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if it makes you happy then it is not a waste of time

[angelon3arth]

when nothing softens the grief, may the grief soften me

[angelon3arth]

everytime a friend annoys me or does me wrong the first thing i think is “sophia wouldn’t have done that”

[angelon3arth]

girl dinner is 3 sardines, brocolli salad, and a fig

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Nina LaCour via letsbelonelytogetherr

[angelon3arth]

@angel-girl

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and the Gag Is

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seeing my dad be nice and caring to other kids/other kids in my family makes me physically recoil and sob like a baby

why do you show up for everyone but me

[angelon3arth]

im responsible for 90% of the streams and views of this music video

[angelon3arth]

red hair red hair red hair red hair

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something about cooking alone in my underwear in an oversized shirt while i sip on my beer and salsa around the room feels so sexual and feminine

i think these moments are the only times i find absolutely nothing wrong with me

[angelon3arth]

got my first tattoo

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i’ll never admit i love reddit as much as i do but god do i love reddit

[angelon3arth]

my grief is the only thing i have left of you

i’m holding onto it more than ever

i hope this earth shattering solitude and sadness never fades

do you fear my forgetting as much as i do?

[angelon3arth]

i think i was a sea lion in all my past lives

[angelon3arth]

[angelon3arth]

i refuse love because accepting it feels like i’m cheating on you

you aren’t here

all i have are memories and the dreams i dream of you when i’m lucky enough

you left me

you left me here alone

and after all these years

loving someone else still feels like infidelity

like i’m betraying your spirit

i miss you and i love you more than anyone can ever feel anything

but i also hate you

i hate you for leaving me here

for not taking me with you

for making me suffer in isolation

no one knows me like you do

i’m lonely and refusing of love because of my loyalty to you

my loyalty used to be my best trait

but as i sit here in my lonesome agony

i’m wondering if it’s my worst

i follow your ghost like a loyal dog

[angelon3arth]

listen to a drag queen today

[angelon3arth]

i accept you for who you are

for all the human you are

you are grace

and kind

and warm

and good

but you are also an unexpected storm

i do not have preparations for your weather

you are grace and kind and warm and good but you are also cold and conflicting and confusing and condescending

and i love you for it

i love you for the human that seethes out of you

for the reality you ground me to

for the lessons our differences teach

you love me at my performance

when i am happy

when i am comforting

when i am a listener

when i am full of life

when i am “on”

but when i am a mere sprinkle on an expected cloudy day you cannot handle it

when the lights are off

when my mind is abyss

when my mouth is honest

it is jarring

and uncomfortable

and you respond to my sprinkle with a hurricane

why must i handle you for all your human when you cannot try to handle mine?