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bc !! 56.5kg. bmi 17.4 !!

im down 800g today !!! 🦢🎀

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i wna be so skinny by summer that people get concerned

corpse-bridesmaid

how it feels to wake up empty.

mirabeba

Dear Ana, how do you loose more weight when you’ve already lost yourself, no borax no glue. I can’t tell if I’m getting bigger or smaller, I look in the mirror and see a cow, but I hope it’s a slightly smaller cow. Or maybe I wasn’t a cow before, what if I just turned into a cow? Or what if I haven’t lost any weight and was never a cow at all? I don’t feel like I made any progress, even though the scale changes, I am still 13lbs more than my lw. But I still don’t feel any difference between now and then and my highest weight. I’ve always been a cow in my eyes, so I wish I could see myself from someone else’s. I genuinely think I’m obese sometimes, and sometimes I think I’m muscular and toned, and sometimes I think I’m skinny fat, and sometimes I think I’m underweight. But the crazy thing is that no matter what the measurements say or the number on the scale I will always feel like I’m chasing a finish line that keeps moving. When is it over. Will it ever be over. I can’t keep chasing the next low weight, keep waiting every day for to be night, keep waiting for the end of every fast. If I’m always chasing the end of each beginning, I will realize once it’s far too late that I wasted so much time waiting for that time to be up. Dear Ana, I’m dying at your feet. Not physically but in away far worse. I miss the old me. I miss not caring how I was perceived, not caring how loud I was. I could be goofy and funny and get everyone’s attention without seeking it. I was happy in every sense of the word. I just want to be happy again. But a can not be happy in this body. And so I’m back to the beginning again. I need to starve to be pretty because when I’m pretty I’m perfect when I’m perfect everything will work out for me. I’m exhausted in every sense of the word.