I've been debating how to approach this, after an unpredictable development last Friday; I have to play the Hiatus card again.
An incident went south unfathomably badly, losing use of a crucial AT that gave me independence.
Outlook is bleak. Overseeing the repairs & red tape, communication.
I can't focus on anything until it's fixed. I've been quietly having a meltdown & major depression in the wake of that incident that's remapping 2026.
Identifying the fault is step 1: rn in the headless chook phase, because ofc it chose the weekend.
Hoping for a 💯 resolution this week.
I don't often or enjoy talking about disability because I come online to decompress & ignore it.
This is an extremely rare (first time of its type) incident that's disemboweled my life, a major event that's not an inconvenience, it's a fiasco + critical emergency.
I can't sweep this one away this time and act like I'm not reliant on stable, working BS I keep private.
If miracles are real, the fault can be fixed this week, & life resumes. I go blind skulling grog.
If however it's the shittastic outcome, that's another indefinite saga I don't want, ever.
Send positive vibes, practice witchcraft, whatever you like, so my life can stop fucking me over & find a new hobby that isn't me.
You can't get rid of me; not God, nobody can.
Dying to return to fandom & write. I haven't indulged anything offline, either. Can't concentrate. Fucked.
Alastor Doe Week is coming up, but I can't get them done on time, so if you're one of the clients, let me know if that bothers you. If I don't get the go-ahead, fic's dropped.
wanted to comment on your ao3 fic but was too shy and nervous to have my account linked so ill tell you here
(about the recent omo alastor fic)
god this is so fucking hot
because you said youre open to it ill just tell you i JO'd to this and finally got where ive been trying to go for days now. i'll probably JO again to it another night.
thank you for starting my hellapissweek off right
The magic of anonymous ✨ god bless certain websites!
You're very welcome — just don't get carried away, I've got another CorporateRadio omo fic coming next (glasses executive). You need to save your energy.
hi. read your most recent fic. youre a super talented writer and the fic was so unbelievably hot. i saw you post about not getting a lot of feedback and i relate because i also write in a kind of under the radar niche. something a lot of people will shame.
your stuffs great. i know i cant make up for everything, but, just know youve got this one anonymous person in your corner!
maybe if i grow a pair i can be active in the community and talk to people off anon <3
anyways. love your stuff
Aaaa, fuck, thank you! Kicking my feet and twirling my mustache rn. I really needed this. I almost deleted my prior, last 2 fics.
It's great to head you enjoyed my newest fic. I felt nervous posting it, I'd never written omo before. Just lurked in the shadows. I have one more CorporateRadio fic due, late because life's been a god damn POS this past month.
I know I sound like a broken record but I truly appreciate your feedback, and sympathize with your own troubles. We're in the same foxhole 💪🏻