my love was born to be mine own joy

darkness and upheaval always precede an expansion of consciousness

[javarisx-fightingthosedemons]

[originalromanticsir]

Stepping back from the autopilot mode that governs much of daily life. Instead of mindlessly following routines or social expectations, pausing to consider what truly matters and align my actions accordingly. Living deliberately. 🖤

[myelicia]

[cynthia39100]

Merlin rewatch -- S2E4: Lancelot and Guinevere

tunnel scene

" Where are your knights?" " It's just us."

I love it when a scene is just composed with actors' various reaction shots.

Arthur was doing alright here really. His voice was rather casual and uplifting. It's still palpable how much effort he made to squeeze those words out though. The sentence was so short and he looked like his throat was locked after that.

It's kind of cute that Lancelot turned to Merlin instantly for confirmation and then Merlin got his usual " I can't speak I can't laugh I don't know anything" face. It's so funny. Kind of nice too. He knew he shouldn't spill Arthur's secret.

The background music climaxed at this handholding and it was magnificent and beautiful and heartbreaking (for Arthur).

I think perhaps at this moment Gwen decided that Lancelot would be the one for her. She must notice the implication of Arthur's action. Arthur was willing to go on a secret mission for her, but all the same, there were custom and laws separating them. And Lancelot was right here, giving her support.

Merlin's face was in so much shock it was almost funny. He got quite some information dump on this trip. I like that he instantly checked on Arthur who was literally lost for words.

Meanwhile, Lancelot, being a good man and still clueless, said to Arthur " We own you our lives."

The "we" must have hurt. Arthur couldn't form a word, couldn't even nod properly. He knew he had no claim on Gwen and no right to be hurting. He was grateful that Lancelot helped Gwen but also hoped that he could be in that place. A lone fighter who was free of the bounds of duty and free to rescue whoever he liked.

[S2E4] [other episodes]

[gvaine]

3.06 — The Changeling

[sircolinmorgan]

Arwen Fest: Day 7 + Free Day. 

Merlin: Captain of the Arwen ship.

[ramblings-of-lola]

Merlin is like the #1 Arwen shipper and he’s tried of Arthur and Gwen getting in the way of it becoming canon.

[ughmerlin]

— H OF H PLAYBOOK, anne carson (insp.)

[lavenderinoz]

Merlin and Arthur Pendragon - Art by Alice Blake

[luciferdecker]

[sircolinmorgan]

Arthur + his love for Gwen.

[primulaceas]

James Baldwin, Giovanni's Room

[it-appears-that-bruno-has-deact]

[flowerytale]

Michael Cunningham, from “The Hours”

[kosmogrl]

[anxeious]

nobody who has ever made me feel small and unwanted has possessed a heart or a life that i admired

[daily-spooky]

[apocryphics]

“Brother, I’m not depressed and haven’t lost spirit. Life everywhere is life, life is in ourselves and not in the external. There will be people near me, and to be a human being among human beings, and remain one forever, no matter what misfortunes befall, not to become depressed, and not to falter—this is what life is, herein lies its task. I have come to recognize this. This idea has entered into my flesh and blood.”

— Fyodor Dostoevsky, in a letter to his brother detailing his experience of nearly getting executed

[primulaceas]

The Doubling of Self: An Interview with Richard Siken by Peter Mishler