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29. I'm tired

[targetedknowledge]

[lamortwrites]

Women being described as handsome >>>>>>>>>>>>

[lamortwrites]

TARGET AUDIENCE REACHED

[the-big-mood]

[anxeious]

[lorelei-system]

It’s interesting how there are at least 2 types of “I don’t remember that.”

1. Not remembering until the memory gets triggered/ you are confronted with evidence, and then you do remember.

2. Absolutely no evidence will bring back the memory. The memory does not exist anymore. That wasn’t me. Nope. Didn’t happen.

And then there’s “I have been told about this, and while I do not remember it, I know that it is factually correct. How do I know? I don’t know.”

I don’t even know what my point is, it’s just interesting to think about. Memories are weird, dissociation is weird. The way the highly traumatized young mind deals with memories is weird.

[gothextramiles]

This is in fact exactly how our memory works

[alnitaks]

[anxeious]

[animentality]

[elizabethsinclair]

love elizabeth s.

[cataplat]

cooking with trauma

[bisexualseraphim]

ADHD at night: I could write a book. I could get my Master’s Degree. I could go to the club and come home with 12 new friends. I could get a job at that club and meet the mother of my children. I could cure every disease and use my wealth to bring world peace.

ADHD during the day: Fold laundry too hard :( Come back next week

[jo-with-avian-wings-reblogs]

mood

[daddystinygirll]

crazy how trauma isn't your fault but it's your responsibility to heal

[terastalungrad]

Here's something I think about addiction:

Indulging in your addiction doesn't feel like being an addict. It feels like choosing to enjoy a pleasure.

DENYING yourself the indulgence feels pathetic. Conservative. Frankly, it feels very right-wing not to enjoy my Thing.

Doing the Thing means everything else in your life is worse. But that's not how it feels.

It feels like this:

I'm tired and stressed, and my Thing is the only thing that brings me pleasure right now. I deserve pleasure. So I will do the Thing.

The truth is:

My Thing is so compulsive that I spend all my time on it and BECOME tired and stressed. And all other sources of pleasure feel insufficient. Because they are not the Thing.

So. You want to keep doing the Thing, obviously. It seems BONKERS to say the Thing is a problem.

How can the *only thing that brings you pleasure* be destructive?

Addiction just feels fun. You just feel like you're having fun.

[ed-recoverry]

From one Gen-Z to another, let’s continue to deprogram ourselves from the idea that 30 is old and you need to have your shit together before 30.

You can go back to school after age 30!

You can fall in love after age 30!

You can find a best friend after age 30!

You can find a passion after age 30!

You can find a job you love after age 30!

You can recover from an addiction after the age 30!

You can pursue a large goal after age 30!

You can travel the world after age 30!

You can move after age 30!

You can change your appearance after age 30!

You can ask for help after age 30!

You can make discoveries about yourself after age 30!

You can come out after age 30!

You can fix your finances after age 30!

You can be attractive after age 30!

You can fix your life after age 30!

You can do anything after age 30!

Idk what so specifically about the number 30 has bewitched so many of us into believing that means your life is over, but it’s just so far from the truth!

You have so much more time after 30 to accomplish all that you want to do.

Your life isn’t over until it quite literally is over. Stop giving yourself a deadline that doesn’t exist!

[the-future-is-chrome]

the neurodivergent experience:

20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333

80% of the time: this mind is a prison

[spicymochi]

you are invited to their party!

[titsay]

today was hard