Fucking up: Fuck Upās POV
If youāre anything like me, you would know the struggles of what itās like to be in a friendship. Iām socially awkward and an introverted extrovert. Friendships are awesome, theyāre like baking a cake. Too much of somethingās going to ruin it and in this case, too much of me.
Now Tumblr. I know that nobody is going to see this. Thatās fine, Iām writing this post for future me so I can kick her in the face. Many friendships come from contributing factors such as school, extracurricular activities and even family friends. I was lucky enough to meet all my friends at school; some that I have known longer than 3 years.
Some of you may know me personally, knowing that I donāt like to show my weaknesses or ask for help. This next year is about changing that. Asking for help when needed and not distancing yourself away from the people who generally make you feel loved and cared about.
I did the complete opposite of what you should do to nurture a friendship. Help it grow, be better. Making memories is something I love to do with people I care about because I know that one day Iām going to say ādamn we were stupidā and weād relive them through our stories. Sadly, when you distance yourself away from people, you hurt them. You no longer have the privilege to do this. You hurt them and sometimes your friendship canāt recover.
In the words of MCR āI am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone.ā This becomes a reality for you. You donāt realise how much they filled your life until they are gone. You donāt notice the things that made you feel better once they are gone. All the laughs, the jokes, the hugs, the reassurance, the fake arguments and the time youāve spent together. Gone.
So to the people who are reading this post, Iām looking at you future me. Please hold your friends close. Donāt let go of them. Theyāre valuable, they are precious. Make memories with them while you still can. Take selfies too if thatās your forte. Whatever you can with them. Do that.
If you donāt, youāll be like me. Youāll no longer have those people alongside you, to celebrate your moments with. What you will have is broken friendships and a broken heart. Things wonāt recover overnight but with the right attitude, try and be that person you were when you first met them.
Donāt let go of your friends, theyāll be the people who fill the empty chairs at your funeral.
To my friends I may have hurt, I canāt express enough how deeply sorry I am. I miss you all, Iām sorry that I hurt you and that I ever took you for granted. You all are the most important people in my life. For that, I thank you for giving me a chance to show you how much I never want to give you all up <3
- Xoxo Your Favourite Fuck Up- Leah