emails i cant send pt.1
I've been here before. it's not the first time I'm actually letting go of someone without him knowing how i feel. That's what happens, when you're pushing people away.
I felt so guilty. i've doubted myself for endless nights trying to figure out what is wrong with me. Why couldn't I be truly satisfied. Endless nights of the rain falling and my brain stuck on all the reasons why you weren't enough. And the rain stopped, the roads are know dry and open for us to experience life to the fullest.
And there were good, and there where bad. What stays after all, is that feeling, that connection between our souls. And now they need to let go, but after years, maybe one day, we will pull this rope and pull each other close again. maybe not.
However, I know, feel, I see that universe always had my back. Even in the times I'm falling, my life's always elevating.
I wasn't ready to let go, but you shut me out, and even though this was a huge hit below the belt, I am happy I see you making decisions to protect yourself. That's what I will be doing too. And I'll hope, you didn't forget that feeling. That, feeling.
