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[astrumwrath]

my therapist told me that i should start drawing to get off my thoughts but now i feel empty becasue i cant remember moms face

[astrumwrath]

got so mad at that therapist im bleaching my hair

my non online friends think its because i saw inspo on pinterest but no its zanka nijiku

WE WKLL SEE

[astrumwrath]

IM FUCKING TWEAKINGGG I HATE THIS

woke my ass up st 5 am just to say "get up we're going to the doctor" ???!?!?!?? what doctor "just a doctor" WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN

didnt tell me nothing. just went to his room. I HATE THIS I HAVE EVERYEHING I WANNA DIE WHAT THE FUCKK

if its a psychiatrist im geniuenly deleting all my accounts and if its a normal doctor im gonna cry

its the 13th so its the "doctor the school sent me to" so idfk im tweaking gbye

[astrumwrath]

i need to lock in bro that was so chalant GAWDD IM LGONT O SLEEP GOODIGHT

[cyannidex33]

why does my entire mood change based on her

[thepictoblr]

dude. what did you do. everyone is here.

[plkadawt]

school makes me suicidal i rlly wish i had my blade rn

[astrumwrath]

gghg polish is frying my brain i cant thinkk oh my godd

why does everything have to be about religion this is so uninteresting

a few weeks and im freeee

[astrumwrath]

i cut my lip on a knife and it feels like i have fucking botox or some shit it hurts so bad

i look like i made out with someone who had herpes or some shit im gonna kms

[astrumwrath]

when i bring out the needles and candle so you KNOW im not going out with short sleeves 🙏

is this what addiction is

[astrumwrath]

making me relapse. only friend btw. ONLY FUCKING ONE AND YOU PUSHED ME IVE BEEN CLEAN SINCE THE START OF THE FUCKING SCHOOL YEAR IM SO DONE WITH ALL OF YOU

next thing im gonna see is "nells 🥺🥺 i saw ur scars!! are you okay??" SKUT UP SHUT UP OH YNGODDD I HATE EVERYSINGLE ONE OF YOU

[oukichi]

iii NEEED TO CUT MYSFELF FUCK!!!!!

[astrumwrath]

teribly sorry for my moots and the people that i just abandoned i still get notifs about you i gen just use this app for fanfics atp ( ﾟдﾟ;)

[astrumwrath]

the date is itching closer to when im supposedly going to a therapist like a genuine medically approved one and i dont know what to think

my family keeps reffering to it as a 'doctors appointment' but like i know I KNOW its that the second i found out it was scheduled by my school. like theres no other explanation. i dont know what to say like im seeing people that talk about being hospitalized when they talked about similar problems bht im not sick i just need someone to listen im not fucking crazy.

i feel like an experiment this has to be staged

[jirai-haruhi-deactivated2026042]

SLEEP

[astrumwrath]

there were fucking students from italy and i wanted to talk in english to them BUT OF FUCKING COURSE THEY WENT TO TALK TO EVERYONE AND THOUFHT "OH NO ONE SPEAKS ENGLISH HERE" LIKE NO PLEASE LET ME SPEAK IN ENGLISH LEMME PRACTICEE

i have a really thick accent but like i can speak the language bro lemme talk with you pls

[astrumwrath]

this shit geniuenly took a few years off my life but the excitement i felt when i saw ts was beautiful