most stereotypical muu kinnie

guy who is severely disordered and stuff. blog made for venting and rbing really mentally ill stuff

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

NPD + autism culture is no you do not like my special interest as much as I do and if you insinuate it again, I will verbally beat you into the ground until you regret it, you scum.

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[npd-confessions]

it's actually so funny that the times when I really need support and assurance are when nobody is awake or free to give it to me. it's really cool to crash and spiral because the people I keep around are fucking failing at the one thing I need the most 👍

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[npd-confessions]

it's actually so funny that the times when I really need support and assurance are when nobody is awake or free to give it to me. it's really cool to crash and spiral because the people I keep around are fucking failing at the one thing I need the most 👍

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[npd-confessions]

it's actually so funny that the times when I really need support and assurance are when nobody is awake or free to give it to me. it's really cool to crash and spiral because the people I keep around are fucking failing at the one thing I need the most 👍

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[npd-confessions]

it's actually so funny that the times when I really need support and assurance are when nobody is awake or free to give it to me. it's really cool to crash and spiral because the people I keep around are fucking failing at the one thing I need the most 👍

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[npd-confessions]

it's actually so funny that the times when I really need support and assurance are when nobody is awake or free to give it to me. it's really cool to crash and spiral because the people I keep around are fucking failing at the one thing I need the most 👍

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[npd-confessions]

it's actually so funny that the times when I really need support and assurance are when nobody is awake or free to give it to me. it's really cool to crash and spiral because the people I keep around are fucking failing at the one thing I need the most 👍

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[npd-confessions]

i struggle with so much violent thoughts. My insecurities makes me want to harm myself but whenever does something that makes me angry I want to either kill myself in front of them or harm them brutally. I feel kind of bad for constantly fantasizing about brutalizing other people but mostly I'm just happy I've never hurt anyone else before (on purpose)

Even shit like, seeing someone who I want for myself and her having a girlfriend and I just,,, want to strangle them both. I know this isn't "me" so to say, I just don't know how to work through the burning jealousy that comes with narcissism

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[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd culture is the soul crushing Shame. it hurts. it hurts so bad more than anything ever.

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[angryboyprincess]

ruining everything again teehee!!!! because i’m horrible and can’t control my mental illness!!!!!

[angryboyprincess]

would anyone care if i disappeared really

[angryboyprincess]

thought about the next few months and realized i’m not gonna have one period where the depression won’t get me. maybe i should just kill myself preemptively.

[angryboyprincess]

it’s getting bad again

[angryboyprincess]

i feel so fucking sick i hate myself im such a monster i deserve to die i want to claw my feelings out of my chest and be normal why can’t i be normal why am i like this why why why why whyyyyyy

[angryboyprincess]

top 10 worst feelings ever! realizing you’ll never have the one thing you want the most!

[angryboyprincess]

fuck my lifeeee i’m spiraling again im spiraling so bad i want to be home and cry for hours as i lament this shit but no i have to mask and pretend everything is fine when i want to kill myself so bad

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

oop- i accidentally sent in an ask w/o actually sending in what i wanted to say-

ANYWAYY

slight vent, maybe idk

npd + bpd culture is holy shit why are you so busy??? why do you barely message me? am i seriously as unlovable as i think i am??

like... you're my boyfriend, i don't NEED you to message me 24/7 BUT YOU BARELY MESSAGE ME AND HANG OUT WITH ME AND I AM LIKE "WHY??? WHY???" LIKE AM I SERIOUSLY NOT WORTH YOUR TIME?? I SHOULD BE WORTH IT, WHY AM NOT WORHT UR TIME???!

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(signed off so i can keep track of MY asks, you don't have to keep track of them, I'll find them)

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