.