a LiveJournal continuation

authors note: dates tagged month and year combination with the day separated. ----ex: March2020 1---- back logs in the form of screen shots might be added from previous location with the same tag format and original dates.

[as-told-by-alex]

Dates in tags

Just stream of consciousness

A live journal continuation and my aggressively sober ramblings

-alex

If you look at posts older than 2018:

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I will never be enough. Not for myself, not for anyone else.

And this is becoming so much clearer as days go by...

[feral-ballad]

Hanif Abdurraqib, from A Fortune for Your Disaster: Poems; “It is maybe time to admit that Michael Jordan definitely pushed off”

[feral-ballad]

Katie Ford, from If You Have to Go: Poems; “The Addresses”

[Text ID: “I wish I could leave me.”]

[feral-ballad]

Maya C. Popa, from Wound is the Origin of Wonder: Poems: “Duress”

[Text ID: “Often, I’ve wanted, / not death, but disappearance, / evaporation, a bloodless self-banishment.”]

[feral-ballad]

Jeanette Winterson, from Lighthousekeeping

[petaltexturedskies]

Albert Camus, The Complete Notebooks

[galleryofart]

A Telegram

Artist: Julius Exner (Danish, 1825-1910)

Date: 1893

Medium: Oil on canvas

Collection: National Gallery of Denmark, Copenhagen, Denmark

[feral-ballad]

Elizabeth Metzger, from Lying In: Poems; “Every Child Alone”

[feral-ballad]

I’m holding all my longing between my stomach & my throat.

Yves Olade, from Slaughterhouse; “Mercy”

[some-bad-habits]

-x

[petaltexturedskies]

Margaret Atwood, from “Oh” in Morning in the Burned House

[charnel-grounds]

Miles Johnston (b. 1993), “Agony”

oil on canvas. 2017–18

source

[as-told-by-alex]

[undertheinfluencex1]

one day someone will hold your heart carefully instead of making you apologize for having one

[thoughtkick]

“Even if you know what’s coming, you’re never prepared for how it feels.”

— Natalie Standiford, How to Say Goodbye in Robot

[twinkprison]