NPD Confessions!

A blog for any person with NPD (or friends, families, and supporters thereof) to come and vent and get support!

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Intro!

Hello Everyone, my name is Furi. I strongly suspect I have NPD.

Hey, I'm Adonis, The Other Mod™, I also strongly suspect NPD and will be getting tested at some point. Also I use he/it/bnu pronouns with a preference for my bnu/bnu/bnus/bnuself pronouns :)

Welcome to NPD Confessions!

This is a safe space for any person with NPD or NPD allies (for lack of a better term) to come and find community and support.

Asks we are willing to answer:

Questions about the disorders (E.g. asking about symptoms/how the disorders work)

Vents about having the disorders

Questions about how best to support a narcissist in any given scenario

Achievements and celebratory stuff

Asks we are not willing to answer:

Requests for diagnoses. (e.g. asking me if you have npd/aspd)

Vents/disparaging comments about narcs/antisocials that you know/have encountered. This INCLUDES family.

Anything regarding "narc/sociopathic abuse."

Any sort of discourse-oriented asks. If it's not related to NPD or ASPD in some way, it doesn't belong here.

Asks that describe or mention other Tumblr blogs and their behaviour, even vaguely. If you do want to shit talk somebody in my inbox, don't make it obvious that they're on the platform

Please be aware that I am not a professional. I am someone who has a long standing interest in psychology and has had some minor experiences/education with mental health services as a part of my education/teaching qualifications. -Furi

I'm not a professional either, but I do a ton of research and have been around NPD spaces for a while. I am working on becoming a psychologist though (even then, I won't be your psychologist so still can't diagnose or anything). -Adonis

Anons will always be on, but we may block users who repeatedly send inappropriate or hateful asks.

The discord server can be found here

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I ACCIDENTALLY SUICIDE BAITED MY FRIENDS AND NOW I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

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Honestly seeing how bad and cliche other people's writing is makes me feel WAYYY better about my own

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I neeeeed my EPs to tell me they like my ideas and art I've done and what I'm working on and that I've done good please please please

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made this blog because i was annoyed there was no active ocd culture blog

main is @the-princes-epitaph

hello ! my name is crane and i have ocd and ocpd (as well as a bunch of other stuff) i use it/he pronouns mainly, but i love neopronouns. im the host of a p-did system

this blog has no dni, just some basic rules

1. be nice please. im a teen who just wanted to have an active culture blog for his disorder. if i fuck up in anyway shape or form, please tell me asap, i hate upsetting people

2. please start every ask with some variation of “ocd culture is..” if you want you can specify the variant of ocd but you dont have to (ie. “moral ocd culture is..”

3. any bigotry will be immediately deleted. this blog is for everyone with ocd/ocd symptoms

4. any donation asks will be immediately deleted, as they can be triggering to people with ocd and/or psychosis

5. please add a trigger warning at the beginning of your ask if it needs one

6. this plog runs on a queue of 10 posts per day, you’re free to ask how many posts are in the queue whenever

if i can think of anything else, i’ll add it

this blog was inspired by:

@mildly-inconvenient-plur-is @funny-plurality-is @addgenic-culture-is @thisisparamisia @narcissisticpdcultureis @hpdcultureis @npd-confessions @funnier-with-narcpd + every other gimmick blog ever i fear

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Hey chat new ocd culture blog opened up for those who wanna go check it out :)

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I dont think i can ever admit i might have npd to my friends cus I dont want them to think im a bad person. I know it doesn't make you a bad person but I just don't want people thinking that I think im better than them. like the people on my "not a nuisance" list. I want them to believe i love them because I do and I would be so ashamed of myself if they thought I thought I was better than them cus I dont, I just feel that way about everyone else.

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oh another thing. I feel like i am so "emotionally mature" and "different" and "not mainstream" and I just feel so correct and high and mighty like "oh yeah i don't use TikTok. oh yeah I only thrift my clothes. oh yeah I believe xyz"

it's not that im putting on an act it's just that I am Naturally Perfect and my brain likes to remind me of it.

(idk i think my very high strung autistic sense of justice got mixed in with the suspected npd cus I do very strongly care about ethics and morals but I think im developing npd cus of the trauma and abusive dad stuff and im at the age where it starts to become present ahrhcbdb...)

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Oh yes let's make fun of the person who you fucking know has npd because I personally told you because I thought it was fine and you decide to purposely piss me off and make fun of me when I'm doing something as basic as talking about misinformation and correcting it?? What the fuck???????

They do this shit all the time too, switching sides the moment I'm criticized. So fucking annoyinggggg.

Idgaf if you think radiation is cool that doesn't stop it from being dangerous. Clearly you don't care about it enough as a subject to acknowledge its danger and the risk of spreading misinformation about it. Holy shittt.

I'm literally passionate about radiation, I've learned about it for years. How dare you fucking mock me for doing such a terrible crime as trying to have a nice conversation. It doesn't help that I've been ignored on all the shit I want to talk about today.

I hate having to rely on attention so much I feel so pathetic. Whatever.

I'm trying to be a good person. I'm trying really hard. It sucks no one seems to see that or even attempt kindness.

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people will give you the green light to emotionally depend on them and once you open up about your suicidality frequently and ask them for support, they complain about you behind your back about you “faking all of your problems, dumping every one onto them and being an attention seeker” without confronting you one bit about their emotional availability or about how much you can depend on them without making them uncomfortable. just putting all the blame on you for their poor communication.

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honestly just like how i said peoples feelings make me heavily cringe sometimes, seeing other people engage in the same fandoms im in makes me cringe too.

like the supernatural fans and destiel shippers are SO OBNOXIOUS but not me im cool and chill and not nostalgiabaiting people.

i dont have a superiority complex what are you talking about?? (/sarc)

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Even when I’m not being delusional I’m almost constantly being delusional because I think my ex/fp will come back to me. That they’ll see how great I am, and apologize, and things can work out, or we’ll talk for a little while and I’ll get to decide, no, we’re better off separate and that’ll work as the closure I feel like I need but can’t get.

Thanks to these delusional episodes, I know they’ve blocked me on just about everything. My behavior is stupid, that I sometimes can’t keep myself from checking their accounts, sometimes just because I want to see if they’ve said anything, because I want them back, but there’s not a world in which they’re coming back, but I yearn and yearn and yearn.

I worry that perhaps, because they were present through most my teens and a little before, that I’ll never stop thinking about them, and my brain’s developed to need them specifically.

I know our relationship wasn’t great, and that it was almost entirely my fault, and then when you consider the reasons why it was also theirs, it IS entirely my fault, but I want them back oh my gooooood they should come back to me. For me. Because they need to know how I’ve been doing, because their curiosity is nagging at them, because they’re being impulsive, because something. I would do literally anything to have them again but I know this is something that could do little more than hurt me in the long run.

I miss them, I miss their OCs, I wish I could ask them for all the art of my OCs they have saved, I want :( them back :(

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i think everyone is ALWAYS thinking of me, no matter what and honestly get confused when i learn people mind’s aren’t occupied with the thought of me 24/7

like wdym youre not curious what im up to? im so interesting

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A "friend" recently unfollowed my blog because of a reblog of a funny post I saw. Okay? That's my problem how? Actually why did you tell me that? I should straight up block you for that actually, clearly you don't care about me enough to stay mutuals over a post you know is an obvious joke. I'm tired I'm sick and tired of trying to change myself to appeal to people who don't deserve me.

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Nothing, NOTHING, makes me angrier than people who are annoying, shallow, useless, and SO FUCKING STUPID getting more attention, praise, friendship, and care from others.

Pathetic losers getting more followers than me even tho they can't even use an oven because it's scary or whatever nasty whiny things they bitch about so they can keep being burdens on others. It's like these followers can't even see how fucking inconsequential the people they follow are, how brainless and flat and preformative.

Unfunny aggravating NPCS that somehow have constant friendships, relationships, and bonds whereas I work hard to self reflect and be a good friend and ask about others and do services for others with a smile and yet I can TELL that my very presence off-puts people that don't even know me (I've had MULTIPLE STRANGERS come up to me to tell me I have a 'black tar aura'). I can't keep friends because people begin to hate me when I don't even DO ANYTHING and I can't make new ones to fix the numbers.

I have to care about other people's triggers and trauma and make sure to not drop a spoon on carpet because the sound reminds them of their step-fathers niece's dog walkers coworker who raised their voice once 20 years ago, but I'd be an awful manipulative abuser if I told my friends that it makes me actively suicidal to hear that they have other friends and I'd rather they not bring them up.

This may be nonsensical but I could literally cut along my hairline and rip my scalp off over this. I'm so sick of being cluster-b. I know it's not a fundamental wrong to be disabled or be cluster-b, but my entire life proves that wrong.

My very existence off-puts people, but not in the right way. They should be intimidated in envy and awe, not fear and disgust. These cardboard cut-outs can't even do the most basic thing (acknowledging me as superior) correctly 😭😭

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I think the more aware I become about being (or suspecting) NPD the more narcissistic I become

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i go through phases of absolutely hating everyone and wanting to abandon them to find better people because no one in my life is good enough for me

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lately i've been taking those shitty pop-psych "are you a narcissist" tests online and just laughing at what they say. "seek therapy" oh sure i'll talk to the same guy who told me bpd is every personality disorder combined. "your condition is extremely difficult to treat" oh i'm sure. "there is an extremely high chance you're a narcissist" join the crowd "next steps" please baby what do i look like

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