·Blunt Little Instrument ·

I'll never be normal. I tried that a long time ago, and I failed. This life is the only one I really know, the only one I can really do any good in. I have to hunt the monsters, because who else will? If I can't do that then what can I do? -------------------------------- Mun is underage. Open to crossovers. Will not do incest ship RPs

[mycaptaintazer]

I’ve never identified with something more than this

[corvidaezero-deactivated2021061]

“As the father of no daughters because I’m literally in 8th grade, I think sexual harassment is bad.”

These kid are the future.

[saucefactory-deactivated2019103]

That feel when a character that usually wears a crapload of clothes suddenly rolls back their sleeves a bit or unbuttons their collar and you’re like fOREARMS FOREARMS WRISTS THROAAAATTTTTT and it’s like way more erotic than a full-on striptease.

[cavillanche-archive-deactivated]

[shiftiisms]

4 Have Entered the Woods

applepiesandimpalarides

iammiighty

preyontheirfear

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          The creature flew into the trees after it’s intimidation tactic. The fire would put itself out before it engulfed any portion of the forest, it only blew forth to try and scare away the intruder. The creature morphed back into the green young woman after it was perched on a tree branch and she looked down at the ground from her hiding spot.

        “That’s as far as you get to go! Now leave!!” She shouts from a tree branch, concealed by the shadows and the leaves.

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean stumbled back a little from the rush of fire, watching it crackle and burn with wide, slightly horrified. eyes. What the hell was that?! He was only there because he had been chasing a rogue vampire, now he was lost in the maze of trees, some of which were burning a little too close to him for his liking. Why had he decided to do this on his own again? 

Oh yeah. This was supposed to be an easy job, 

He hated to admit that he jumped a little when he heard a voice coming from the trees, for the first time a little pleased that he was on his own, even if it was just his ego that prospered. “Well, that’s a great idea, and I’d really really love to follow through and just go, but I lost my trail of breadcrumbs so leaving’s a little harder than you might think!” Dean called back. Was he really trying to use sarcasm with the fire breathing creature that he hadn’t even seen yet? Maybe he really was stupid. 

[thexglue-blog]

eldritch-heiress:

shitty high school AUs tho

Cramming until 3 in the morning and having to sleep over at each others house AU

The classic Lab Partner AU

“I don’t like dressing out in front of people in the locker room can you cover me from now on” AU

“We’re the only ones in detention” AU

“I’m stuck in my locker and you’re the only one in the hall” AU

“None of my friends are good at math and I need a tutor but you are very intimidating” AU

“Someone wrote I’m cute in the bathroom stall and your notes match the handwriting” AU

“I twisted my ankle and you’re the only one here strong enough to carry me to the nurse’s office but we’re both really awkward” AU

“We were both left out when everyone was picking partners and now we always choose each other when we have classes together” AU

“I lent you my cool pencil months ago and you still use it” AU

“We were both skipping class at the same time in the bathroom but someone passed by and now were hiding in a cramped stall” AU

“I accidentally took your notebook thinking it was mine and you have really nice handwriting and cute doodles” AU

“You started sitting by me at lunch because I’m alone at my table but we never talk to each other” AU

“I was really hungry but had no money and you bought me lunch even though I don’t know you” AU

“You make two lunches every morning and give one of them to me every day” AU

“I found someones graduation ring and I’m trying to figure out whos it is” AU

“I left my phone number on the bathroom stall wall and you text me about your day and your frustrations for a month & it’s really nice and cute but I still don’t know who you are” AU

“Our friends grouped up for prom but we’re the only two without a date lets hang out” AU

“I fell asleep on your couch after a party but you didn’t complain and made breakfast for the both of us” AU

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Random sentence starters

"Did you really just insult Captain America in front of me?"

"So you're a liar and a thief."

"So are you going to kiss me or can I finish this cigarette first?"

"Can I touch your boob?"

"Is it bad that I enjoy infomercials more than I enjoy actual television shows?"

"So your mother is pregnant and it might be my fault."

"You smell like butt."

"Please tell me I'm hearing things and that you're not actually listening to Kidz Bop right now."

"You either owe me a hundred cookies or a really expensive bottle of vodka—your choice."

"What the hell did you just say about my favorite band?"

"Please never call me by my full name ever again."

"Do you prefer to read or watch your porn?"

"I think I need to lose ten pounds."

"Who do you love more, me or your mom?"

"Tell me the dirtiest joke you can think of."

"Were you aware that there is ice cream?"

"That was worth seven thousand dollars and you think 'I'm sorry' is going to make us even?"

"It's not that you're wrong, exactly, you're just extremely not right."

"You shouldn't be trusted with small children, should you?"

"Give me cake or give me death."

"I'm starting an idiot jar. Any time you do or say anything idiotic, you have to put at least a dollar in it—more depending on how stupid the thing that you said or did was."

"Are you actually wearing my underwear right now?"

"I want candy."

"On a scale from, 'I can sometimes make important phone calls without crying' to 'I have a stable job with a steady income, a spouse who loves me, a dog, and two kids who are screwed up minimally at worst' how much of an adult are you?"

"Okay but like, if vampires aren't real, then explain Pluto."

[angstmemes]

First-Time Interaction starter sentences

“I realise you don’t know me, but please help me, I think I’m going to pass out.” “I’m sorry to interrupt, but I saw someone put something in your drink. You didn’t drink from it already, did you?” “I got robbed and have no way of getting home. They got my phone, so I can’t call anyone. Could I please borrow your phone?” “Shit! Sorry, I didn’t see you there… Are you okay?” “Charlie! Imagine seeing you here!– Oh. Wait, you aren’t Charlie…” “Excuse me, I was looking to get my girlfriend a bra, could you help me– You’re not the shop assistant, are you?” “Watch out for that truck!” “Is this your wallet?” “You look very different to your profile picture…” “Look out where you’re going, asshole!” “Did you see that?! He had a gun.” “Are you the girl/guy from So You Think You Can Dance?!” “Err– I’m sorry to interrupt, but I was just walking behind you and I think you must have sat in something…” “I know I don’t know you and this might sound really strange, but do you have a room or a spare settee or something I could crash on? I could pay you… I just… I really need someone to help me out right now.” “HELP ME!” “Oh my god, are you okay? I’m calling the police. I think I saw who did this to you.” “Are you alright? You look really pale.” “The whole street is blocked off. The police won’t tell us anything, but I think there’s been some kind of attack… Maybe a bomb?” ”Have you lost something? Can I help?” “Are you okay? Did someone hurt you?”.

[applepiesandimpalarides]

I’m Sorry

Hi everyone I am really sorry that I’ve been so inactive within the past month or so, I had exams to do and my schedule was totally full and this rp blog totally went out of my head If you’re interested in either continuing an existing thread or starting a new one, then feel free to message me

[applepiesandimpalarides]

I Really Can’t Stay|Open

Dean didn’t look up as he started speaking - he didn’t want to. He could imagine the look of betrayal he was receiving, knew that he couldn’t judge since if the roles were reversed he’d feel the same. But they had to see this was the only way right? He couldn’t stay, no matter how much he wanted to. He was a danger to everyone and everything around him. Staying wasn’t an option anymore. “I’m gonna leave in the morning,” he stated finally, “I’ve caused you enough trouble as it is. Once I’ve left everything should be okay again. It’ll go back to normal, I guess,” he mused. He wasn’t exactly sure either of their lives had ever been normal, but…well, it was the best he could offer. It would get better when he left at least - they could live a life without so much grief and destruction. That was the only life he was used to know, but they deserved a chance for better, for something else that he could never have. 

[runningonchocolateandcreativity]

“Dean…you know that we both cannot live a normal life”, Max looked at him and rested a hand upon his cheek and made him look at her,”We are both hunters…we are dealing with hell a lot of shit…”, and Max knew that she was right…and on the other hand she knew that he was right…on their own they were brilliant hunters, almost unbreakable and unstoppable, but as soon as they were together they started worrying about the other and they started making mistakes,”But maybe you are right…we work best when we are not seeing each other. It got us even more scars then we already have…I mean we start to care for each other and get unwary”, Max rested her forehead against Deans,”You were the first I let in after almost a decade…if I lose you it would destroy me…and the pure thought you could die while you try to protect me”, Max xlosed her eyes taking a deep breath, opening her eyes again and then she pressed a gentle kiss upon Deans lips…maybe their last goodbye.

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean softly kissed back before finally pulling away, taking the smallest possible step back. “I’m sorry. I want to stay with you, Max,” he promised softly. The selfish thing to do would be to stay, and he was desperate to be selfish. To pack his things away again and stay by her side for as long as she would allow it, but he couldn’t. His selfish wants could hurt her, and no matter what, he wasn’t going to let that happen. She’s already felt enough pain in her life, their separation would be for the best. He would rather bear the pain of her absence now, than bear the pain of her death months down the line. The extra time would mean nothing if he caused her death. “I want to stay, but I want to keep you alive more.” 

[applepiesandimpalarides]

[applepiesandimpalarides]

the-blonde-that-got-away:

[applepiesandimpalarides]

.the-blonde-that-got-away:

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean smiled faintly and nodded, “Yeah, okay. Duly noted,” he murmured, leaning forward to press a soft kiss to Jo’s forehead. “Thanks Jo,” he added quietly, feeling immensely grateful for the blonde in front of him. 

[the-blonde-that-got-away]

Jo smiled softly at him before leaving and headed into her room. She changed into some comfortable sweat pants and a fitted tank top before tossing her blonde hair into a messy bun. Once she was comfortable she headed back out and knocked on deans door “Hey dean I’m gonna make dinner what do you want to eat aside from pie I’m making that for desert”

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean paused in putting his clothes away, taking a moment to consider before answering. “I, uh…I don’t mind. Just make whatever you want,” he called back. He couldn’t really think straight, still wrapping his head around the idea that he could stay. He shouldn’t stay, he still believed that leaving would be his best option to keep Jo safe, but she wanted him here and he wanted to stay. So, for one of the first times in his life, Dean indulged himself and stayed. 

[the-blonde-that-got-away]

Jo then proceeded to wipe up some burgers for them and some nice cold beer once everything was set up and cleaned she knocked on deans door once more “Food ready hurry and get it before I do” she chuckled slightly before walking back into the kitchen and hopping on the counter with her food in her lap while her legs hung off the ground. She was impressed with her own cooking.

[applepiesandimpalarides]

“Got it!” Dean called out, putting away the last of his things and stripping his jacket off before walking out to the kitchen, smiling when he found Jo perched on the counter. “Smells good,” he commented, picking up the plate with his burger on it and moving to hop up beside her on the counter. “Thanks,” he added as an afterthought before tucking in, humming appreciatively as he ate. 

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean reached up to cup her cheeks, gently brushing the tears away with his thumb as they kissed. He hated the thought of being without her, he needed  her so much that sometimes it drove him crazy. She had been the only steady thing in his life, the one good steady thing in his life and he didn’t want to leave her. At this rate he wasn’t going to have the will power or selflessness to. 

He slowly pulled away, his lips lingering for as long as possible before he gently rested his forehead against hers. “I’m so selfish. I should leave, try to keep you safe, but…but, I can’t. I can’t, I need you so much Baby, I don’t think I can go without you,” he admitted in a soft whisper. 

[babysbitch]

Baby slowly pulled away from their lingering kiss before feeling his forehead rest against her own. She looked into his emerald eyes and smiled wryly: “I wouldn’t feel safe without you, babe.” She whispered back, her arms wrapping around his neck and her smile grew a little.

“I don’t deem it selfish. I need you with me, Dean. Otherwise… I don’t know how I’d live without you.” She admitted with a soft voice before she pulled him into an embrace. She loved him a lot. And she wanted him to stay with her forever. Be there by her side, forever. She loved him too much to let him go without a fight.

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean held her close, never wanting to let go. He should’ve just left - it would’ve hurt them both, but in the end she would be safer. No one would come after her if he was gone. She wouldn’t have been able to argue until most of his resolve was gone, until his selflessness began to fade and all he wanted to do was hold her in his arms forever.

“I don’t know how I’d live without you either,” he murmured, his face hidden in the crook of her neck. “You’ve always been there, I...I don’t know what I’d do,” he admitted. 

[burninbridgesmakinwishes]

WARNING! Spotify is running an ad for the MTV movie Unfriended and if you’re listening to your music and doing something other than staring at spotify, which I would assume most people do, you will be scared shitless when it plays because it’s silence for a second and then a high-pitched scream. I’ve never made a post like this but PLEASE signal boost this because I know it could be a huge issue for people and I just want to warn everybody so they aren’t scared half to death like I was.

[applepiesandimpalarides]

[applepiesandimpalarides]

the-blonde-that-got-away:

[applepiesandimpalarides]

.the-blonde-that-got-away:

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean smiled faintly and nodded, “Yeah, okay. Duly noted,” he murmured, leaning forward to press a soft kiss to Jo’s forehead. “Thanks Jo,” he added quietly, feeling immensely grateful for the blonde in front of him. 

[the-blonde-that-got-away]

Jo smiled softly at him before leaving and headed into her room. She changed into some comfortable sweat pants and a fitted tank top before tossing her blonde hair into a messy bun. Once she was comfortable she headed back out and knocked on deans door “Hey dean I’m gonna make dinner what do you want to eat aside from pie I’m making that for desert”

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean paused in putting his clothes away, taking a moment to consider before answering. “I, uh...I don’t mind. Just make whatever you want,” he called back. He couldn’t really think straight, still wrapping his head around the idea that he could stay. He shouldn’t stay, he still believed that leaving would be his best option to keep Jo safe, but she wanted him here and he wanted to stay. So, for one of the first times in his life, Dean indulged himself and stayed. 

[applepiesandimpalarides]

[babysbitch]

Baby was shaking ever-so-slightly and she sniffled as her tears fell slowly. The reassuring squeeze to her hand didn’t go unnoticed - even if she wasn’t replying out loud. She didn’t know what to say. How to...

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean reached up to cup her cheeks, gently brushing the tears away with his thumb as they kissed. He hated the thought of being without her, he needed  her so much that sometimes it drove him crazy. She had been the only steady thing in his life, the one good steady thing in his life and he didn’t want to leave her. At this rate he wasn’t going to have the will power or selflessness to. 

He slowly pulled away, his lips lingering for as long as possible before he gently rested his forehead against hers. “I’m so selfish. I should leave, try to keep you safe, but...but, I can’t. I can’t, I need you so much Baby, I don’t think I can go without you,” he admitted in a soft whisper. 

[applepiesandimpalarides]

[applepiesandimpalarides]

the-blonde-that-got-away:

[applepiesandimpalarides]

.the-blonde-that-got-away:

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean smiled faintly and nodded, “Yeah, okay. Duly noted,” he murmured, leaning forward to press a soft kiss to Jo’s forehead. “Thanks Jo,” he added quietly, feeling immensely grateful for the blonde in front of him. 

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Send me a sentence for my muse's reaction

"Are you even listening to me?"

"Are you even listening to yourself?"

"Are you sure they won’t find out?”

"Are you sure this is legal?”

"Are you sure you know what you’re doing?”

"Are you threatening me?"

"Be mine."

"Can you be anymore obvious?"

"Do I know you?"

"Do you love me?"

"Do you remember this?"

"Do you trust me?"

"Don’t go."

"Don’t let me die"

"Don’t look at me like that."

"Don’t make me beg.”

"Don’t you dare come near me!"

"Don’t you dare."

"Explain yourself."

"For you, I would _____"

"Give it back."

"Give me another chance."

"Have you ever even done this before?"

"How drunk are you right now?"

"I already regret this."

"I am not wearing that.”

"I can’t believe you missed that."

"I can’t do this anymore."

"I can’t even look at you."

"I could kill you!"

"I dare you." or "I dare you to _____."

"I didn’t do it.""

"I didn’t know you could do that."

"I don’t want to look at you right now.”

"I guess this is goodbye.”

"I hate you."

"I have to go."

"I just want to cuddle."

"I know your secret.”

"I love you, but I really wish I didn’t.”

"I love you."

"I miss you so very much."

"I missed you."

"I need a drink."

"I need a hug."

"I never really loved you."

"I owe you."

"I think I broke it."

"I think I’m falling in love with you. "

"I think I’m forgetting something."

"I think it’s broken.”

"I trust you."

"I want to be yours."

"I want to try this thing I read in a book.”

"I want you. Naked. In my bed. Now."

"I’ll be there in five minutes.”



”This is really inappropriate.”

"I’m all for spicing thing’s up, but isn’t this a bit much?”

"I’m bad for you.”

"I’m dying."

"I’m going to be sick."

"I’m not speaking to you anymore."

"I’m pregnant and it’s yours."

"I’ve never heard that one before."

"If you stay quiet, no one will know.”

"Is that my shirt?"

"It was me"

"It’s so beautiful.”

"It’s time to choose.”

"Just five more minutes."

"Just go."

"Just leave me alone."

"Just let me die."

"Just relax."

"Just what did we do last night?"

"Kiss me you idiot."

"Kiss me."

"Like you even care."

"Little too late, don't you think?"

"Make me."

"Marry me?"

"My Parents don’t know"

"My parents know.""

"Never again."

"Nh, don’t be so rough!"

"No, that can’t be my baby."

"No! You can’t die on me now!"

"Obviously there is something between us."

"Of all the things i've heard, that hurt the most."

"Put it away.”

"Put your trousers on!"

"Put. The. Weapon. Down."

"Quiet, I am trying to think."

"Relax, I have a plan."

"Really?"

"Shut up and listen."

"Take responsibility."

"That isn’t mine."

"That looked easier on TV."

"That sounds painful."

"That was a bad plan."

"That’s mine!”

"That’s the cheesiest pickup line I’ve ever heard."

"They’re coming.”

"This seems familiar."

"This stays between us."

"Truth hurts, don’t it?"

"Unbelievable. I can't believe you right now."

"Very good, you had me fooled."

"Want to hear a secret?"

"We need to talk."

"We’re moving too fast.”

"Well that was unexpected."

"What are we doing here?"

"What are you afraid of?"

"What are you touching?"

"What are you?"

"What do you need?"

"What happened to you?"

"What have I done this time?"

"What if someone catches us?”

"What sort of noise was that?”

"What the hell do you think you’re doing?"

"What were you thinking?"

"Where are my clothes?"

"Where did you find this?"

"Where do you even find this sort of thing?”

"Where were you?"

"Who’d have guessed you could pull such a face?”

"Why are you wearing that?"

"Why yes, I am as think as you drunk I am."

"You could have died!”

"You could have killed someone!"

"You coward."

"You don’t need to be so gentle.”

"You drive me crazy!"

"You have ten minutes, so make it quick.”

"You lied to me!"

"You mean everything to me."

"You owe me."

"You. Come. Snuggle. NOW!"

"You’re all out of ____."

"You’re an idiot.”

"You’re bad for me.”

"You’re dead to me."

"You’re pregnant and it’s mine"

"You’re really good at this…”

"You’re so weird.""

"You’re under arrest."

[applepiesandimpalarides]

I Really Can’t Stay|Open

Dean didn’t look up as he started speaking - he didn’t want to. He could imagine the look of betrayal he was receiving, knew that he couldn’t judge since if the roles were reversed he’d feel the same. But they had to see this was the only way right? He couldn’t stay, no matter how much he wanted to. He was a danger to everyone and everything around him. Staying wasn’t an option anymore. “I’m gonna leave in the morning,” he stated finally, “I’ve caused you enough trouble as it is. Once I’ve left everything should be okay again. It’ll go back to normal, I guess,” he mused. He wasn’t exactly sure either of their lives had ever been normal, but…well, it was the best he could offer. It would get better when he left at least - they could live a life without so much grief and destruction. That was the only life he was used to know, but they deserved a chance for better, for something else that he could never have. 

[babysbitch]

Baby stared at Dean in disbelief, in betrayal. How could he ever think leaving her alone like this was a good idea? Sure she wasn’t the Impala he grew to love but she hoped he’d at least stay with her after all this time of being together - after all this time of being a human…

“Dean, hun, you don’t mean that right?” She asked, sadness enveloping her as she began to tremble. “I-I wouldn’t be able to cope without you…” She whispered as she continued to stare at him sadly, only blinking to stop the overflowing tears that leaked from her eyes. “You were always there while I was a car, always there to pick up my pieces. And you do that now…” She trailed off as she stepped closer, placing a soft hand on his cheek. “If you leave… who’ll pick up the pieces I’ll evidently drop?”

Without Dean, her driver, her owner, her love of her life; she’d be alone. Absolutely alone. Unable to communicate with the outside world on her own; she always needed Dean’s assistance with that. Being human was hard, and having emotions was so much worse to handle.

[applepiesandimpalarides]

“Baby, you don’t get it. I wouldn’t have had to put you back together again if I hadn’t broken you in the first place,” Dean countered, hesitating before looking up into her eyes. He regretted it immediately, and had known he would - her eyes were shining with unshed tears, tears that were there because of him. “I don’t want to leave, but if I stay…you deserve a normal life. You have the chance to start fresh, to leave all this crap behind…staying with me just puts you in danger,” he explained. 

He didn’t want to leave. She was the one constant thing that had always been there, of course he didn’t want to leave, but he was running out of options of ways to keep her safe. This was the only one he had left. He wasn’t going to let another person die, just because he desperately wanted to keep them close. It was that closeness that got them tortured, killed, possessed or all of the above. He wasn’t letting any of that happen to her - he’d rather die first than see that happen to her. 

[babysbitch]

“B-but-” She bit her shaking, bottom lip and sighed heavily before the tears slowly began to fall. Being human was hard; especially with all of these damn emotions. “I will never have a normal life - whether you leave me or not. I’m not exactly used to being human… but you helped me out, Dean.” She stepped one step closer to him before her eyes met his once again.

“You aren’t putting me in any danger…” She whispered softly as she slowly wiped her tears away. Sniffling gently. “If you left me I could be in more danger than you think…” She said sternly, her eyes on the hard floor beneath her feet.

Her eyes then shot up to meet his, her own puffy and red from her almost-silent crying. She sniffled and stepped so she was close enough to touch him as she reached out and held his hand tightly with her own. “We’ve been together for years, Dean. Don’t do this to me now. Not when I’m so confused… so vulnerable.” She whispered the last part as she stared into his eyes, her own shining.

“I’d miss you without you here… I wouldn’t know what to do! I-I-I won’t be able to cope with anything without you being my anchor to keep me from floating away…”

[applepiesandimpalarides]

This was his fault. Oh God, he hated seeing her so upset, especially when he was the cause of it, but he had to do this. He had to keep her safe. “I am putting you in danger. Lots of it. More than I have the right to anyway,” he replied softly, giving her hand a reassuring squeeze. “You’re a tough girl, tougher than you think, you don’t need me. You’ll be fine on your own,” he promised, starting to tear up as he spoke. He didn’t want her to be on her own, but it would be selfish to stay when all he did was endanger her life. 

“I’m gonna miss you so much,” he whispered shakily, How was he supposed to survive without her? She was his one source of complete comfort in the world, she was home - how the hell was he supposed to leave her and come out okay? He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down. It was for the best. He was doing what was best for her, no matter what he wanted. Her life was more important than his desire to stay. 

“You have a shot at something normal, and Baby you gotta grab it with both hands right now, and grab it tight because when it’s gone…there’s no going back,” he added. He should know - he’d tried more than once. The Apple Pie Life. He’d said he didn’t want it, the monotony of 9 to 5, the fake smiles you shared with annoying neighbours over picket white fences but…he’d only ever said that to get Sam and his own brain to shut the hell up about it. He had loved that life, for the brief periods he had been allowed it. But now his chance was gone - he was far too broken for something as good as that.

But she wasn’t. 

[babysbitch]

Baby was shaking ever-so-slightly and she sniffled as her tears fell slowly. The reassuring squeeze to her hand didn’t go unnoticed - even if she wasn’t replying out loud. She didn’t know what to say. How to convince him to stay with her…

“I’m gonna miss you too.” She whispered shakily back to him, her teary eyes looking at his bright, shiny, green ones. She slowly raised her hands and put them on his cheeks, on either side of his beautiful face. She’d stare at it all day if she was allowed to. Baby sighed heavily and took a deep breath in before looking directly into his eyes, speaking softly: “My whole life has never been normal… well, compared to others. But the life we’ve had, is the life I’ve had since the beginning. I can’t go to a ‘normal’ Apple Pie Life - because for me, I don’t know what that is.”

She kissed his lips gently before looking sadly into his green eyes: “I really don’t want you to go… Dean, baby, I need you here. I really need you here.” She rested her forehead against his, gently.

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean’s heart shattered. The kiss was only a slight brush against his lips, like a soft whisper that was begging him to stay, but the look in her eyes…that look was killing him. “I want to stay,” he murmured, hesitating before gently wrapping his arms around her. “I want to stay Baby, believe me I do, but I…I can’t lose you like everyone else. I just can’t,” he whispered, sounding lost and broken - like a kid who’d lost their parent in the middle of a busy store, and wasn’t sure that they’d ever be able to find them again. 

“You deserve better than this, and this is all I can give you,” he continued finally, trying to get her to understand why they had to do this. “You deserve to be safe and happy and have a real home that you stay in all the time, not a long string of motels and a life of running from demons.”

[babysbitch]

When his arms wrapped around her and his voice - sounding so broken and fragile - spoke to her, she felt her heart break into millions of pieces. She didn’t want him to feel any guilt about anything, but she didn’t want him to leave her. Being alone would be the worst punishment she could ever be given, by anyone!

“Y-you won’t lose me, babe… try to understand. I won’t lose you and you won’t lose me… I’ve survived a lot of hardships, all alongside you, and Sammy. I want it to stay that way. Please.” She pleaded with the last word that came out of her wavering mouth.

“The life of motels and running from things that bump in the night is the life I love being in… especially with you…” She gazed into his eyes and stroked his right cheekbone with her thumb. “It wouldn’t be the same without you…” She leaned forward a little and caught his lips with hers, a small tear rolling down her cheek as her lips connected with his, her arms wrapping around his neck.

[applepiesandimpalarides]

Dean wanted to tell her that that was because she didn’t know what the Apple Pie Life really was, that life could be so much simpler, that she could meet someone who could give her everything she wanted and needed and deserved - everything that he couldn’t give her, no matter how much he wanted to. They didn’t have the time or the money to get special luxuries - most of the time he could barely get enough sleep at night, if he even slept at all. 

But then she kissed him, and he didn’t have the strength or will power to push her away, instead softly kissing her back and gently tightening his arms around her, holding her closer.