harlequin

half of my heart lives in the past

[arewedoomed]

memory.

people in my life just take turns and go away. but my heart still burns for the one I hoped would stay his eyes haunt me like a ghost I see his lips in my dreams but it's his mind i miss the most much more than it seems

[arewedoomed]

flower.

you are my gardener.

I want to grow with you and I want both of us to cherish each other’s growth to water each other’s feelings and take care of each other’s soul if there is a butterfly on my petals, or a new flowerbud on my stem I want you to be the one to caress and kiss it if there is pest and I shut myself from you, I want you to remember the patience with which you found  the sacred, hidden pieces of my soul and to wait until I can grow again I might not be an easy company sometimes but I will always respect you, love you and adore you because you are the reason I am able to do these things again and even if you leave, I will always cherish you in my heart as the patient gardener whose passion has awaken my own, long gone one

[arewedoomed]

genesis.

in the realm of no time and space we were flying through the void just two souls trying to find their place in the infinite number of spirits we found each other along the way you were the melody to my lyrics it all happened thousands of years ago we had no shape, no concrete form flying with nothing above, nothing below and when it was time to change our mold we came down to mother Earth and suddenly began to grow dismal and old

all the earthbound despair and sorrow tore us apart so very fast and if i could have one wish tomorrow i would make our first encounter last

[arewedoomed]

you are a work of art.

your cheekbones are Michelangelo’s masterpiece and your eyes da Vinci’s art yet neither of them can capture the delicacy of your heart

your perfect body is like sculpted from the finest marble and your face so clearly defined yet even your mesmerizing beauty fades in comparison with your beautiful mind

[arewedoomed]

need.

I need a new alphabet made of sadness, void and sorrow then I could finally tell you that I might not wake up tomorrow

I need a new sky one that never stops crying so that you’re not alone when you watch me dying

I need you to stay alive and safe, my boy I will fly among the clouds and watch guard over your joy

[arewedoomed]

angel.

angels don’t exist I hear you say but they indeed do when you ask me how I know I just smile and look at you

[arewedoomed]

portals.

your eyes were like portals an entrance to the outer space i couldn’t believe that a mere mortal made the world seem like a divine place i will never forget the way you looked at me because in your dark brown eyes i could see the moon, the stars and the whole galaxy

[arewedoomed]

22. 4. 2020

dear diary,

we broke up. and that’s when my whole world c                                                         r                                                            a                                                          s                                                            h                                                               e                                                              d again

[arewedoomed]

lonely.

I'm standing in the rain with my eyes facing the sky the sky is crying and so am i all i feel is pain was it all in vain? i wanted you and had to say goodbye without you i want to die and i will never be the same

[arewedoomed]

my kind of love.

my love is strange. it makes me forget the world around me. it cuts deep into my skin. it’s like swimming in the beautiful ocean but i can’t breathe. it’s like flying in the sky but i don’t have wings. it’s like watching a mesmerising sunset but i’m blind. it makes me feel alive but makes me want to die. and there’s no way out. because she is who i am.

[arewedoomed]

sorrow.

sorrow eats away at me  and destroys my heart so let me fall asleep before i fall apart

[arewedoomed]

liar.

you promised that things would change that they would be different this time i trusted you and fell in love now i know it was a crime you came around when i was hopeful i had started over new  you were so nice and then so cruel now i’m down because of you you say that you care about me but you’re as cold as stone so be who you promised to be or just leave me on my own

[arewedoomed]

noc.

slzy se vpíjí do polštáře vzlyky se rozléhají tmou a nad tím vším bdí hvězdná záře zatímco vnitřnosti řvou

a nebe pláče

[arewedoomed]

emptiness.

how can emptiness be so heavy?

[arewedoomed]

let me help you.

let me drown your demons and numb the pain let me try to please you again and again

you distance from those who want to save you and your mind is full of darkness you don’t know what to do

is there a way to cure you? there might be, i don’t know but my love will lift you up when you feel so low

so stop running from me and give me your hand let me show you that there’s someone who can understand

[arewedoomed]

there's nothing really left to say i don't need you to explain we don't need those lines so tired of living in the past so if we're gonna make it last we should leave it all behind

Sleeping with Sirens

[arewedoomed]

connection.

you left me i can’t feel you i can’t hear you i don’t even know you anymore but that’s okay because we both watch the same moon rising up the hill and watch it again till it hides in the clouds (don’t worry, it will be back soon)  the sun which wakes you in the morning is the one which wakes me we sleep under the same stars let me count them: one, two, three... (we used to watch them together, remember?) when the rain falls on my skin i know it falls on yours, too and then i realize that there is no reason for mourning because even though we are apart somehow we are still two