Welcome to my crazy world.

Hi,My name is Auggie Yuri and I am a trans male.This blog follows the many ups and downs on the road to transition fully and my mental health struggles.

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A positive post

I have come a long way from where I started out.

I was so depressed before I came out,a suicide attempt almost every month but I haven’t tried to take my life for two months now.I haven’t even thought about it lately.I started gender therapy,I finally have a steady group of friends that I manage not to lose.

I am able to articulate how I feel better.If there is a toxic person in my life I am able to cut them out without hesitation of how they feel about it anymore.It’s my life and I need to live it,not let people try to run it for me. 

I know what I want and need and I don’t let anyone violate that anymore,I used to let people walk all over me.

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I’m tired of this place,I hope people change.

Living where I live thing continue to get worse.

Everyday there is some altercations with someone that makes me fear for my safety more and more.The other day while taking my little brother trick or treating in a neighborhood by my school,a group of kids starting yelling verbal assaults at me,like for example:”We are going to kill you,tr***y,if you come back on this street.” I am very used to this but my little brother being autistic and 12 was very scared and wanted to go home right after the incident.

I took him home and he didn’t want to eat his candy when we got back,he just got into his corner and started rocking back and forth.I have built a thick skin for this but I will be honest the threat scared me too.I just worry that if my little brother dares to be anything different and already being autistic he is bullied for that and if he turned out being trans or gay,in this town I am afraid he might not be able to handle it. 

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A situation that I want to bring to light.

There is a situation at school that I can no longer let lie because I worry for the other trans student at my school.On a Friday I disclosed to a new group of students that I am transgender,this caused one of the student’s to tell me “Why can’t you be your own gender,you freak.”This upset me but the fact there was no action done by the school.They said that “He has religious beliefs and we need to respect that.” but say no need to protect my rights as a person,that upset me more.This student is constantly shoving religion down peoples throats and being put on high tower of someone to be in this school program I go to.He has constantly gotten in my face about many situations concerning my gender identity and sexual/romantic attraction.I am going to to talk to newspapers and the school board of my town.I at first wanted to keep this between the school and I but I am thinking of the current other transgender kid at my school and the others that may come.

I do not want to undermine my schools many contributions in valuing my identity as man but they are not valuing it in this situation so I am scared this will happen to another student that doesn’t have the mental strength to stand up for themselves like I do.

I could not feel against myself or my school if one day a student is being harassed so much they take their own life,or they become physically assaulted by another student because I did not make it clear enough that this type harassment is not okay,no matter the religious belief or the students identity as a transgender woman or man,gay or bi or pansexual.This entire situation does not sit right with me at all.

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Introductions.

Hello,My name is Auggie Yuri.I am 17 almost 18 years old.I am a transgender male.I begun my transition last year socially in August.Coming out was easy but hard,I struggled being honest with how I had been feeling for years now,I cried after I told my whole school I was transgender (which to be honest I goto school with only about 20 kids.).They all were so supportive and the only support I don't really have is from my family.I hope they'll come around but maybe they never will.Anyhow,I am an artist and writer,I will probably post my art and poetry here.I am a very sensitive boy and show my emotions a lot.I enjoy listening to a wide variety of music.I have recently gotten a referral to a gender therapist.I will be seeing them very soon.I can't wait to get on testosterone and feel the boyhood I feel I really missed out on.