Who thought you would teach me how to live?
Little did I understand when Selena Gomez said, "There is a blessing in the breaking". For the 22 years of my life I thought I was living, accomplishing everything that a kid my age would ever dream of but, little did I know I was fighting to survive, I was fighting with my own nervous system. I think my whole life all I have learnt is to fight for things, people and opportunities. I nailed things and opportunities but, I lost people. No matter how hard I tried people would just slip away. I used to think I was so strong of letting people go, I was so strong to be on my own but, guess what I have always found myself running or rushing through things so, that I don't have to face what I have lost. I would always tell people if you ever hurt me or break my trust , you are dead to me. I used to think I was so strong for being able to do that but, now I think about it I was the weakest. All these years, my nervous system was fighting, I didn't know what calm was until after I met you and with a blink of an eye lost you. I thought I lost the purpose of my life. I gave up and I left everything behind without a second thought, I just didn't know what to fight for anymore. But, all those months when I had nothing to fight for I learnt not to run. I felt at peace all by myself even though I had nothing to look forward to. Maybe , that's why for once in my life I chose myself and honestly, nothing scares me anymore. I give life my all, I give myself my all and I am so proud of myself and I know you will be too. For once in my life I am not worried, I am just curious. I can finally say that I love life and I love myself for who I am and really mean it.












