if I wasn't such a coward I would run (but I was dying on the vine)
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by aletterinthenameofsanity
Kurt shouldn't cling to Blaine. He shouldn't clutch so tight. Blaine doesn't like Kurt's desires for intimacy outside of the bedroom. He never holds Kurt's hand in the hallways. He refuses to let Kurt where anything "flamboyant" to prom.
But Kurt knows that he will never get such tenderness from anyone else. Blaine might be a bit forceful, and a bit neglectful, but when he shines- well, when he serenades Kurt in glee, or dances with him in a Christmas special, or actually makes it to a scheduled makeout, it's worth it.
Because a boy likes Kurt. A boy likes him, and he might hurt him, but that's the price to pay. Kurt is not everyone's type, and those he is the type of are the kinds of boys who take.
So Kurt has to be the kind of boy that gives.
(But sometimes Kurt wonders how much he'll give in order to get Blaine to stay.
Sometimes Kurt hopes he'll know his own limits, that he'll be able to set his own boundaries. Other times, he knows that he'll keep giving until he has nothing else to give. Until he is a shell of the boy that proudly dressed in Gaga and drag and wore a kilt to prom.
Because what is he, if he is too much for anyone, if no one loves him?)
Words: 2928, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Kurt Hummel, Sebastian Smythe, Blaine Anderson
Relationships: Kurt Hummel/Sebastian Smythe, Minor or Background Relationship(s), Blaine Anderson/Kurt Hummel
Additional Tags: Not Blaine or Klaine Friendly, Angst, me realizing a really haunting parallel the show built and did nothing with, Victim Blaming, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, the karofsky kiss and the scandals scene, Abusive Relationships, Ambiguous/Open Ending, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Kurt Hummel Deserves Better, Kurt Hummel-Centric, Episode: s03e17 Dance With Somebody, Kurtbastian friendship
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