Autistic Unibot

In the corner, carved into a tree, you see some words…

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Sometimes it feels as though 1000 people are watching through my eyes.

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Even if it goes away, are they really gone, or simply hiding?

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If I’ve got an audience, might as well put on a show.

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I don’t know if I overcame some sort of mental block, or out-reasoned the wisdom, but I can now use my wisdom for myself. Knowledge flows freely within me, endless and pure. All I need do is have a ladle.

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Keep losing my damn ladle.

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The Moon rests atop its Throne of Clouds, as the Queen of the Night.

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The moon fucking cheated at that one Google Doodle game so now I’ve got beef with her.

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I deeply regret finishing Gurren Laggan because now I know I can never make anything that lives up to it. Every single thing I write will just be a cheap copy of it.

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A while after this, I realized this is a really really stupid way of thinking. Even GL has its own flaws. There is no “better” or “worse”. That implies some great, 2 dimensional scale that everything falls onto, and that is NOT how the world works. There isn’t any such thing as better, just different.

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There is nothing at the center of the universe. There never was, never has been, and never will be. If you go there, you’ll realize how much more remarkable you are than the center of everything.

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I think being in the middle would be boring. No matter how far you move, everything moves around you, so you will never see anything new. I much more enjoy being able to move throughout the universe freely.

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Not sure why Tumblr says I’m following myself, but it feels nice seeing all my past thoughts.

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Mori is, unfortunately, correct. Unless I make a change, I’ll just remain a corpse burrier in the ground. I can’t rely on destiny or even my immaculate luck to be pulled out of my own grave. I have to claw my way out, even if it means getting dirt under my fingernails.

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Feeling like doing this lately

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Lemd to me your suffering. I’ll take however much you can’t bear, and some of what you can.

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Im sorry I couldn’t be there for whoever is reading this.

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I want to be between the moon and the sun.

Not too bright that you can’t look at me.

Not to dim to need to reflect the light of others.

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Everyone get on your hamter wheels. I need some ideas.

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To everyone worrying about ruining friendships any time you meet with them, remember that each time you meet has a chance that you might cure some deep trauma of theirs or something similar, thus greatly deepening your bond.

Invert anxiety

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Today I stand a little taller.

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You’re scared to do it because you don’t know what will happen?

Not knowing what will happen is the reason it’s fun!

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After mulling over the rights and responsibilities of power, I have come to a conclusion.

Punishment and Reward are concepts created by man, and it is up to us how we dole them out. If someone treats us unfairly, we should stand up to them. Whoever wins is right.

Might makes right, but with rights comes responsibilities.

I may not be the largest in any one area, but I am just large enough in all areas to stand before those who are small in those areas and shield them.

I should protect them when they are small.

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“I suffered, so why shouldn’t they?”

I suffered, so why SHOULD they? Was my own suffering not enough? What part of my suffering justifies their suffering? I suffered, so they shouldn’t.