overconfident bag of trash

fifty shades of dino jizz ♥ bee catblogging disabled (and very loud about it) ladyperson, and the cat-loving, freelance-writing, raven/dr. victoria von doom/black canary-cosplaying poet laureate of the internet icon source

[areyoumypizza]

I know I've missed everything, tell me things because I genuinely have missed and love you all?

[areyoumypizza]

I don't remember how to talk anymore so I open this and just forget how to do it, how to deal with people. I miss buddies tho

[areyoumypizza]

Well, my father has brain cancer and now the doctors are encouraging us to stop treatment and just kinda get him comfortable and it's pretty terrible and I don't know how to feel beyond "a whole junk of bad." I knew there was a hella low rate of survival but i was an asshole full of optimism. Hooray stuff is great IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE OKAY IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE THIS

[areyoumypizza]

Oh uh, and I got an arc reactor tattoo on my wrist for my birthday.

[areyoumypizza]

My mother wants to move in a few years and Chicago is near the top of her list of places to consider, which would be pretty amazingly cool, I guess.

[areyoumypizza]

I haven't posted anything because I don't really have any words. I've been focusing on medical shit and my upcoming surgery, and trying to reestablish some sort of life here, which is way harder than I expected. I basically go to the doctor, come home, and try to unpack. I've gotten some new toys from my family (AN OMNIBLADE! MY DREAM RAVEN MAQUETTE), and bought an adorable snake that was on clearance because it is mostly blind, she's an albino ball python named Pepper Potts who loves to snuggle. I also got a fish. My life is very boring, but I'm so grateful for the chance to have a boring, safe life. I owe it to all of you, and I still don't know how to properly make it up to everyone. Perhaps when I get my spinal stimulation box implanted I will be able to think again, even with the withdrawal from all my old pain meds being over (thanks Brian for refusing to mail them to me, cool), my brain is still a fog. I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's and a gluten intolerance, so that's been fun as hell. Life is weird and so many things were supposed to be different.

[areyoumypizza]

Well I just broke up with a dude during the first Liara cutscene on the Normandy. Oops?

[yeoldenews]

source: The Ottawa Evening Herald, January 27, 1902.

[areyoumypizza]

Also apparently I have a boyfriend now who is very understanding of everything and is very careful about what he does so that he doesn't trigger me. And I'm going to be doing the trial to make sure morphine put directly into my spine works before they implant the box that does it automatically, because the injections directly into my si joints set my PTSD off so bad that I cried for quite a lot of hours, so it's been mutually decided as a bad idea to try again.

[areyoumypizza]

I hunted down my completely forgotten and stored on my currently broken computer Tumblr password and abandoned my thoroughly written and quite beautiful post about everything that's been happening since I left to say that yesterday i called the police and started the 40 years long process of filing charges against Brian.

[areyoumypizza]

Secret moogle-stealing fancy lady @ediecats

[areyoumypizza]

Why. How do you go from rude to I'd fuck you to insulting lighten up you're too mad about the fact that I have consistently dehumanized you so fucking fast

[areyoumypizza]

Thee story of an angry pissbaby 2/2

[areyoumypizza]

The epic saga continues 1/2

[areyoumypizza]

I quit. And i was too morally outraged to remember to list all of his - isms.

[areyoumypizza]

I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS IN EVERY DEPTH OF HELL WAY

[areyoumypizza]

He's still going at it.