i haven’t used tumblr in forever. honestly at this point it’s probably the only place i can vent without being concerned with friends/family being concerned about me lol think most people i know vacated the area
shits been going pretty good dude. me and bryan have been having long ass conversations and being able to spend more time with him again has made so enamored all over again. we talk about having kids all the time and tell each other how we feel about everything, it’s crazy.
honestly doing whatever i want, whenever, and trying to enjoy getting paid for doing nothing for as long as i can. i dropped two of my classes cause i was getting overwhelmed but the ones i have left, i know i’m gonna get a’s in.
anyways for the most part good. my depression and anxiety always keeps me in check tho lmao. i have nightmares like every other fucking night and kinda avoid falling asleep at this point cause they’re so bad and vivid af. it’s been like 2 years at this point and i finally saw a therapist for the first time this year and she’s just like “well u seem like ur doing better! just email me next time!” whatever, lmao. pretty much come to terms with the fact that i will always struggle with depression and anxiety till i die, i just wish i could at least rest when i’m sleeping.
tried making friends with like 2 people i thought were really cool thru instagram. they both inspire me a lot and i’ve worked with both before so i thought it would be easier to become homies but i just wound up embarrassing myself lmao kill me! feel like i just always make shit awkward and i get way too self conscious about how to interact with people i admire. can’t help but think they think i’m fuckin weird! straight up kinda just wanna delete my instagram, we’ll see.
things are good, just as much as they are hard for me rn. it’s still hard for me to talk to people about that shit. think at this point, i’m just gonna use this as a place to keep track of my days.
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