Beelzebub

.............🫀"Ethics become Aesthetics"🫀............. Bitch this is the JOURNAL FACTORY. Disastrous creative spilling my brain. Personal blog, fandom shitposting, thoughts. Queer feminist. Adult. Obsessive nerd. I ❤️ bushy box

[antler-haver]

𝔸𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 + 𝕄𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥

•About me + Blog

•Warnings about my stances I guess

•Masterlist + organized tags list I barely use

About me

✿Writer, fandom enthusiast, some fucking guy

✿Media <3: Hannibal, Alien franchise, Justified, Twin Peaks, etc. Death Note, Dexter, Demon Slayer, many music artists, many movies

✿I do indeed post on ao3 (SweetBagel)

✿Enjoyer of fictional violence & freak shit. Professional feminizer & fetishizer of fictional men, romanticizer of toxic queer ships, and doer of any other words on the high shelf in the beige box

This isn't a discourse blog, it's a personal blog for everything I do or don't enjoy, so if you don't like what I post then block me. I will tell you to kys if I want to.

Here's some stupid shit:

Fandom is for fun - resist being pretentious, puritan, or self-righteous. Fiction can affect reality BUT it is not reality; live laugh problematic media, the word misandry gives me a good sensible chuckle, and I'm clearly deep in a level of fandom cringe you couldn't possibly comprehend. Trans lives matter. All biphobes should die. Infighting is stupid. Ao3 meat rider. Just "men" is not an oppressed class. If you want to defend men, don't do it in spaces where they're not in danger in the first place.

Half Dead/Unused Tag List

# Important Reblog or Important - new tag for things I may need\want in the future

# thirsting - thirsting

# rant - rants

# art art - art (usually painting) reblog tag

# liminal reblog - current liminal reblog tag

# picture reblog - general pictures I like

# moodboard reblog - yeah

# fandom tag - used to be for fandom reblogs (dead)

# fandom posting - my original fandom posts (dead)

# bee.Important - *old/dead* tag for anything I might actually use later in life

# bee.writing now just Writing - anything to do w/ writing that I want to keep

# Bee.Stimboardreblog - rebloging stimboards

Certain Creations

✧Masterlist of Stimboard phase✧

Summary of Will and Hannibal's sense of Power and Control when derived from Murder

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[blimbo-buddy]

make a minimum of 20 posts a day, be annoying as fuck, repeat things you said a few weeks ago, destroy your follower’s dashboards, never kill yourself

[gorbling]

Im enjoying the longevity of tumblrs recontextualization style of humor. a seemingly innocuous post followed by like "posts that a gnome would make" or like "are you a phone"

[gorbling]

[hapalopus]

[hapalopus]

More from the notes:

[vexwerewolf]

I love this post

[karifaevt]

The horse thinks as it scratches an itch

[toskarin]

I mean you've threatened to kill me a bunch of times. You once told me you were gonna drown me in a river like a kangaroo.

[warm laugh of fond reminiscence] I did do that

[woobifiedvillain]

Big fan of characters realizing they don't get to die. They have to live. And grow. And be a person. And deal with shit they thought they'd never have to. And be fucked up about it. I would like more of this. Enough dying for honor or as redemption. It ain't. You're just a corpse. There is no moral value in dirt time.

[cactusringed]

I think fanfiction as a medium is different enough from mainstream literature in the tools it offers writers that it's a shame that it's not talked about more often. And it's not me saying "fanfic is better than books xD" because that sort of mindset is a symptom of people who aren't particularly well read in either medium. I'm just speaking of like... The little things you get to do with a fanfic that you genuinely can't really do in an original story.

I had a big fanfic in a previous fandom where one of the big reveals was the involvement of a kind of infamous villain, whose presence was built up to and foreshadowed through the whole fic until his reveal without ever mentioning his name, so that the name drop would be a gut punch. It worked especially well because of who the villain was and his presence in that fandom space specifically (it's very complicated) and if it was an original story this reveal wouldn't work at all the way it was written in the fic. Because if you don't have a predisposition to think about that character and his relationship to the hero in a very specific way, then just seeing their name won't do much to you; the reveal and the recontextualisation it pushes upon you hinges on your previous knowledge of the source material.

I think it's an interesting tool fanfic authors are given. One of my favorite fanfic of all time is partially a re-imagining of its source material's canon, and something it does is introduce antagonists much earlier in the story or deepen npcs' stories. It then works to evoke a tragic irony that again wouldn't work if you didn't know the source material, and it's something the author obviously has a lot of fun with.

You could call it cheap or a crutch and I mean, yeah, sure, it is a little bit: the fanfic relies on previously established emotional bonds and stakes to achieve its goal, and in some cases it saves the author from having to 'properly' build up its stakes. But I think it's INTERESTING that it has that tool at its disposal. I think it's a fun thing to play with and I think these built in expectations and emotional bonds are especially why I find story driven aus in particular to be fascinating in the amount of ways you can play with them. You know??

[willgrahamsadface]

[todaysbird]

that’s a whole man.

[starsinfight]

you can't leave off the photo the sawmill worker took of the kiwi

[thepoisonroom]

that post that's like "we see it as indulgence when others express the things we suppress in ourselves" has genuinely done more for my emotional health than going on meds did

[thepoisonroom]

i wish i could find the original post bc once you start noticing that others see it as indulgence when you express that which they repress in themselves you can't stop seeing it

[ceruleanheaven]

all that and i havent killed myself yet i must really love this stupid fucking life

[cykelops]

I like when characters try to fix their problems with bad sex

[rainformation]

formative years? aren’t they all?

[absolutejamer]

show me a permanent self and i will show you a facade or a corpse

[pom-pom-cherry]

Any ship can be problematic if you just give me a second-

[patchouii]

You are in my blood. I can’t help it. We can’t be anywhere expect together. — Francesca L. Block

[raspberrybluejeans]

does anyone know how to draw. has anyone ever drawn anything ever.

[even-more-pro-fiction-jellicle]

Hey. Hey, you. The people who have a strong preference for the explicit and smutty side of fandom. You’re super valid and are doing nothing wrong by having sexuality be your main focus. Sexuality being important to you doesn’t make you a creep, you’re not objectifying people because you prefer to explore characters’ and ships’ sexual lives and preferences. Sex is not shameful. Don’t let anyone try to shame you for celebrating and loving sexuality. Sex and smut have been an important part of fandom throughout it’s whole history. You don’t have to meet any silly quota of non-sexual fandom interests.

There’s still so much sex negativity in the world. People can have sex negative opinions without even realizing because they’ve grown up in such a repressive and conservative culture. Fandom has always been a place to escape that repressive culture.

And always remember, you don’t owe anyone an argument or debate.

[exitwound]

this is making me hyperventilate

[somethingunlikeanythingelse]

I have no sense of sense is too funny not to highlight